"Boys are idiots"

Ok, not in general.
But, seriously..
-_-

So, i received a text from a friend.
And well, apparently..
the guy she likes was 'giving' her away to his friend, who likes her.
Why so?

My friend hinted the guy that she likes him alot.
Then, that guy seem to have shown the same.
But!!
All of a sudden, a rumor saying that guy's friend likes my friend too.
Dramatic?
Damn dramatic, machiam korean drama.

So, what did my friend's prince charming do?
He got very generous and kind, he gave my friend away to his friend!!
OMG.
That is like; wtffffff.

So, did he just pull the 'bros before hos' saying?
Yes, he OBVIOUSLY did.
So your bro is more important than the girl la.
wtf, please hor.
My friend is NOT a ball.
She dont need you to push her to ur friend.

Because she likes you.
-sigh-
No matter how much your friend likes her,
she still likes you best.

Can't you do the same?
Like, I know your friends are gonna say.
"You betrayed xxx because of a girl?"
Waseh, please lor.
If you did, just proudly say.
"Cos I love her too.
Too bad for xxx."

(no need to be too mean though)

Tsk!
My friend feels so heartbroken.
Cos all that guy do is to mention;
"eh, you see .. xxx looking at u."
" you should like him back too."
asshole, u not charity hor.

No need to DONATE my friend away.
That guy one, he can come and woo my friend.
NO NEED TO ask you to DONATE her to him.
If he still wants, he's a freeloader/ horny bastard.

Sigh, for me to actually know you.
You know, you freaking disappoint me.
My friend is a 'gift' from god.
And, whenever you recieve a gift, you should NEVER give it away.
Cos its rude.

You are horrible.

--- enough of my rants alr--

so, today is a sat.
tml is august, and im bored.
):
ok, bai.

"Oh, the dismay.."

I am just upset, and all I need is a listening ear.
I need a person who doesnt know the situation just yet.
Neither does that person know who is involved.

Because I really need to get everything out.
Everything means everything.
Like, how i feel about whats happening.
But the sad problem is, I havent found the exact person yet.

Really, I was really stupid enough to
rant my nonsense towards someone that 'know' what's going on.
All I need is for you to hear, not say anything about it.
Because it actually made EVERYTHING worse.
I almost felt insulted and ready to cry when you said that.
- but as usual, i wont fucking cry unless i burst-

Besides, it would give you the 'kick' out of it, right?
To see me crying.
Yeayea, bitch. i wont!

Ok, so the reason why I need that type of person..
is because they wont freaking judge!!
I need you to stop judging me, cos I get really upset when you do.
And when I am upset + MORE upset = I lose and u die.

I need you to ;
1) Listen
2) Dont Judge
3) Let me finish what i am saying.
4) Allow me to bawl.
5) Allow me to preserve my dignity.
6) Let me bitch about anything and everything.

So, the above list is the difficult one.
Where the hell can i find this person, you tell me?!

Ok, I am being a spoilt bitch.
Since young, i dont get what I want.
I will get really upset and I will whine, moan, cry about it.

Thats how I feel about the Melbourne trip.
I know its my own careless mistake, but I am just 不爽.
(Accommodate me for this paragraph or so)
Because my friends are going for it.
Worse, the ones who said they are not going are going.
(another excuse for me to get angry)
Well, and seeing the happy faces on my friends..
Just get me really jealous and sour.

(I know, you must think I am really horrible)
Yes, I am horrible.
But I have already admitted it that I am 'spoilt' and unhappy.
- If you are horrified of me, u can leave my blog immediately -

So, I am jealous.
yes, but I am not going to 泼冷水 on my friends.
because they are really very excited about it.
And, i cannot be even more horrible.

But I am just upset, because of the fact that I missed such a chance.
Because of my own fault.
Stupid right?

Ok, now i have to suck it up.
or someone should scold me.
cos wo de pi hen yang.

anyway, im beginning to get irritated with someone again!
hello, leader.
you girlfriend doesnt mean she recieve priority emails only.
PLEASE BCC US ALSO.
Thank u, and you guys can find a room to make out.

Anyway, I wonder..
To what extent would i go to get my boyfriend's attention.
Cos I am a real attention seeker.
I really like attention alot.
haha, horrible bad habit.

So, maybe...
I would be like the same as her?
i think?
Cos she was doing that infront of the WHOLE 2 team.
sit 1 corner emo, let her bf see.
ok lo.
I think i will also like that.
As in im nt being sarcastic.
just being honest about it, maybe i will act that way too.
):

Ok, enough la.

And really, crying helps.
haha~

"I see red"

Gosh, I have SO much negative energy in my body these days.
I am getting angry really easily these days.
maybe I am going to pms soon.

Anyway, I am pissed about 2 things.

1)Why didnt you email me back, letting me hang there wasnt a choice for me.
Thanfully, I am trying to keep my cool without emailing you something sarcastic.
I can do that, when i am really upset or nasty.

2) wow, congrats. I kinda expected that from you.
Come on, time will tell everything.
And obviously, I have seen what you are capable of.
Nasty, serious.

anyway, I am going to be really realistic.
Seriously, there is NO one friend that you would always be pleased or seen no flaws about.
Honestly, dont lie.
Unless, you haven't been close enough or you are what I was previously.
'Close 1 eye, Open 1 eye'

I was like that, till I realised..
Why not open your both eyes and look at it for yourself
I dont deny it.
I have ALOT of faults.
Come on, it would be HARD not to bitch behind me.
I have seen it, and survived/surviving.

The point I am trying to bring about; friends will have flaws.
And sometimes, I really really have the intention to tell them straight into their faces.
I just want to go "You know, you are..."

For friends whom I know long enough, like 7 years+
I mean, really close friends.
I have decided not to say anything about it.
I realize I have grown accustomed to you guys.

For friends whom I have known for a few years like 3 years..
Also, I have seen it.
But I too, have grown accustomed to it.
Because the thoughts..
" I accept you for who you are.."
Also, if I didnt liked you..
I would have followed..
"Dont be with the people, you dont want to become.."

And for friends whom I know less than 2 years;
I am still learning to know what comes under my list.
I am still filtering, learning, watching, observing..

But..
I have seen some that i really love to treasure.
But at times, it becomes the love/hate friendship.
"I freaking hate what you are doing, but I am still considering the fact we are friends."

Also, for those newly formed frienships..
It is really succeptible to lots of nonsense.
Like trust issues, its difficult not to think about what the person is doing.
The feeling of doubt.
I know its horrible.

I go through that phase ALOT with people whom I am slowly accommodating to.
I doubt them at times, at sometimes afraid to use the word "best friend"
yea, that word..
has really deep meanings, but in the surface.
It's a title only.
Nothing much.

Now, I am still in dilemma about this tweet I made today.

I said
"Less is More. It doesn't necessary states that more friends = more happiness. I am glad I have found that portion in my past."

It's horrible, right?
But I really am exhausted at times..
like during secondary school, i didnt feel that it was that friendship was important.
I will just go "whatever la" and "hi - bye" *smile*
But slowly, I began to realise how important my girlfriends are to me.

I love u guys, seriously.
secondary mates ; sam and grace.
I cant lose both of you.

my lil family;
lao ma vanessa teo, lao po shimin and baby chloe.
i realised, they cared.. they still do!

--------

sigh, how uh..
I really wanna go back secondary school again.
I miss those 'sui bian la' days.

bleah, no need think about
friends ganging up to bully u
backstabbers with malicious intentions
shit loads.

anw, I still do treasure u guys as friends.
even though there are rough times.
we will see whether do we take the challenge up for being friends?
or maybe just become a memory in each other.

maybe now, just give me time to get used to it.
i need that time.

---- Also, BGR is a horrible thing --
it tears u from the inside.
I will never forget you, but I will just need another to think about.

bye guys, i still love you guys.

P.S ; thanks grace.
for calling me. it mattered alot.

"Silence sounds like a good idea right now"

Maybe it would be best not to know.
maybe it would be better if the word and happiness didnt hang around me.
i feel terribly upset.

I am not stating I am angry.
but it would really help if everything was quieter.
because i know thats what I would do.
I just hope it was done for me.

please, dont mention to me about this.
I feel really horrible.
I didnt know why you had to do this.
Its just really upsetting.
it looks like it was done on purpose.

Just keep quiet, for the respect of my feelings.

Read the lyrics, its really well...
Understandable?
I like the lyrics alot.

Liking a guy who doesnt have feelings for you.
So sad, right?
What's worse, I have told that person so much about myself.
So silly of me to do that.

Thai songs are good, I like Ten Mic Idol.
Their vocals are one of the soothing ones.
Boys arent good news.
I seriously, should stop myself from getting affected.

It takes time, certainly.
Ohwell.. Just sharing.

P.S UT 2 IS OVER.
which means UT3 is coming.
dread it. -.-

ohwell,ciaos.

Boy, you're the whole package

psst, im so into bella and jacob fanfics now!
thank u taylor lautner, hot as i dont know what..
mega love!~

edit-

ok,someone totally sprang this qn on me just now.
yea gal, u know who u are. lol.
u stalker! but i love u for reading and caring!~

So me and (lets call her rachel) were talking just now.
About guys, cos she STALKED my blog.
lol, eh.. I didnt know u read blogs lor!
tsk!

Once i posted up this post, she talked to me about it.
So, we talked till this part; where she asked..
'Will you date a poor guy?'
I was like *stunned*

Me; ehh. why u ask qn like this sia?
politically right answer or truthful answer?
Rach; either.
Me; *pauses* - at that point, i thought like suuuper hard-
Rach; aiya. I tell u my opinion first. Maybe can influence u. :P
Me; uhh, ok. *nods* -still thinking-

Rach; Yes, I will. Cos I like him alot.
Me; uwah, thats a politically right answer leh!
Rach; No leh. Cos I love _____ alot ma!

I was pretty much scratching my head.
So easy to choose meh?
Then she started explaining that;
because loving him means encompassing his everything.
Good or Bad, just take! (lol)

Well, I am still pretty stunned la.
I dont know what to say.
rach, u change alot leh!
but no, my love remains the same. I mean for u.
LOL

so now, lemme ask myself.
but im sleepy.
maybe the answer will be given next time? :D
-avoid avoid-

Pretty right? I love blue skies!
It just brightens my mood whenever I see the combination of,
fluffy clouds and blue skies. (took this on the way home)


Goshgosh, I haven't been blogging.
I am so sorry.
Really, my life is dramatic right now.
Fights with friends and friends that aren't really my friends.
But overall, even though it's filled with nonsensical drama.
My life is pretty bland.
Bland is the word.
lol.

Ok, so surprise surprise.
I've found out that I have a wrong impression of a close friend.
Well, he's actually really studios.
that surprised me a lil.

next; 3 ut modules are over.
left with my theory module.
heh.

ok, ut sucks.
i cant study, believe i will do worse. ):
there goes my drastic gpa.
i suck at everything.
congrats, found myself a new name. Loser.

ok, well lets skip to the happy stuff.
so woke up at 9.30; studied a lil for UT.
texted amanda that i would be late and asked her to head to school first.
took my time, walked to the bus stop.
boarded a single deck 161.

i sat opposite this bulky guy from our school.
never seen him before and went into my world.
then, got a call from amanda..
which surprisingly is in the same bus as me.
haha.

dozed off like a log and reached interchange.
when getting down the bus, i saw his name sewn onto his shirt.
and well, his name got printed on my brains.
Only just..
I told myself to recall whats his name, and went to check facebook.
ok, im a stalker!

but cute guys are stalkable. lol!

and ahhh!!
found that we have mutual friends.
and our mutual friends is my close friend!~~
machiam so good. :D
lol, wrong use of machiam.. i guess?

major like!

ok, so round up my day.
fyp meeting
ut
ut over
heartland mall kovan with amanda
accompanied amanda to buy bible for her sis.

went home for dinner
an awesome dinner.
(mum cooked herbal chicken; ehh. shiok ttm!~)
watched wipeout, almost peed.
so damn lol-worthy!
use laptop, send advisor my summary.
stalk ppl on facebook.
haha
gg to sleep soon.

but a few notessss;
1)i just knew amanda's church was beside selegie soyabean!~ :D
we have been so close, yet i dont know her!! omggg.
2) ruth,eileen,yy and i were talking abt our secondary school photos.
lol
had sooo much fun with them!!
3)i have another eyecandy! such a wonderful distraction near home mega like!
4) there are glue sniffers popping near my area. -.-
5) i very tired, and i think my ut all cui
6) need to get a sport to destress!! volleyball? :D
7)i wanna go back dancing!~ i miss miss miss
8)where to get hiphop clothing uh?
9)im gg off to sleep
10) i love my friends. heh

"Maybe this will be the last time that I'll cry for you."

I am still trying to come in terms with the psychological loss.
Do you know how it feels when suddenly..
You realise that the time you spend with that special person is decreasing.
And the signs comes out.
Maybe I am reading too much into this.

Sigh, I wonder what is wrong with me.
At times, I am crazily attracted to you.
But at some point, I get cold at you. I ignore you.
Sometimes, I am a complete fool infront of you.
Whereas, at times I want your attention.
Sometimes, i wish the spotlight wasnt on you.
Sometimes I wish you would go away.
But sometimes, I want you there; so i could see you.
Sometimes, i want you to say something.
But sometimes, I want you to say something substantial.
Sometimes I wish I was not crazy over you.
Sometimes I wonder, why did I even like you.
You are no where close from what i like.
(Ok, maybe somewhere there too.)

Sometimes, I wish you were more like the person i thought you were.
But sometimes, seeing you being like that; is pretty cute.
blah.

What am I actually saying?
Ohyes, sometimes..
I wonder what the hell am i actually doing.
-.-

Also, i have been sprouting the fucks,ducks,chickens from my mouth.
Bad bad habit.
CUT IT OUT.
Why am i even acting like this?
So i can get attention.
total fail.
ok, eunice..
JUST BE YOURSELF LA.

I totally suspect I have split personalities disorder.

Ok, I need to finish VSM, pass it up.
Then enjoy the weekends.
Ohno, forgotten about UT 2.
SHIT, study study study.
Not scoring well.
shit sia.
Work harder!

P.S
I hope one day I wake up, and wish you didnt step into my heart.

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I will think of what I wanna say when I think of it. PEACE OUTTTTTTTTT.