ยปFeeling Empty
Monday, September 17, 2012
"Just look away"
I have told myself constantly to be able to keep an open mind, not get upset over such meager issues.
But I couldnt help it.
This is one of the bad habits I have since young.
I really dislike being left out.
But I just don't bother saying it out.
Because the usual response would be "you are thinking too much".
I don't like that as an answer or a way to divert my question.
Give it to me straight.
At least let me know why you dislike me so much that you have to do that.
I feel.. Urrrrrgh!
So pissed and upset, and I don't need myself coming up with weird conspiracies.
I really want to trust you.
To earn my trust on the surface is easy. It's easy as you see it.
But to really gain my trust, so that I will tell you things. It isn't as easy as you thought.
I wish with this post, I can really let this go.
I'm actually wondering now..
Is this the reason Buddha didn't pave way for my romance?
Because I couldn't handle the up and downs emotions that comes with the 'romance package'.
Damn,I'm fucking weak.
words spilled @ 9/17/2012 07:09:00 PM /
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