"How nice would it be if the world was much simpler."

I've been wondering..
why?
think so much till feel like crying.
*i aint ms.sunshine.
if the world was much simpler;
-expression of words (not painful ones)
-real heartfelt feelings.

i dun think im really that..
that...lucky.
it feels so sad sometimes.
that on the outside,
ur like the PROM QUEEN.
but in the inside,
ur just an empty shells from the beach.
all hollow inside.
making those melodious sound.
so painful,yet so beautiful.

finding those whom i could pour everything to.
belonging to me.
and i will always want to be there for that person.
i've found it one,
yet lost grasp of it.
thought i could gain it in a second chance,
but..it just dont have what im seeking for.
that place fills me up with laughter,
but draining myself.
it's ever so tiring..

tried it once,
tried it the second time.
But i still cant find it..
seeking for that special thing has left me,
hanging mid-air.

Are they true?
Are they being nice?
Are those words the truth?
Are these people gna be there for me?
Or for the sake of it..?

such beautiful memories flow back into me.
like blood flowing back..
its so warm yet im still shivering.

i guess,i've grown up..
Enough of the riddles..
Enough of the jokes..
Enough of all those childish thoughts.


Now..
i just wna find those lost things back.
one by one,
pieces by pieces.

i wanna be true.
just let be..
for once.

For once,
let me burrow myself into ur arms,
let me cry..
Hug me like there's no tomorrow.
Stand beside me,
watch the sunset.
Hold my hand..
and never let go.
Till dusk arrives..
Leave me sleeping soundly and..
just walk away soundlessly.

don't ever allow me to see your leaving shadow.


Your hypocrisy has reached it's ending point.
Let it fall.
Tell her the truth.
Break her glass heart,
Never leaving a second chance.

the heartless beast of the mankind.
nothing seemed to penetrate it..
till...
she was sent to destroy him.
with her lasting charms and beauty,
she danced,his eyes following.
there..
he asked her,
"would u ever love me..?"
she smiled,
warming his heart.
"No.. i would not.."
In the dagger went,
it felt painful and real.
There,
he felt he loved somebody.
And loving someone..
really hurts.
"that's how it feels to love someone.."
he gasped the final words and slid down.
She stood up..
and undoubtedly..
a glisten of tears fell.
"Yes.. that's how it felt..."
-Credits: ME! :D

The truth is..
sometimes, i maybe smiling..
but is it really me?..
i feel so sad whenever im with u..people.
depression is biting in.
*i dont have anything to say to you people anymore.

anyway,
after much EMO-ing,
i shall blog abt my day.
today not bad la..
at least i got my planning printed.
and..
having test tomorrow.
hmmphs!
HWAITING!
anyway,
its really sickening to see her..
copying every moves.
*Brrr.
this girlishness is too much for me to handle.
BLAHBLAHBLAH.
*brain loading..
70% completed.
.
.
.
.
Brain uploaded.

ok.back to reality.
anyway,
have been thinking bout the phrase too.
-"Why dont we just press our restart buttons in our life?"

this made me scoffed,especially when i was thinking bout it.

it was weird.
but it made me felt..
really comforted when i heard my inner self said that.
*weird.
but i really wish i could.
resart everything.
start from scratch.
from my life,my studies, my friends.
how nice.
'restart' buttons for all diff categories.
hehe.

I have to thank alicia too.
for the forgive & forget.
i hope i can practice that often! :D
hehe
yeah..
im doing the
'don't think too much'.


To : you-know-who-you-are
Obviously,
im not gna apologize for that day.
It showed me how u were.
what type of person are you.
all the pent up frustrations form last year till now,
made it difficult for me to even talk to you.
you said you wanted to change?
Good.
Change now..
whining brings you no where.
people aren't u punch bag,
or ur lackeys..
they dont have to find or follow you.
sometimes,
you talk too much.
If u ever wanted me to apologize to you.
i'll apologize for flaring up.
but read this.
i was not just angry with you because
you did not see my seat occupied.
it was because..
u are plain selfish.
u've been like that since sec3.
just that i could bear you.
your table are precious.
i know..but ur gna give it away..
please..
i know..
people are born with unzipped mouths.
its just to see how you zip them up!
want them to stop talking bout him?
fine!
ignore them
u are not supposed to make more news.
but u made more news.




Liar liar,pants on fire.
dont judge me,
cos im gna change.
i:
-wont be a bitch (i hope)
-be myself once again.

Labels: stating the facts

here i am again!
just give myself some linkies.
to go SHOPPING! :D

http://www.fashion-lovers.blogspot.com/

esther; ur relinkked

"i wanna be alone? PERSONAL SPACE LA"
big fat faker

yaya!
im blogging in the comp lab.
i aint good girl. :P
anyway,im really really irritated by her.

didnt i told u NOT to act pitiful.
ur making me laugh.
serious..
ur just like a clown to me.
lololololol.
you dont care?
yea. great.
then dont be sad. XDD
ur just a joke.

hmmms.
i had enough of that crap.
so..
lets talk abt my day.
its boring boring boring.
seeing her face really tires me.
*yawns; i know.no more abt her.

changed into my new contacts.
im still kinda getting used to the feeling.
*rub eyes and stretches.

VTeo; it aint ur fault.
that action showed me her poor attittude.

talking bout BAD attitude.
i have one too.
i can be really really mean and fiery.
im also kinda bitch :D
i dont mind.
cos its me.
i dont ACT.
im a Norm,babe!

(sitting beside bamboo)
(waiting for pandas to pass.) :D

hmmm.
sometimes,i just cant stand those ppl arnd me.
i BET they cant too.
**
if u wanna be mean,
i rather not become ur friend.
its so scary to always blend into ur mood.
i dont like being treated like that.
since i treat u nicely,
please do in return.
but oh well..
that GIRL attitude so punk'd out.
its so diff to communicate or talk to her.
she can be nice,in some ways...
but sometimes,
she's like sooo sooo mean.
so i have to be mean in return to her.
ijusthaveto.

anyway,
not all people are like MEAN,.
they are just insensitive.
but i have friends;
sensitive kind.
insensitive ones.
mean ones.
im trying to blend & be nice to them! :DD

iwnabeagoodgirl.
ok then..
off to doing my stuff!
Ciao! :DD

*currently having F&N.

i wna listen to Avril's
When You're Gone.. :DD
so sweet,baby!

Labels: i'll make u bend and break

"don't give me that look."

YO!
i've like blogged twice.
ytd and today.
very very rare of me. :D
*im amused by my own actions.

anyway,
had quite a day.
so i'll take my time.. :)

yesterday;
went to Heeren after finishing my work.
Had our dinner at Village.
*sameoldthing,man!
boring. :/
ordered crepe.. *yummyumm.
sooo nice!!
actually not only 1.
but 2.
one had cheese,meat and..
my fave;MUSHROOMS!!
yummy!
another was mixed berries with
STRAWBERRIES.
and a scoop of passion fruit w/ mango
tempted,sam?? :DD
ordered the creamy mushroom soup.
its terribly..awesome..
imMUSHROOMgirl!
after sitting around,
went to pay the bill.
Village is exceptionally expensive. :(
we ate almost like $100 bucks ++.
thankgod,daddy was there. :DD
love my family LOADs!

after dinner,
we needed exercises!
and it was..
SHOPPING!!
since mummy have the $10
espirit vouchers,
we decided to have fun..
shop shop shop.
went to buy loads of stuff.
shorts,a very cute tee X2,and some cute t-shirt dress.
went to Levis to take a look.
SKINNYJEANS!!
waaaahhhh.
Levis had 50% off.
walao..
we had a rip-off sia.
as in we like suck Levis dry.
lols.
then told my bro other place
got better,cheaper skinny's.
*skinnys for my boots. :DD
sexayye!!~
after shopping,
daddy went to foot the bill.
poor daddy..
his wallet like from XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXL,
become XXXXXXXS..
sorry.. ^^"

i will work hard to thank you!
ilovedaddy&mummy!!

went to HMV to see whether is there any
new disc or info on my darls,
then went up.
*imagine,ur thighs are like swollen;
due to the excessive exercise i had.
and i walked arnd.
it was like 3 STOREYS up!!
i didnt want them to wait,
so i climbed the escalator. :P
saw the KPOP section,
i was soooo sooo happy.
K.R.Y was and SUPERJUNIOR'S U (chi ver.) (repackaged)
BESTSELLERS!

*proud of them!! :DD

after that rushed down again..
stopped at the rack where
Avril's Girlfriend's album was at.
hint:*i so wanna get it..
it cost $21.95..
*hinthint.

then went home.
saw the package..
edc;espirit,
"you made our day,
STARSHOPPER."
duhh..
$100++ spent?!!
lols.

went home to sleep.
watched ugly betty.
so funny.
hilarious!!
moral of e story:
Girls can defend themselves!
we do not really need guys!
then watched a lil of LOST.
weird sia.
dont get it.. -.-

then slept..at
11:30.
*thank god,
monday class starts at 9!
2 hrs extra sleep! :DD
yay!!
wanted to meet sam..
but was late.
(as usual.. :P)
went to school.
i missed my double decker bus!! :(
damn!
actually could have met up with sam!!
unfair! :/
the bus darn crowded. :(
then took the bus.
met golf on the bus.
as usual; he's still that cute,blur guy.
then said hi..
after that,
our stop reached.
the bus damn crowded.
so he waited for me.
*thanks! :D
really appreciated it..
ur really a gentleman!

anyway..
sam's prepaid gt problem.
it was not registered by the guy who sold us.
then we were like thinking of how to help her.
i wanted to help her call.
oh well..
vanessa is kinda a glib talker.
so she could handle it.

then..
today lesson is short.
but today was exceptionally long.
didnt know what was wrong with me.. :P
it was so boring.
its a bad day too. :(
everything went smoothly thou.
till maths remedial.
it was like hell!!
DAMN!

i just borrowed ur table.
to be nice,or considerate.
i passed the bag to YOU.
so you would not suspect me of
looking or searching ur bag.
or accuse me of doing something we did not.
anyway,
it was my fault that i said that u did not have eyes.
van was sitting on my table.
that's my mistake.
but it's really ridiculous,
like you said that
u had no space.
what are ur thighs for??!
put ur bag THERE.
BE FLEXIBLE!
got it??!
if u want attention,
dont CRY FOR IT!
do something better..
i will NOT apologise to YOU.
since u like to 'act' so much,
please..
get urself in a DRAMACLUB.
dun do that infront of me.
it makes me so bored.
the one;
burrowing ur head into ur arms.
it aint working.
its so cliche.
i will shout "BORING!" if u ever do it again.
dont give that puppy eyes look.
it does not work.
act ANGRY,
GO! get angry!
but i believe that u have ur better side.
you can be nice.
or not nice.
i enjoy it when u do not flaunt urself.
wanting attention.
just be yourself.
want attention??!
be yourself..
got it?!

"ur silly antics make me laugh out loud.
stop it..and change..
to allow urself to..SHINE."

anyway,
went to heartland to take my contacts.
and we saw..
2 couples eating in yoshinoya.
and headed for PS.
during the train ride,
played the number game.
got smacked like twice?
sam very chor lor.
rough sia.
BE MORE GIRL LA!
went there to have her prepaid card fixed.
that mafan sam.
oh well.
what are friends for??
amanda came along.
sam was so ecstatic when
she heard that her card balance remained.
haha. :DD

"It is weird.
who will want to interact with their girlfriend's friend.
Unless..they got another prey."

that's all for today.
*phew.

peace out!! :DD

hitting the playlists :
Michelle by The Beatles

Labels: i'll make u bend and break

"shake it babe!"

everything was a blur to me this few days.
i just spent my days quite aimlessly.
with the self study taking up my time.
*sucha waste of time.

yawns.
im bored man.
my last post was like..
history?..
damn!

(apologies to all avid readers of my blog.
blame the self study and
my poor time management. ^^")

back to my life;
as u can see,
new blogskin.
i totally love this. :DD
vintage;loves.
heheh.

Sadly,
this few weeks.
im a lil sick.
as in i contracted..
Depression.
its mild,to be exact.
the school load and personal problems,
caused me kinda to flip out.
i actually flew into rage.
*total terrible-ness.
sorry to that person & my angie.
i scared u.
BUT! ur like always so cold la!
all ur fault!!

hmmphs.
i discovered big secrets.
BGRs.BFFS.total cuties.
but it's secret.

anyway,had my chinese done.
the oral,listening compre.
and some test.
*i hope i am improving.

i have too many things to say.
so i will just summarise.

Notice nice people around,
differentiate the bad ones too.
thanks to all those who stood by me. :D
i am so grateful.
i guess;sometime,u can get tired,
seeing the same person again and again.

did loads of stuff.
esp basketball.
hope im losing the weight man!
FATS OFF! :PP
i wanna be slim,yo!

anyway,
went to angie hse on friday.
saw her brother.
handsome siia.
then played Naruto with angie.
ehehe.
thrashed her.
(only 1 round.i was thrashed all the way)
i like angie more & more.
shes the talented gal.
drummer,guitarist,budding pianist?
love her.
even though,she can be quite cold.
:(

went to AMK hub before going to her hse.
went to eat SUBWAY.
SO GOOD.
*drools.
yummy.
i love blessing,when she begs for food or her ball.
like what angie said.
blessing's motto.
"wherever the food is,there my heart is."
total cuteness.

i love ALICIA too.
she's really clever.
didnt expect her to be that..
woahh.
i really like her alot.
i'll treasure this friend.
*this aint any sweet talk.
its the truth. :DD
lets be BFFs!

Zhenling too.
my lil girl.
i will protect u!!
no matter what.
come crying into my arms,
and i will comfort u.
i LOVE ya!! :DD

Gladys.
the lil spider.
my bamboo,used for fighting.
a really nice person.
i hope ur being true being my friend!
i love u!


Alyssa,
TOTAL; craziness!
my wifey.
she loves this phrase;
"Such imprudence is not allowed
in my living room,
Get out immediatly!"
she will laugh & laugh.
adorable-ness!

AND!!
QUEK SHIMIN!
SWEET 16 TO YOU
Happy birthday to you,
Happy birthday to you,
Happy birthday to shimin.
Happy birthday to you!!

sweet16,gal!
enjoy it yar!
ur always in my heart.
thanks for the shoulders and ears,
u lent me when i need them.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!



heheh.
after this,
is all SJ stuff.
my boys have a coming movie.
"Attack on the Pin-up Boys."
catchy?
yes,it is very catchy.
enjoy the movie.
and go listen to their songs.
Wonderboy & Haengbok.

To; kibum,
darl!! ur gna turn 21 this year!
ur birthday coming up!!
on the 21st exactly. :DD
sweet!!
im gna love u!
ur getting HOTTER!

amanda,
hey gal!
16 soon ah..
lil girl!!
im like so old among u girls.
unfairness.
remember!
a carton of whatever and anything.
with a stack of foolscap.
ur forgetfulness is expected!

angeline,
awwww.
sorry bout the watch.
cant get it..
due to the financial ability of ours now. :P
but..
i really hope u have a good birthday!

neelam!
old guy.
my ridiculous fren!
happy birthday to ya too! :DD
smile!



hwaiting!
wonderboy!

Labels: kisses are WANTED

"i didnt see him.."

Im like SO tired today.
school have started for 2 weeks alr.
Now its gna hit the 3rd. (OHHHNOOO.)

im like so cooped up with school work.
but as i said.
i will update once a week.
(im trying)

IMREALLYTIRED.

We have already begun our
Coursework Part B.
its like so..so..
(im rendered speechless)
its really tiring.
more writing more practicals.
(ohwell. *sighs)
but i love my friends. :D

they are my favourites.
they are just like candies to me.
but those really assorted ones.
some can knock the air out of u,
while some..
can really make u feel so...
nice,warm and SWEET inside..
(YEAAAA..)

Well..
some acquaintances are just like insects.
no..
like PESTS.
they irritate u.
make u feel all squishy and uncomfortable inside out.
while some just make u wanna KILL them. ^^"

While most are ok..
(except those thorned headed ppl set out to destroy u)
some can be sooooo ANNNOYING.
SO TWO-FACED.
(ahem)

"im gna control myself from squishing u to pulch.
ur so irritating like some kind of rodent.
except rodents are even better than you."

Anyway,gna talk abt my BEAUTIFUL day.
its kinda great thou.
except that lil insect made me so pissed.
"im gna tell her this right in her face"

Ms lee didnt manage to turn up for today.
so this teacher relieved her,
then as for POA,
its like "WOW! another NEW teacher..".
Except that she is really kinda professional.
*not like some bribed teacher like that.
mrs lim foo was nice too.
she apologized to us for the sudden change. :P
As for the F&N,
we redid and showed teacher,
all thanks to
VANESSA TEO
ALICIA.
my DEARS. :DD
they helped me..

*yay..i like alicia so much now.. :DD

then after school my poor lil GF,
sam had geog.
poor darl. :D
AND..
zhen ling and i are officially together.
*we kissed. :P
and i have proof.
will upload the pic on frenster when im free. :D
she's promoted. :DD
*ling;happy?? :DD

angie dared me and sam to kiss each other.
ON THE LIPS!
i was mortified. D:
*sam wanted to kiss angie,
but angie warned her if she ever does,
she will get SLAPPED. :PP

then amanda asked me to go KFC
with gladys (spider) , zhenling (short)
and charm (yoda)
they la..
like princess like tat.
here cannot,there cannot.
but i oso a lil sian abt heartland too. :P
actually we wanted to head to QIJI.
but OHWELL.
saw them,
(the wall have ears. :( )
i was like,
"sian,this bunch of weird possessive,men crazy girls"
anyway,
walked arnd then..
decided to eat KFC. :P
i guess my 2 lil laopo was shocked by my temper. :P
*i was just acting emo.

During the lunch,
(as usual my acting skills is always interfered by my laughter)
i broke into pearls of laughter when i saw ling's face.
i just can't
after that, amanda and i patrolled arnd
heartland.(its like so boring)
anyway, sam..
the jia yi bing ding is OPENED.
yay!!
Then played arnd with the short and skinny.
ling took my wallet and threw it arnd. :(

In return i took her phone..
and she gave me the ..
really sad look.
i was pretty scared thou..
*she's was like SO serious. > <

then we went to send the ladies to the bus stop,
(after all the chasing thou..)
then we went home..
*did we..? :PP

i'll say next time. :DD
the later part is humorous,
and depressing for me.
its also ENRAGING. > <


(wait for later posts.....)

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