ยปNostalgic
Monday, January 09, 2012
"A new beginning starts at every end"
My cousin got her results back!
I have 3 younger cousins that are taking their O levels results.
She was upset that her score wasnt up to standard.
It was great (as compared to mine)
But I did see..
She studied really hard.
If I did previously, maybe I would have did better.
This brought back memories.
Sad memories.
4 years ago, it was I.
I remember the first time I took my results.
I was telling myself..
Please.. dont fail
But well..
Apparently, Heaven didnt want me to faint or die of heart attack.
It allowed me to see my O level results.
An exaggerated version.
I dreamnt of 29 points.
Then on the day itself, I opened that letter.
And I started bawling.
First, I was relieved that it wasn't like the predicted.
But then it was no better.
I got a RAW score of 26.
After my **CCA points ,
it was 25.
THE.SAME.NUMBER.LIKE.MY.BIRTH.DATE.
what the fuckery fuck?
Ok la, die.
The first things through my mind is..
I cant go any school.
Because my paper only states limited school.
I was devastated.
I cried.
Then my mom called.
Well, it was horrid.
She was like "well, it was expected."
Oh well then.
I was heartbroken.
My teachers were kinder, nicer and gentler.
Psssh.
Ohwell, my own mom.
How nice.
But well, its her la.
She is always like that.
her sarcasm can burn through walls.
Aiya.
Then have to hide results from relatives.
Hide here hide there.
but in the end, still kena shoot.
Ok la,
i give up!
I just went my way into RP.
Met good friends there.
Friends.. smart ones.
Very thankful to them too.
Because I could freely tell them whats my L1R5.
Without feeling embarrassed.
With my family.
Its like a pride there.
I think i must be adopted.
But fuck, I look too much like my dad.
ah, what the fuck.
But also..
I think I must do better in the future.
Because I always have a mind set thats states..
"Can pass, can already."
"Can pass, can already."
Now must strive better!
JIAYOU!
Maybe I should be like my cousin.
Go take up course.
JIAYOU!
Labels: memories, nostalgia, o level, rants
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