»LEFT EMPTY
Thursday, April 26, 2007
Ahh..
im tired.
upset,drained,wasted,beaten.
yet im suppose to struggle up on my feet.
face the criticism.
face the pain.
im neither able to cry or let my emotions out.
im left empty.
your words are neither appeasing to hear.
i say..
i think we are just not fitted to be friends.
(more like competitors)
i guess..
about the SYF thing,
it left a huge impact on me.
size do matters.
efforts too.
i guess everyone is upset.
ohyes.
i've NOT yet to raise my white flag.
NEVER
oh right.
i guess people around me are changing.
ummm.
OR should i say that MY relationship with them
are alil.... (lagging?)
oh well.
i dont even have to mood to bother bout that.
T^T
just too upset.
or should i say EMOtionless.
oh well.
CHOIR girls,we still have long way to go.
or a short one.
let's aim for the 2nd SYF we will be facing.
just get a conductor! will you?!
ahhh buahhh.
had F&N Practical ytd..
and 2.4km run (ooops.im so fcuked)
did chocolate as usual.
and as USUAL,
my choco dumpling dun work.
(i've used the wrong flour! ^^")
but everything went pretty well.
ummm.
except the muffin (it went lopsided)
the eggy thing (i didnt plan my work. oops :X)
and alas the choco noodle.
(should i add cheese or not..hmm :/)
but it looked PRETTY! :DD
i really loved it.
the cheese turned out well.
just not soft enough.
the choco too!
as for the cream..
hmmm.
AWFUL! X.X
(i cant stand her face,but she's nice.. she was willing to help! :DD)
After the practical,went back to the classroom.
and THERE!
my avid supporter.
iloveSAMANTHA!
she was so hyped.
she took my muffin and started wolfing down
as for amanda,
(she looked at my cooking suspiciously)
imsohurt! :(
but oh well.. it looked scary.
but i need to be unique right.
and NOT build castle in the sky.
like what T.R always say. :/
(i SO must slap her back with what she did to me!)
REVENGE! VENGEANCE!
BUHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! :D
imbeingsolame.
as for Them,
i,myself;
ignore,hypnotised,numb,decieve myself.
(ohwell,shall NOT go think bout them..WHOCARES!?)
(she 's so...URGGH!
*slaps her a dozne times.
(just joking,dont take me seriously.)
hummmphs.
ok,back to wednesday;
went for 2.4 run after F&N.
so heavy;sia la
ran nicely.
but dunno got pass or not. :'
worry sia. TT^TT
almost passed out during the last round
*so pai seh! :*
thankl god they were there.
LOVEDD'
.zhenling laopo
.samantha
.yanhwee
.vanessaTEO
.alyssa *my lapo.
.amanda
.neelam *my sis!~
.shimin
.cindy
.lastly,zhichao
(im not praising u.just thanking u. :DD)
oh well.
i guess i better get going.
my legs are so cramped. :/
TT^TT
PAINN....!
/\ /\"
:*[
(o)*__*(o)
><"
<3
:P
:X
:(
:)
:DD
:E
:S
:L
:'
EMO man..
tml got EL paper 1..
WEEE.
i go study le.
eat dinner FIRST!
if u love me,thank u.
if u hate me,fcuk u.
dont like me,fine.
kiss my ass.
and off u go.
stop staying around me and arouse
my insecurties.
IHATEUMAN!
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»SUPER JUNIOR MET UP WITH AN ACCIDENT
Friday, April 20, 2007
im seriously very upset today..
super junior was involved in an accident and
kyunhyun is seriously injured.
after the accident,kyun hyun needed to be rushed to A&E.
ee teuk was bleeding,
with glass in his back.
while eun hyuk had a cut near his eyes.
ee teuk had an operation to remove the glass,
and it was successful.
eun hyuk too is recovering.
shindong managed to escape with slight injuries (thank god)
kyunhyun's have broken ribs,fractured hip bone.
and many much more injuries.
(im bleeding inside,im really so upset)
(gaia must be crying. :( )
he's out of A&E now..
but he has an upcoming operation,
which cant be done..
im glad that eunhyuk,shindong and ee teuk are recovering.
but kyunhyun..
PLEASE RECOVER SOON!
CHO KYUNHYUN.
SJ will need YOU.
cos ur the one which make them
COMPLETE.13.
be safe. and get well soon.
May God Bless You.
please recover soon.
i need u.
Gaia needs u even more.
all of us need u.
PLEASE PRAY FOR KYUNHYUN! :(
i seriously dun wanna talk
abt happy stuff.
the wreckage of the car was really bad.
go take a look at soompi or other SJ forums.
PRAY FOR KYUNHYUN!
**that shitter actually PRETENTED to be sick?!
JUST TO TAKE KYUN PICS?!
that B*TCH.
LET SJ GO MAN!
TO THOSE:
.freaking paparazzi's.
.overreacting fans
.ANTI-SJ fans
.freaking crazy
'wont-let-go'fans
GET A LIFE!~
give Super Junior A BREAK!~
SHOO!~
SJ..
PLEASE BE SAFE!?
Arasol?!
PLEASSSSSSEEEE.
i cant affored to lose anyone of u.
kyunhyun oopa;
hwaiting!
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»slogging under HEAVYWEIGHTS.
Tuesday, April 17, 2007
weeee.
im so tired. XD
really..im poofed.
went to VCH to have our rehearsal.
it was pretty ok.. :D
i think we sound goood. :d
but i guess we aint as good as some others. :X
cried yesterday.
imissedher..~
but oh well,
bygones are bygones..
hmmm.
the things happening arnd me has made me thinking.
since,
u said that we're still friends,
why dont you put in some effort?
im really kinda puzzled by what you do..
i do know how people talked abt u.
you are nice in their eyes,
while im really troubled by how u
actually ARE when u are with me.
i guess i know why guys are better than girls.
they dont bitch.
(actually, i do bitch)
guys are better friends (?)
in some ways.
but *sighs.
i do not really know whats happening.
i seriously don;t feel like talking to you.
but i guess all i can do is pretend to smile.
cosiguessnooneswantaninvasion.. :/
CHOIR SYF is ON MONDAY!
weeee.
(im peeing in my shorts ^^")
its worrying
having makeup rehearsal on sunday.
ohno..
im really slow at that.. :X
oral on saturday.
im so packed with schedules.
alrites,
im gonna prepare food for my f&n tommorrow.
byebyes. :]
the hall filled with silence
as the music stopped.
the arrival of the beauty and the devil,
dawns on everyone.
the grimace of the devil,
wavered the spirits.
while the beauty haunts the hall,
with her glowing expressionless face.
there she was.
she came.
she cried.
yet,her heart filled with
unseen jealousy.
ready to pounce....
and destroy..
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»bushed`ed OUT
Friday, April 13, 2007
imsotired. D:
noticed that i've not been blogging..
loads of stuff went ZOOOOM..
its like so fast till my prelims.
imstartingitalready. :DD
but im still so worried..
omgomgomg.
had performance on wednesday thou..
it was SO scary.
but i managed to sing.. YAY
actually , i lost my voice..
^^"
now too..
hmmphs..
had loads of thoughts running thru my tiny brain
this week.
loads..
negative ones,positive ones,silly ones.. :/
i wonder why am i thinking so much..
*imgettingOLD.
im currently into "jiayou jinshun!"
it soooo nice.
ireallywannabelikeher.
but with loads of GOOD attitude , hardworking , positive ,
lastly have the guts to talk back bout what is wrong.
i guess..
sometimes, there are different type of people around us.
some born with knives as tongues ,
some born with air in the head (not ref-ing to oxygen) ,
some born with empty brain which do NOT know how to process words ,
and some.. heartless.
i guess i belong to one of them..
(imnotgonnatellyou :P)
and another category ;
some born with plastic masks which do not know emotions ,
some born with a WHOLE tub of emotions in them ,
some born with faces that are so FAKE that they are THICKSKINNED.
(neitheramigonnatellyouthis XD)
i've recently read a book about pretense and masks.
everyone is born with a mask.
just different types.
some are so invisible that u wont feel their presence,
while others could be felt so easily with just a sentence formed from their mourh.
(whatthehellamiblabberingabout!?)
i guess a handful around me just stepped on my nerves recently.
(amanda,dunbeparanoid!itisntalwaysyou.)
*crappingoncemore.
im just so pissed with those people. :(
talking bout paranoia,
i believe sometimes,we get to have those odd thoughts.
jealousy,fear,failure..etc..
ithinkimoaranoidboutsoemthingtoo..^^"
*ahshucks.
im spacing out..
BLAHS!
i must be CRAZY!
ohyesyesyes!!
super junior.. :DD
SJ went to china recently..
(im so happy.. :DD)
and OH MY GOD.
i totally forgot to blog on hyuk's bdae..
hyuk must have felt emptiness.
(crazyme)
SAENGIL CHUKHA HAMNIDA!~ HYUKJAE OOPA! :DD
bummie was also in china.. :DD
he so handsome..
(nosebleeds)
but his hair..
urmm.. alil uncle sia..
never mind,its still my uncle bumbum..
i got my planner liao..
dun wanna use it yet.
bu ren xing.. :S
amanda and sam so lucky la..
got the person they like one the same month of their bday.
i guess,i shld be with kangin.
*i shld LIKE kangin.. ooops. :D
cos kangin is on my bday month.. :DD
youngwoon oopa.
i miss korea LOADS.
i wanna go back.. :(
ireallywannaheadback.
to the place which had etiquette,manners,gorgeous people..
a nice climate, got 4 seasons.. yummmy food..
(drools and daydream..)
i guess i shld go and bathe.. ^^"
byebye!~
annyung!
my heart bleeds as ur ruthless words cuts like glass..
ur abrupt attitude has made torrents in my mind.
ur insensitiveness caused me to shun u like a pest.
no matter what,u've changed.
i sensed emptiness in your..
brain and heart..
the horses galloped,
rustling leaves and sinking thioer hooves into the sand.
the pony yet laid bleeding..
slowly dried of its life.
its urge to gallop slowly fades.
wanting a life source to help him on his hooves.
he slowly looks far but sees only darkness.
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»BUSHED`ed
Tuesday, April 03, 2007
im tired..
ever SO tired.
imgonnahavechoirfortheWHOLEWEEK!
hello?! are u O.K in the head..?
ohmigodd..
idunnohowlongamisupposetoholdon!?
im really tired.. D:
ahh shucks.. :P
ohyesyes.
my ear is HEALING!
ihopeso..
3CHEERS! :DD
anyway..
we were actually suppose to go for choir..
we actually
how nice
things are zooming past us day by day!~
its april now.
have to start preparing
anyway,i'll just sum everything up.
on friday,
everything was NO good.
it was just a bad,bad,bad day.
first,didnt bring my PE tshirt.
left it somewhere..
i missed PE and VOLLEYBALL!~
it just sucks totally.
then i misplaced amanda's pointer.
im totally apologetic for that.
ireallyhopeshedonthatemeforthat :X
p.s ; im really sorry about it..im sincerely apologising. :(
got samantha to bring her shoe bag along.. :X
then we didnt go to the gym..
oh never mind..
go exercise.. :DD
next time..
we went to eat popiah then we went home.
on saturday,
had choir performance.
went to find shimin .
wore a white shirt with the stripey tie.
then after having our dinner at yoshii.
it was so gooooood...
then headed to school..
we put on our PE tshirt over our clothes.
we thot the guard will stop us.. X.X
he did not thou..
saw gladys at the music room
( we were suppose to meet her OUTSIDE skool )
she said we need not wear the PE tshirt. phewws.
ok..then we sweated that much,for nothing
when we went in, everyone was making up thier faces.
i havemt even started.. :P
then changed in the musicroom,unknowingly..
then put on make up. :DD
we were rushing..
did some warm up and off we go..
we were SUPER nervous!
we waited for our turn
it was after peicai's.. phew..
then we did some rehearsing.
then we performed.
there was loads of eyes starring at us!
it felt weird.
seriously weird.
then we finished performing and headed back to school.
the school was pitch dark..
and dammit..
the momument was like there!
it was sooo scary..
all of us were scared off our shiit. :X
i changed on the same spot and heard some noises.
that totally FREAKED me out..
then i ran arnd.
io was so unwilling to go to the toilet.
it was infested with cockroaches.
shucks!
after that, we went to mac,
went with samantha tay.
sat there and played with her make up.. :P
then went home..with my dad fetching me.
as for yesterday,
i was poofed and stressed.
so not good..
and today..
it was a disaster.
it totally wasted my time.
went to yio chu kang and guess wad?!
it rained and we were asked to head home..
WASTE MY TIME,MAN!~
we even drench ourselves..
SHUCKS!
but there was the good news!
MinchinKorean
**look for them under KOREA SHOPPING in my links!
said that our stuff ARRIVED!
that made us sooooooooo happy.
then we went home after much time of deciding
which trasportation to take.. :DD
anyway,gotta head for dinner..
Ciao!
i procrastinate..
but when im with u,
i want it to END fast..
ur such a FAKER!
no poems.. ^^"
ahhh.. :DD
bad-b*tch,high-class b*tch,f*cked-up b*tch.
i really wanna make that t-shirt.
please *ahem us.. :P
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