»fats lost. :D
Friday, August 31, 2007
" i wanna be childish! :P
Cos i already am.. "
-im nt gna reply ur msgses,
cos u didnt want me to send you home. D:
Woohoo!
been playing bball this couple of days.
*its shiok,yet tiring. lol.
For yesterday,
it was sam,neelam,hailmi,and i.
we came to my house and played bball.
lol.
very happy . :D
i was totally enjoying sam's company..
sam,we completed our first quest! :D
(u shld know what im talking abt.. :))
those ppl came to my hse while i pumped the ball.
hailmi wanted to use my comp to play RS,
yet the comp lagged on him..
it still is. :(
after all the hussle,
we went down to play bball,
this time round we played ABC,
yet im still stucked at the same spot.
DARN!
sam is getting better,
i will improve! :D
after playing arnd,
i sweated like dunno wad.
i was friggin wet and all that.
then that guy went home,
stupid ass,he didnt want me to send him home..
cos they were waiting for me. D:
while i continued playing with them.
played arnd like 40 mins,
we left due to some bball guys,
they were pretty bored as they see use just slacking there. lol.
went home to rest,
then the 2 played xbox,
they were rather amusing to me,
like...artefacts.
i felt so weird inside.
i finally know how the singles feel arnd us. lol.
amanda called and i chatted with her,
while the 2 kept *screaming at the background.
we were playing burnout..
then,they were playing the crash mode.
called him back,
cos i missed him.
talked abt the plans,
that were supposed to be set for TODAY. (31.08.07)
then somebody cancelled it.
wanted to go rollerblading. D:
even i suggested to amanda to bring our skates along! D:
my bro then came back,
and i placed the phone down to sent the 2 down.
after sending them home,
i went back and bathed,
watched tv with my family,
and then went to sleep.
was too tired.
slept at arnd 8 or 9 pm.
remembered hearing my mum and dad,
helping me to put blanket and 'on-ning' the aircon for me.
(i love my family so much! saranghae!)
slept straight till 6.
lol. :D
put on contacts and saw the msg by
neelam and Amanda.
was pretty disappointed that we couldn't go,
but oh well,
i was deciding what to bring,was in a dilemma.
lol!
took dad's car to school,
my bro brought the electrical guitar and the bass.
shiok sia. lol
was pretty late when we left the hse,
and actually wanted to be very late,
my mum actually suggested to send me home as i was gg to be late.
then i said no,
i waned to see him.
(of course,i said another reason)
then i suggested eating lor-mee,
so i can arrive school arnd 8..
then dun need waste time to do exercise or get embarassed.
luckily,my watch stated 07:22.
i was not late,
so dad rushed to send me to school,
went into the hall,
saw my gals,
neither of them brought bags. D:
the hall was so squeezy due to the chairs
we kept moving arnd,
saw that he wasnt there yet,
so looked arnd.
suddenly feel very uncomfortable.
dunno why..
a lil sick alr.. D:
then he came.. :D
sat beside me,
and we just remained like that for the few hrs.
:)
then he sent me games thru his phone,
he could not play sia.
poor thing. :P
found out that he big-mouthed to a friend abt us.
seriously,
im gna smack him.
*i have a bad impression of her,
but i didnt voice it out.
after our teacher's day celebration,
after much craziness,
we came of of school.
saw many peeps,
those i liked before,
those i once admired..
tons. lol.
after thinking where to go,
after much tussle,
amanda, sam , neelam and i went off on our own.
(i hope grace isnt mad at me..)
it was just that too much waiting is really killing me. D:
went to heartland to eat,
then they decided to come my hse.
the guys had prayers,
so we sat there,
(near yellow)
while learning how to fold hearts.
*i know how to fold those alr!
THANKS JEREMY & VANESSA!
the whole place suddenly felt like a community centre.
lol.
cos we were like aunties and uncles,
folding stuff.
after much waiting,
amanda left and went home,
we,
consisting of
Vanessa,samantha,jeremy,neelam and i,
waited for the guys.
finally,
after waiting,
the guys came,
went to KFC to eat.
then they came to my hse to play bball.
this time rnd many came.
Not really,
just van and zainul. :D
went home with sam,
took the balls,
had lil talk and came down.
played arnd with them.
after playing,
everyone went separate ways,
he went first.
i wanted to send him,
he didnt want to,again!
sam and hailmi came my hse to rest.
then they went home.
(im sorry for the short notice..
cos im rushing to eat,
or else gna get scolded!)
BYEBYE. :D
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»baby,i just wna be EMO.
Wednesday, August 29, 2007
"i wonder..am i bringing you happiness or bringing you boredom?"
*sighs
its all over.
baby..
all over..
well..
except the science practical.
we have to wait till 1.30?
*screams.
im like gna rot my ass off..
sighs.
he's on shift 2..
ahhs.
went to eat pizza after our papers.
Amanda treat
HAPPY NOT? AMANDA?
then walked all the way from kovan to amanda house.
that really sucks sia.
my legs hurt like hell.
inclu amanda's scratches..
on my hand..
i shall post the pic nxt time.
amanda's bad traits!~
i shall name that topic.. :D
met rubbish and ding at kovan.
both going home.. :)
walked to her hse,
we tricked the guys and they were slow as slugs. :/
reached amanda hse,went up.
hailmi..
was acting weird..
and it was kinda cute thou. haha.
sat in her hse then watch snakes on the plane,
disgusting sia..
although watch a lil before..
but really..wabiang..sickening!
then walked all the way to the playground which
sam and mingyan played on the way while walking to my hse.
* i was sick by the way..
Was emo-ing all the way.
alwee walked with me,
while playing with me.. haha.. :D
played the weird weird rides in the playground.
almost peed in my pants when i saw alwee and hailmi playing arnd.
then walked to the bus stop.
finally,something to sit on!
sam and hailmi walked.
hailmi was dizzy.
he has a lil weakness,
shall not exploit it..
Alwee,amanda,neelam,i
reached my house first..
alwee cuz stay there. :D
the boys 'booked' the court.
amanda and i, walked to my house to get water.
and balls. :D
tried pumping the volleyball,
but the pump got a lil sot,
finally,with my maid's help,
the ball got inflated! yay!
met the guys at the bball court.
sam and hailmi havent reach..
till we played arnd with the balls.
not long after,they arrived.
it was said that the lost their way while taking a shortcut.
Moral of the story: dun take shortcuts,it dont work..
Sam dirtied her shoes and was grumbling arnd.
lol.
played arnd with them and started playing dodgeball.
we kept winning..
was teamed with amanda and neelam.
i kept going out first. :(
then alas,
neelam went with alwee.
amanda,sam,hailmi and i stayed and played ABC.
left after playing till i almost went mad.
i either had airball or missed.
was moving back and fro. lol
went home after that.
rested.
i miss him when i was alone.
and he said that im weird..
to act cold when im with him,
but starts to get sick when im far away from hhim. D:
yea,
i feel that im weird.
really..
sighs*
28.08.07
11:25pm end oenning down my notes.
Labels: im missing him
words spilled @ 8/29/2007 10:38:00 PM /
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»its silence i agree with
Tuesday, August 28, 2007
"i love myself more than anyone does."
Sorry bout those oversized vids.
*my bad,i know..
anyway,after high-ing on SJ,
i guess im down to earth.
bleahs. :P
im back to where i came from.
brrs,
noticed that time management is like so impt.
im like regretting?
darn!
(note; donghae inspired me. Do not REGRET)
im now.
i hope i wont be. :DD
been like quite PMSed this couple of days.
and pimple are once again,
invading my poor pores.
i hate puberty. :X
hormonesandallthat.
actually,
yes,something affected me
and it sucks totally.
why will you apologise when you done it again..?
i wonder..
but oh well,its all in the past.
i shall not think too much..
enough of eating vinegar..
i had enough,man!
im like so fck up now..
anyway,
im not jealous..
its just PMS,puh-lease!
ohyes.
sometimes..
i dont understand them..
weird people with weird character.
jeez,bad bitching agn.
sorry sorry.
lets talk abt something else;
anyway,
had done over with the prelims.
imagine seated in the hall,
freezing the hairs off ur butt is no sweet stuff.
im always shrivelled up in the dumpling jacket.
Green wrapper with yellow ruffian strings.
lol..
so far,
i have done with
my maths,POA,physics,chinese,english,history and SS,
im left with chemistry and the science practical.
jeez,
i wna do well for that. :D
by the way,
whatsup with babies in october..?
they are like booming all over.
lol.
(im over with bdays except my dad's.. :))
i've been quite civilised these few days, :D
i didnt really bad bitch..
just swooning over lil stuff.
im ok with her now.
just dont irritate me and i will be fine.
make sure ur usual habit dun come round. :D
Now..
talking bout bad habits;
i have a few to donn!
1.my terribly loud laughter,quoted as a mad laughter.
2.my obnoxious temper.. (im like a bull when im mad)
3.my views about people.. (theres the good & the bad..)
4.my tendency to touch people. (im touch,man~)
(jeez,thats a must to kick!)
5.my loud voice..(i tend to sound like a boombox)
6.my squeaky voice. (i squeak sometimes.)
7.my chor-lor ness. (im rough.. ^^")
8.my own imagination that im a guy.
(i tend to get rough and hyper like guys. MUST KICK)
9.my attitude. (my attitude can suck like hell)
10.how i react to those remarks. (im gna be calm)
11.me,trying to think that im capable of changing someone.
12.my 'parrot' reaction.(i blabber too much)
13. my craziness. (imustcontrol!)
14.my immature behavior.
15.my tolearance level.
somemore to come ..lol
anyway,
i've found some unusually;
'i-hate-the-most' attitude.
- stating remarks without thinking. (these ppl are total retards)
- invading into others privacy. (hello?! ur oso nt suppose to say that out!)
and some which i think is worthless to write.
i guess,
sometimes hating that person make u rmb that person well.
i dont kinda rmb her. :/
lol.
so i dont hate her!
yay! im clean now! :D
some words that i heard recently or previously,
with my own dictionary to make it easier to understand..
-chimnesian
=something which is too profound to understand.
-shiokenism (frm the hist. teacher of mine)
=a feeling of shiok. (feeling good!)
-steady pom pi pi
="well,lets go with this!" meaning. ^^"
lol. :D
spread laughter..
i shall.
anyway,
in the exams hall,
hailmi sits beside me.
seeing him really makes me wonder.
cos hes always doing something amazing. :DD
by the way,
sitting in the centre of the hall is no big feat..
its cold and my throat is giving me trouble. D:
and my coughs can be heard!
damn!
"i shall mock you,
when you fall,
and see the end of it..
I will enjoy.."
"thorns of words make u smile,
yet allowing its pain to hit you well.
knockdown for you,
and i shall cry for your plight"
gosh,
shut up is all i wna say to you.
anyway,
6th of September shall be it..
we shall once.embrace each other.
you see,
standoffs are good..
i love standoffs,..
*meaning of standoffs (thats my own term to describe it)
-to allow a space or time and start everything over again
It allowed me to know more people..
and i really like it.
YAY!
i still love my friends.
Anyway..
"think and ask other before saying,cos i do not like your attitude."
hmms,
movie mania?
when..?
i shall decide then..
lets make use of this time and start working hard!
":it is said that we express to strangers better as we will explain ourself and express even more,
as for our friends, we tend to expect them to know what we want next..And not explain to them,or express ourselves clearly..:"
I guess this could be in much use to all of us!
[28.08.07 ; 05:48pm]
Labels: SMILE and a hug pls
words spilled @ 8/28/2007 05:15:00 PM /
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»i want Free Hugs.. D:
"i want hug hug.. D:"
super junior..ohio!!
*o-hii-yo..
lol.
anyway,
im pretty high sei
and prelims are lulling over.
YAY!
but ohwell..
O's is coming.
BOOS
i like SNSD.
F.T island..
cute cute guys.
i shall post vids.
ENJOY!
ENJOY!
Labels: hugs anyone
words spilled @ 8/28/2007 04:04:00 PM /
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»it came back yet it is losing its way
Friday, August 24, 2007
"my heart came back,but i dont feel its beating"
Alas,Things are better left unsaid..
im tired,beaten today..
these prelims are giving me puffy eyes.
i sleep at 12. wake up at 6.
ohman,i feel like a panda. D:
ohwell,finished a couple of subjects alr..
go go go!
fighting fighting!!
he was there..yet so invisible
damn,
my head hurts and my heart feels empty.
jealousy bring me down.
im like so so lack of sleep,these few days.
either i think too much or memorise too hard.
Damn!
i aint wna lose sia!
time plan for these few days.
0530-0545 : wakes up and wash up.
0545-0600 : change clothes and pack bag,proceed for breakfast.
0600-0615 : my breakfast,a small cup of caffeine filled nescafe,chicken essence.
0615-0640 : eating,wear shoes,get into car,off to school.
0640-0710 : sent bro to school,my turn. either memorising notes or sleeping in car.
0710-0725 : reaches school,head to parade square,read notes.
0725- some destinated time : have exams.
some destinated time to another time : break. chit chat,chiong notes. look at him.
another destinated time to another time : exams again;different subjects.
15min intervals : either sleeping,doodling or writing SJ story.
end : collect papers, get out of hall,shivering. play with him and frens.
after lunch : head out and chit chat, waste time. go home. take mrt with him.
arnd 0500 to 6pm : snoozing at home.
0630-0700pm : bathing,watch a lil tv,eat dinner.
0700-1000pm : study,chiong notes,sms him. sit still on chair.
1000-1130pm : gets restless, sms him, lie arnd. talk crap. tie hair.
1130-1230pm : study..sms him. write diary. sleep.
sometimes,
1230-0100am: doodle then sleep.or sms him..then sleep. :DD
this is my life when its the exams period.
it sucks.
and im gaining weight. D:
and..
im happy with my life,
he's there for me. :D
but oh well,
when suspicion arise,
i get all grumpy and all sort.
i will ask..
"will it be better if im single..?"
"BUT what happens when i am..booring.."
i wish im single now,and sometimes i wished im not.
DARN!
hormones are killing me inside.
the exams are sucking me dry too. D:
ohwell,
"treasure what u have now,in case u lose it.."
god,i hoped i can.
i have to stop taking things for granted.
relationships are not bustops,they dont do stop-and-go..
ohgosh..
are attached guys that ATTRACTIVE?!
GOSH.
im PMS-ing now..!! D:
im jealous,shit,i admit,
IM JEALOUS.
and pls dont tell me that phrase.
it gives me the itch to smack u hard.
(but i know,i cant..i have to CONTROL!)
helphelphelphelp!
in a dilemma now. ))))):
pls la!
hes mine!!
*SHOO!
either all these crap are my bitchy sense,
or im just paranoid..
but seriously..
now this!!
to her..
is Bu Neng Shuo De Mimi!
i cant bear to tell her..
should i tell him?
but seriously,
hes a block of wood.
BOO!
tml going out for a while with them.
and HE's not coming along.
ohwell,
my thoughts not appreciated. ))):
*wna let him see me in my own flesh. :P
i look f-ing ugly in school u.
i still left with maths 2,chinese2,chemistry,physics 1 and practical.
GODD!!
HELP LA!...
"im tired. help.."
Labels: help me up and never let go
words spilled @ 8/24/2007 05:58:00 PM /
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»raging hormones on the go
Monday, August 20, 2007
"seriously,
if u wna be a bitch..learn from me..
And! ohyes,please..
SPELL SHIT PROPERLY. NOT SHIATE."
gosh..
hormones in me are going bad.
and like some other people too.
their hormones are giving them trouble.
today wasnt that bad..
it went on pretty fine..
i was kinda shocked and happy..
but i seem to look at ppl..
in a different way now..
its kinda intriguing that things turn out this way.
i guess..
i am just feel insecured after all..
i want to feel the sense of security.
but i guess,
both of us are not that ready yet. :D
i think..
friends are still the best option!
i wna take it slow.
i bet u too.
cos i dun wna rush it.
(ohwell,my hormones are thou! :()
anyway,
i belive,
crying is no longer an option i wna use.
i dun wna be a burden to u at all!
so..
pls dun think too much alr.
your free to go! dude! :D
i feel happy arnd u..
and im contented to know u!
My Friend!
she's getting on my nerves.
i thought i could change my impression of her,
yet..
she is just another dissappoinment!
big bad bitch,ur gna get ur ass kicked.
im gna screw u upside down!
words spilled @ 8/20/2007 11:29:00 PM /
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»numbing pain
Sunday, August 19, 2007
"im still in an aftershock mode"
ohwell,
what done is done!
im over it..
*(i must)
this is not the time for me to be frail!
iwillgetstronger! trust me!
i just cant imagine crying.
lol!
im a lil happy girl.
i wna be blamed for everything.
just leave me alone. D;
shit,
kena scolded.
nabei. :/
Labels: wna be alone
words spilled @ 8/19/2007 09:17:00 PM /
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»tears fell. i wonder why...
"hey,i stumbled and fell."
oh well,whats done is done.
i wont cry,
cos i just forgotten.
i believe that i was being all naive,
and all that..
GOSH!
stupid hormones and fairytales.
i better go find a korean or an angmoh
to be my anti-depressant,
before i get a lil crazy.
(i AM crazy,aren't i..? wont make a difference thou.)
Currently,
im having stupid migraines,puffy goldfish eyes..
how nice
and i didnt sleep for more than 4 hours!
wonderful man!
total ownage. :D
to all yyss teachers,teaching 4d in every subject on monday;
pls pardon me,eunice if i ever sleep in ur class.
i think,..
i deserved it..
(totally!)
i shld not have assume that it was me,,
STUPIDITY kills!
well,
whats over is over.
im trying to forget,still.
would i be able to be normal..? i dont know..
Yao zhai ta de shen ri shang bei ju jue, zhen shi wo huo gai!
furthermore..
its like kibum's situation..
painful things on joyous memories.
I guess..
im sorry if i ever was a burden to you..
Or ever made u sad or depressed when u were supposed to be happy,
i once again apologize for everything.
Including that stupidest suggestion i made..
"trade what so whatever.."
Seriously,
i think i need to grow up and start thinking for others,
not for myself..
i will learn..
and grow up.
but oh well,
theres a saying..
"Thank that person that u have loved because that person taught you what love/like is.."
anyway,
kahmsahamnida!! :D
im still smiling..
right?!
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"aiya! it wont be me one la!"
she lamented to her friends.
"What makes u so sure..that its not you?.."
her friends eyed at her.
"But this time round,its for sure..you know, the feeling.."
eunice whined.
"Its always your feeling that is WRONG.."
B friend stressed.
"haha..im hoping for the best!"
she thought happily and carried on washing her hands.
"you both have been quite close? i presumed?.."
A friend grinned happily.
"ah..? no la.. just friends.."
she blushed at the thought.
"you know.. ahh! i like her la.."
he nudged her gently.
"you like..her..?"
she stammered,feeling the ache in her heart.
"yea.. we're kinda compatible..? i dare say.. :P"
he smiled and looked at her direction.
"y..yea...! good for you.. a v..very good taste ah!?"
her voice wavered and she felt the rush of pain.
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words spilled @ 8/19/2007 08:58:00 AM /
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»last last last video
Sunday, August 12, 2007
FLOWER BOYS :D
ENJOY EH!
with subs
i promise,this is the last..for today.. :D
IM SO FREAKING tempted TO WATCH!!
ahhhhhhh
i wna WATCH! :DDDD
mumurs to herself,
*do not,i repeat, do not get tempted!
Labels: its 3am now
words spilled @ 8/12/2007 03:33:00 AM /
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»1 last video before i sleep
LOVE THIS VIDEO.
it explains/translate the meaning of
Nanteugo.. Obteogo... something something..
srry.
dunno how to say it.
look at the lyrics,
and understand the bitterness.
saranghae suju trot!
(wow,its 3 in the morning!)
love this.
and it will swell in ur heart
SUNGMIN OPPA!!!
iloveYOU!
heechul sshi,
ur too..
artistic. ^^'
eunhyuk oppa,
what are u doing with the 'ahh and ahhh?'
sungmin sshi,
ur another one..
who likes sunbae..
especially..big sisters..
nuna.. :PP
sunbae and hoonbae?.. O.o
kangin sshi,
was drunk and slept in an elevator.
he jaywalks too.
naughty! :P
aiishhii!
dun bully hyukjae! :/
and not the host too! :D
Labels: its 3am now
words spilled @ 8/12/2007 03:17:00 AM /
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»VIDS for everyone. its clean. :D
siwon dont share his coke till he spots the camera on him. Look at siwon expression on 00:02
Warning!
Siwon,ur too addicted to Coke! CUT DOWN ON IT.
sam!? why arent u doing ur job to control him?!
Another random video :D
there's
a very feminine kangin and oh! my sungmin with his black locks!
donghae,shindong and lee teuk,
its all abt driving and stuff.
AHAHA!
The truth game;
u guys are BIG BIG liars.
eunhyuk sshii-..
u keep those things in ur ipod?!
oh geez,but oh well, guys as always. :P
PART1
PART 2
liar liar! :P
Labels: VIDEO FANATICS
words spilled @ 8/12/2007 02:47:00 AM /
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»there goes my blogskin. AGAIN
WAT THE H*LL?
what ahppen to my skin?
*faints
words spilled @ 8/12/2007 02:11:00 AM /
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»i got slapped. :(
"this time round,it burned."
ahhhh.
*cries uncontrollably.
kibum plays the piano?..
pls,stab me NOW!
total-heartache. D:
my kibum..
playing songs for other girls..?
ohwell,
*runs into a wall
*cries again.
"it hurts. :("
kibum,is MINE.
*fangs and claws out;hiss at the other girls*
WHAT HAPppen to urr ur..ur hair?..
kibum..?
u look so adorable.
*runs to kibum and hugs him
awww
u look multi adorable. :DD
hyujae!
good for you!
my hyukjae like someone!
hehe.
yay!!
*heartbleeds.
ohwell,
Congrats,honey!
muuuahhhh!!
crazy fabs of super junior,
please..
REFRAIN:
1) From scratching or tugging their limbs when u see them
2)DO NOT throw things at THEM to attract their attention.
3)DO NOT make stupid assumptions and allow the media to make more new,for e.g BGR business of theirs. Its none of our business.
4)DO NOT scream when they are singing. it makes them difficult
(i guess, lip-synching came abt due to this.)
5)DO NOT cause more trouble; e.g physical harm to yourself,to PREVENT SJ from worrying and allow them to function their performances normally.
6)DO NOT MAKE TROUBLE FOR THEM!!
7) PLEASE; dun hurt them!
(they are my JEWELS!! :D)
8*) (u need not follow,well,no one will follow this rule) pls dun steal them from me. D":
BUT!!
CONTINUE
1) SUPPORT THEM!
2) Buy their albums :D
ㅠㅠ *cries.
ahhh.
* 5 min interval *
Is super SUmmer supposed to be a drama?
Or reality?
*Explain to me in SIMPLIFIED terms. :D
my brain is not working due to Stalin..Mao Zedong..and accounts. ^^:
Ouch..
so..the aftermath of losing eunhyuk to a girl;dunno hw many miles away from Singapore is kicking in now?..
wth.. :/
ohwell,
heechul said..?
What??..
ohman.
RIDICULOUS!
a lil clip to bring me up of hyukjae,before he's with the girl
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words spilled @ 8/12/2007 01:28:00 AM /
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»WHAT?!
Saturday, August 11, 2007
"U aint gna give me the same crap"
totally cubersome. i tired. tired.
slept from 7 till 9.
lol.
too tired after studying.
i want SMTOWN'07. :D
its the RING now.
scary and shitty. lols
Ciao.
see u guys when i wna say something
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»finding my happiness.
Friday, August 10, 2007
Annyung!
ahhh,
Haengbok haengbok..
AHHHH.
happy happy happy. :D
so many things happened.
iguessiwillputittoastop.
YAYAYAYA.
super junior performed in japan.
good. haha
but it was not exactly live.
they just purely recorded it and lip-synched.
oh well.
Music Bank performance was a great one!
Super junior!
hwaiting!!
i want to see more of u guys.
ahhh..
the o's are so ...
near.. D:
ii guess enough of super junior-ing. ^^"
hwaiting!
i will work hard with super junior!
haengbok!
im coming!!
ADDITIONAL WISHLIST:
SM TOWN'07 DISC.
buy it for me,ehhs!?
i want i want.
and anyone wna watch Wonderboy after the O's??
:DDD
jiayou!
hwaiting!
aja aja!
heechul hyung;
"Trash goes into the trash bin?"
good. :D
stupid antis.
i wonder why...
are there anti fans.
why cant they just leave them alone..?
like what u like.
but refrain from hurting or defaming them.
its total cliche.
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words spilled @ 8/10/2007 02:48:00 PM /
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»super summer.
Sunday, August 05, 2007
"Sumer turns me off! :/"
especially..
when its about 3 of my darls.
and a GIRL. :((
siwon.kibum.donghae.
why is she having them all by herself?..
And YOU!
choose my kibum. :(
*sulks irritatedly.
ohwell,imnotachristianthou.
*sobs
AHHHHHH.
im so sad.
im forcing myself to watch super summer.
now..
im feeling like
my heart have been chopped into pieces;
like sashimi's.
and dipped them into wasabi before entering kibums mouth!
OUCH!
slap me twice and i shall shy away.
oh pls pls pls.
just let me touch an inch of everyone in suju!!
yearning for them...!
AHHHHH...
i bet if there was such an holiday with suju,
it would be the same scenario like being with kibum.
i will be freakin quiet..
i shall observe only.
*why do i feel queasy arnd guys..??
gosh!!!....
kibumkibumkibum.
hallucinating / fantasizing / dreaming of super junior.
iloveilove KIMHEECHUL.
he's so cute
went to see the translated version of his blog by;
.....Eunice??...
oh..
she's a korean and speaks english.
someone,please slap me hard!
i wna learn korean!!
AHHHH.
slap me,will you!?
INTERVAL: 5MINS.
my mum is being nice.
she scolded me cos i sat here watching super summer,
while laughing (actually im dying cos the lack of blood)
she warned me nicely..
( ilovemy mumu and my dada)
shucks.
my heart hurts big time.
all because of yashi man man.
i heard kibum saying abt his first love.
ok..(relax..)
FIVE YEARS OF ONE SIDED LOVE?!
ok..
a more year than be between my first true one sided love.
its from kibum's mouth which cause me to wince in pain,
whenever i replayed what he said.
ok.
(im mutilating myself..)
im sad. :(
yea..sad..
this pain is sweet. :D
im a sadist, babe!
a sweet sadist.
lets watch more.
let me bleed.
awww...
my baby..
cries for kibum.
the girl broke his heart when its his bday!?
gal..
cant u just choose another date!!!?
birthaday shld be happy,not a painful!
let my bro use comp. tata!
Labels: summer stings.
words spilled @ 8/05/2007 01:22:00 PM /
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»"im sorry"
"i wished it didnt happen,yet it did."
ohgosh,
all im feeling now is jumbled up.
its really heart wrenching to think abt that.
Anyway..
this blog name is gone for good.
if there's a will,there's a way.
i wna experience solitude now.
im feeling apologetic,sad and just..
really sad.
i've felt this countless of times,
even when im with people.
i feel lonely,sad and empty.
i've told this to people around me.
yet..
their reactions were the same.
or some even just changed the subject.
"am i that..annoying..?"
i asked myself.
yet i only could picture myself nodding my head sadly.
are 2 better than one..?
or 3 better than 2?..
the first one is thou..
but 3..
is just triple trouble..
"that's what is see now."
i cant help but to feel left out.
"should i just take myself out from this..?"
i asked myself again.
only to feel really upset and frustrated.
i cried that day,because of you two..
i had told myself once.
never to get upset over a mere friendship.
i've seen many examples of people crying over a friendship.
"they're weird.."
thats all i could hear myself say..
till i was in one situation,
where i said;
"friends are not very important.."
and their reaction was huge.
thats where i began to feel needed.
i felt really happy,
to feel wanted by you guys.
but yet,
this feeling had turned into rage and jealousy.
it begin to fade into depression and a burden.
i have turned to being alone.
i thought..
"probably,im the one neglecting them.."
i tried to join in..
in futile,
it made me see more things which hurt me more.
i wanted to step back and pretend nothing has happened.
yet..
i felt really upset and tight inside.
my emotions swayed hard.
swinging from happiness to sadness,
then depression..
i tried interacting again,
yet i only brushed my hands on pain.
why..?
why do you make me feel so lost and sad..?
all i wanted,
was that i could interact properly with you two.
but..
i just cant.
the misery is flooding.
its just too painful to look at now.
shall i cry last..
for this friendship..?
i hope this would be the last.
E.L.F ;
"im sorry,
i know from your presence,that im important.
but it hurts me when im alone..
i wish that we could have a stand off period,
before i wish for us to continue as friends."
Anyway,
i would have to stop on that topic.
yesterday,
i felt terrible..
i've known of a truth that i dread of.
all i could,
is to apologise..
"i didnt know that it was so soon,
im really sorry..
i thought..that what you said;
a little meant a little..
i didnt think that it would surge till that it was full.
i dreaded for that to happened..
to me..
you two are my siblings..
and to tell you the truth..
she is also bleeding inside.
i known and i have felt.
that this feelings was not just infatuation.
she told me before..
' i would have chose him,but i cant.
It's all too late.. and we cant be together,
i do not want to lose this friendship. '
Now..
all i can is to stay away.
i do no want to see you two getting hurt again..
Because you two are just heartfelt people that makes me feel very comfortable.
please..
accept my apology..."
"im just confused now and lost."
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words spilled @ 8/05/2007 10:31:00 AM /
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»just a lil bit more.
Thursday, August 02, 2007
"stop that maniac from running wild."
total disrespect!
yawns*
im like so lethargic.
boohoos!
chitty chatter.
noisy people.
irritating as usual.
dun like but dun hate her,
just abhor her till deep down.
ohwell.
i just hope to stop this crap.
cos its irritating that i see her sulking every min.
even thou,i enjoy every min of it.
(im lovin' it!)
buahh.
talk to her?
i guess we better do.
cos its like so boring to see her "frail and poor thing".
boring boring boring
bored the pants off me. :P
anyway,
okok stuff happened.
as usual,
tons of silliness,laughter.
i like neelam! :D
adorable-ness!!
my friend.
Not forgetting my boyfriend, hailmi!
hehe.
our lil 'kid'; eunmi. :D
*sound so konglish. :DD
anyway,
had our last photoshoot.
*damn,gna miss the people in 4D,
even thou some are just pure irritating.
hhaha,but i enjoy being with this obnoxious class.
**gerald:
im so sorry! :D if got offend u in any way, please accept my apology!
but well,u really suit the name 'bear' to a T. ^^"
boohoo,
brought my own bear to school.
a white one.
belongs to me and hailmi.
called eunmi, as stated before.
everyone was quite curious bout him.
haha.
i carried him arnd
afraid that andy,'the kidnapper' may take him somewhere.
he keep saying that the legs of my bear are parted too widely.
:DD
and those perverted thoughts!
naughty sia!
anyway, eunmi's a boy!
not a girl, so dun anyhow! :DD
had chem and physics mock test,
it stunned me when i saw the qns.
thanks to some self assuring thoughts,
i came back down and relaxed,
begin the qns after wasting 10 mins panicking.
both papers were ok.
(ok do not mean will pass.)
but i gt the right ans for chem!
yay!
hope angie's ans correct :D
anyway,
my contacts moved away from my cornea,
to the whites of my eyeballs.
it actually caused me to wince in the uncomfortable-ness.
thank god,
it 'popped' out after a blinked forcefully. :D
i was like almost finished with my papers,
so went to the toilet.
washed the contacts with tap water.
(bad idea)
it made my eyes feel like it was soaked in alcohol,
before i popped it back into my sockets.
boohs!
after that, it was recess,
ate nasi lemak agn.
bleah.
sat with my DING.
ilovethisgirl.
then we talk talk.
after that,
brought milo up for angel.
went back up to the toilet for my messy hair.
played in the toilet with alyssa.
total craziness :DD
then attended F&N for like 5mins before going down
for the photo shoot.
took the formal ones.this time,
im seated!
yay~
no need to stand, hehe.
the shorter ones squat on the floor.
poor thing sia. :P
i can sit,man!
arranged to take pictures with my 'harem of wives'.
*im a lucky man/girl/guy/husband.
filled with beautiful,talented beauties arnd me.
but oh well.
everything was in a blur and a rush.
*oops,
forgot to kiss my darl!
my ling.
and my sam missing,dunno wher. :/
amanda was near me all the time.
didnt know electronics and mantou can be close too.
after the pictures,
back to the classroom.
had F&N.
alicia keep bullying my bear.
after f&n,
it was poa.
saw my recovered shimin.
imissher.
unknowingly.
she's impt to me hor!
hugged her infront of cher.
hehe.
she must think im a sicko. :PP
in poa,
had bank recon test.
i just anyhow anyhow lo.
fill here fill there.
then headed for pe.
the 3 princess never change clothes.
me,amanda and sam.
but oh well,
they went ahead to play while i talked abt the shirts.
oh well,
me,my 2 wives (gladys and alicia), yanhwee and weiling talked abt
the designs.
and mr woo joked with us.
say wna be our model. :P
headed back to class,
and owww.
the boys incl my fren,
chicken head (neelam) say not nice. :(
too girlish alr!
im a girl mar!
teivian gave me his designs.
very boyyish.
lol.
(see first lo.)
see the class polls.
hmms.
we have to get to a decision,QUICK.
or else no more tshirts.
pronto,pronto!!
other class alr wear!
boo!
hmms.
at english,
had oral agn.
and once ang,
watched suju.
i miss them.
and damn!
the com there is sure slow.
and agn!
andy kidnapp my bear.
and now further away. :(
snatched it back and went back.
only to see
angel getting framed.
naughty sam.
put ms lee's pencil case into angel bag.
*grow up la!
nvr ask me play! ><
headed down,
passed the opp of his class.
damn!
cant see him. :(
boo!
saw him today,thou.
*happy and contented.
he saw me carrying Eunmi arnd.
hahah!!
went to eat ban mian with grace and yanzhen.
i idint eat thou.
U SEE!
i can control lo.
waited for someone's mr.right.
that guy friggin slow.
*slap him
still say me dunno what.
kuku! :/
went to take bus with grace beside me.
feel very happy.
cos finally can be close to her.
imissher. :(
R stole her from me.
yeah,
boyfriends are more important than friends.
my bus came,
and dozed off.
alighted at my stop and saw my maid.
came back from helping mummy.
walked back home while sipping kopi-o. :DD
tml,
gt badminton. YAY. :DD
boy, i miss u so bad.
look at me boy,just look at me.
say u dont care,say you dont mind.
just talk to me once..
i wna see the glow in ur eyes.
I wna be the diff girl,just ur own sole proprietorship.
please...
just say "hi.."
god!
imissHIM!! :(
"tell me that my secrets are safe with you."
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