»Silence sounds so good now.
Monday, June 28, 2010
I have never been very close with boys.
Unless, we have common friends or common topics.
If not, I wouldnt hang out or talk to them.
I am always the 'awkward turtle' when I am with boys.
Sure, i have guy friends.
But not much.
The guys normally I can talk to, are soft spoken ones.
Or those who are as loud as me.
Or crappish people.
And no offense, but I communicate better with malay guys.
Like it feels that they do not judge,
so it feels very comfortable for me to talk to them.
I usually have the thoughts that I may have the pheromones that attracts girls to me.
Like pretty girls, so I am usually friends with cute and pretty girls.
But mostly to those who are really nice in the inside.
(LOL, i watch too much anime. Hahah..)
But sometimes, I really secretly wished;
That I was those types of girls who can talk to boys without;
Feeling or looking awkward.
I do have ALOT of friends who are like this.
They are really close to boys.
Their best friends are well; boys.
haha.
I have once imagined if I was like that..
Then I would be dead.
Hahah, cos I am a very sensitive person.
Not forgetting, emotional.
I tend to fall for people who are nice to me.
Like, if you helped me or something.
I will like you.
LOL.
(I am totally exposed right here!!)
So, if thats the case..
My friendships wont last.
Wouldn't it?
Thats why sometimes, it really bugs me.
As I remembered what my secondary school english teacher said (Ms Jasmine Lee),
Guys & Girls rarely have PLATONIC friendships.
Its pretty much like rubbish.
Girls and guys come together.
Or maybe guys?
For one reason, just to date.
Hahah. Its true.
Based on my past experience and what I see from the friends around me
; this is pretty much true.
Once they realize they cant date you, they just fly off.
Maybe not ALL boys.
But most cases happens like this.
Isn't it.
-Sigh-
i hope this wasnt counted as an emo post.
Cos I said I want to lessen those posts.
haha.
Been having the tumblr-ing sessions.
Love the pics.
Anyway, Monday is well.. the day where you have the blues.
I am having them. Bleah.
And how I wish; I was more truthful to the people who cares for me.
but sometimes, i just dont want to say.
Because, there is a risk.
Even though good friends we may be, but..
Secrets tends to get slipped out.
So, I will keep this mum..
Among the circle.
Sorry guys. ):
I will tell you guys 1 day.
I would! But not now..
So lessons were boring as usual.
Facci, another new one.
but better than previous week, lol!
I just didnt have the mood.
I just kept tumblring.
I know i am procrastinating.
Cant help it.
(SUCH AN EXCUSE)
Saw him today, but...
What really happened?
I just pretend.
Bullshit la.
Pssh, nonsense only.
Cos I am getting jealous over nothing.
They were just chatting, so?!!!!
wtf, I believe im the 'possesive' type.
lol.
Just now in bus, was showing the pictures from tumblr to amanda.
She likes it too!
There is a quite a few pics we agreed on.
lol,
Like the one I posted in top.
"Friends we may be. But can we dont be friends?"
Cos I think I love you.
P.S even though we had a long talk.
The longest one ever!!
Like compared to our other conversation.
Yesterday night, so far..
Was the longest!
But sadly, sometimes..
my heart just goes to a 'force close'
I dont know, in my eyes..
You are just so almighty.
You are a tree that wont be uprooted,
no matter how strong the winds were.
But we are all humans, arent we?
*sigh*
Even Amanda thinks that because 我得不到你;
that's why i crave so much for you.
I am scared, once I have gotten what I want.
I will just throw you away.
And break you once again.
You look strong, but inside..
Lays a porcelain heart.
Maybe for the benefit of me and you,
I have to make sure I really really will treat with you care.
And not have any issues with how you look, how you talk or how you act.
Its silly of me to think like this.
but i dont want to hurt another person.
Sigh, but for now.
I just know..
I am craving for you really badly.
I like you, you silly doofus.
I like how you care about how I feel.
or how am I feeling.
Even though I know it might just be a lie. (:
Unless, we have common friends or common topics.
If not, I wouldnt hang out or talk to them.
I am always the 'awkward turtle' when I am with boys.
Sure, i have guy friends.
But not much.
The guys normally I can talk to, are soft spoken ones.
Or those who are as loud as me.
Or crappish people.
And no offense, but I communicate better with malay guys.
Like it feels that they do not judge,
so it feels very comfortable for me to talk to them.
I usually have the thoughts that I may have the pheromones that attracts girls to me.
Like pretty girls, so I am usually friends with cute and pretty girls.
But mostly to those who are really nice in the inside.
(LOL, i watch too much anime. Hahah..)
But sometimes, I really secretly wished;
That I was those types of girls who can talk to boys without;
Feeling or looking awkward.
I do have ALOT of friends who are like this.
They are really close to boys.
Their best friends are well; boys.
haha.
I have once imagined if I was like that..
Then I would be dead.
Hahah, cos I am a very sensitive person.
Not forgetting, emotional.
I tend to fall for people who are nice to me.
Like, if you helped me or something.
I will like you.
LOL.
(I am totally exposed right here!!)
So, if thats the case..
My friendships wont last.
Wouldn't it?
Thats why sometimes, it really bugs me.
As I remembered what my secondary school english teacher said (Ms Jasmine Lee),
Guys & Girls rarely have PLATONIC friendships.
Its pretty much like rubbish.
Girls and guys come together.
Or maybe guys?
For one reason, just to date.
Hahah. Its true.
Based on my past experience and what I see from the friends around me
; this is pretty much true.
Once they realize they cant date you, they just fly off.
Maybe not ALL boys.
But most cases happens like this.
Isn't it.
-Sigh-
i hope this wasnt counted as an emo post.
Cos I said I want to lessen those posts.
haha.
Been having the tumblr-ing sessions.
Love the pics.
Anyway, Monday is well.. the day where you have the blues.
I am having them. Bleah.
And how I wish; I was more truthful to the people who cares for me.
but sometimes, i just dont want to say.
Because, there is a risk.
Even though good friends we may be, but..
Secrets tends to get slipped out.
So, I will keep this mum..
Among the circle.
Sorry guys. ):
I will tell you guys 1 day.
I would! But not now..
So lessons were boring as usual.
Facci, another new one.
but better than previous week, lol!
I just didnt have the mood.
I just kept tumblring.
I know i am procrastinating.
Cant help it.
(SUCH AN EXCUSE)
Saw him today, but...
What really happened?
I just pretend.
Bullshit la.
Pssh, nonsense only.
Cos I am getting jealous over nothing.
They were just chatting, so?!!!!
wtf, I believe im the 'possesive' type.
lol.
Just now in bus, was showing the pictures from tumblr to amanda.
She likes it too!
There is a quite a few pics we agreed on.
lol,
Like the one I posted in top.
"Friends we may be. But can we dont be friends?"
Cos I think I love you.
P.S even though we had a long talk.
The longest one ever!!
Like compared to our other conversation.
Yesterday night, so far..
Was the longest!
But sadly, sometimes..
my heart just goes to a 'force close'
I dont know, in my eyes..
You are just so almighty.
You are a tree that wont be uprooted,
no matter how strong the winds were.
But we are all humans, arent we?
*sigh*
Even Amanda thinks that because 我得不到你;
that's why i crave so much for you.
I am scared, once I have gotten what I want.
I will just throw you away.
And break you once again.
You look strong, but inside..
Lays a porcelain heart.
Maybe for the benefit of me and you,
I have to make sure I really really will treat with you care.
And not have any issues with how you look, how you talk or how you act.
Its silly of me to think like this.
but i dont want to hurt another person.
Sigh, but for now.
I just know..
I am craving for you really badly.
I like you, you silly doofus.
I like how you care about how I feel.
or how am I feeling.
Even though I know it might just be a lie. (:
Labels: boys, but i love u.., day in school, everyday life.
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Sunday, January 04, 2009
"Russian roulette wont be the same without a gun,wouldn't it..?"
but i think its more likely to be suicide roulette
ahah!
its a new year.
but the same ole damn boring eunice.
well, except the fact that i wasted my poor hols and got a new haircut.
bah!
my thick mane just got snipped away.
it looks alright though.
but well,a change is better than no change,right?
and well, im sad that I have nothing to update about.
cos i am on a sad 'no - life' status,currently.
and school's bout to reopen.
and and and!
my ten weeks holidays is just 3 weeks away.
time for me to waste it away,again. (its a habit)
background mum's voice: "Get a Job la! Always at home and say you nothing to do!
Tsk! Tsk! Always computer & TV! Tsk!"
well, my usual phrase which is used to placate her is :
"Orh,ok la. Dont nag,can..? I will.."
(this is not talking back)
this is just a step back into rebelllion.
i dont like people to tell me to do things.
i want to do it on my own.
tsk! ):
well well,
school's starting soon.
it's gonna stink and sting.
cos im gonna bid farewell to these extraordinary people..
i never realized that time passes so fast when ur happy.
and, time drags like a long speech in the school halls when you aren't
(points back to post that stretched from '08 april.)
ohwell.
at least i met different people,saw different face,had acquaintances and well,friends!
im really glad to those people in W15A!
thank u ol' SO SO SO much!
esp; Shandy,Heidi,Peishan,Zul,Charlotte,Joy!~
and not forgetting all the faccis and my other beloved classmates.
and ahh!
I totally forgotten about the New Year Resolution.
ahhhh,fuggggg it!
well,apparently i will contradict myself in one action and another.
I will still need a new year resolution, and well..
i will also leave some undone.
(shakes her head bewilderedly)
and gah gah gah!
im going to be 18 soon.
*sighs*
im excited and rather apprehensive about that.
cos someone just gave a huge knock on the head.
"What have you done this past 18 years of your life..?
what have you achieved.."
seriously,that STINKS & STINGS.
blah!
and to be heard from someone i dearly love.
ah,crap.
so so so..
like what i am always.
left ear go in,right ear come out.
anyway,im currently installing Core of Duty 5 : World at Wars.
wonder shall i install on my laptop or not.
kekes.
and well,gahhh..
im feeling so crappy now.
cos everything is not kinda accomplished or done yet.
*hits head*
and yea,the Twilight mania is fading..
so so slightly.
kekes.
im still not really into rob pattinson.
he..he did not wash his hair for 6 weeks.
gosh.
ok,thats a lil gross.
seriously..
and well, EMMET IS SO DAMN FRICKING HOT.
same as JASPER.
lol.
cute and duper hot hunks.
and i seriously AM so into their eyes.
*tears*
i wonder how will u feel if u stare into a the eyes that holds sapphire and emeralds...?
i think i will probably get stuck there as if there's quicksand in them.
im so willing to drop into that!
*slaps hysterical self*
okok,im back and ready to check on my CoD.
and yea,SUBWAY is the next place im gonna drag grace to.
and i love thier cookies!
*goo-goo eyes*
suresh is gonna say i cant pull them off.
pffft!
TT_TT
alright my peeps.
i shall see u either i school or at shopping malls.
and yea,there's a FRICKIN fat cockroach in my study.
i hope it dies or get eaten by ants.
you know how i much i hate roaches.
*shudders*
I HATE ROACHES.
im feeling so uncomfortable right now.
due to that stupid roach.
DIE DIE DIE!
*sulks*
but i think its more likely to be suicide roulette
ahah!
its a new year.
but the same ole damn boring eunice.
well, except the fact that i wasted my poor hols and got a new haircut.
bah!
my thick mane just got snipped away.
it looks alright though.
but well,a change is better than no change,right?
and well, im sad that I have nothing to update about.
cos i am on a sad 'no - life' status,currently.
and school's bout to reopen.
and and and!
my ten weeks holidays is just 3 weeks away.
time for me to waste it away,again. (its a habit)
background mum's voice: "Get a Job la! Always at home and say you nothing to do!
Tsk! Tsk! Always computer & TV! Tsk!"
well, my usual phrase which is used to placate her is :
"Orh,ok la. Dont nag,can..? I will.."
(this is not talking back)
this is just a step back into rebelllion.
i dont like people to tell me to do things.
i want to do it on my own.
tsk! ):
well well,
school's starting soon.
it's gonna stink and sting.
cos im gonna bid farewell to these extraordinary people..
i never realized that time passes so fast when ur happy.
and, time drags like a long speech in the school halls when you aren't
(points back to post that stretched from '08 april.)
ohwell.
at least i met different people,saw different face,had acquaintances and well,friends!
im really glad to those people in W15A!
thank u ol' SO SO SO much!
esp; Shandy,Heidi,Peishan,Zul,Charlotte,Joy!~
and not forgetting all the faccis and my other beloved classmates.
and ahh!
I totally forgotten about the New Year Resolution.
ahhhh,fuggggg it!
well,apparently i will contradict myself in one action and another.
I will still need a new year resolution, and well..
i will also leave some undone.
(shakes her head bewilderedly)
and gah gah gah!
im going to be 18 soon.
*sighs*
im excited and rather apprehensive about that.
cos someone just gave a huge knock on the head.
"What have you done this past 18 years of your life..?
what have you achieved.."
seriously,that STINKS & STINGS.
blah!
and to be heard from someone i dearly love.
ah,crap.
so so so..
like what i am always.
left ear go in,right ear come out.
anyway,im currently installing Core of Duty 5 : World at Wars.
wonder shall i install on my laptop or not.
kekes.
and well,gahhh..
im feeling so crappy now.
cos everything is not kinda accomplished or done yet.
*hits head*
and yea,the Twilight mania is fading..
so so slightly.
kekes.
im still not really into rob pattinson.
he..he did not wash his hair for 6 weeks.
gosh.
ok,thats a lil gross.
seriously..
and well, EMMET IS SO DAMN FRICKING HOT.
same as JASPER.
lol.
cute and duper hot hunks.
and i seriously AM so into their eyes.
*tears*
i wonder how will u feel if u stare into a the eyes that holds sapphire and emeralds...?
i think i will probably get stuck there as if there's quicksand in them.
im so willing to drop into that!
*slaps hysterical self*
okok,im back and ready to check on my CoD.
and yea,SUBWAY is the next place im gonna drag grace to.
and i love thier cookies!
*goo-goo eyes*
suresh is gonna say i cant pull them off.
pffft!
TT_TT
alright my peeps.
i shall see u either i school or at shopping malls.
and yea,there's a FRICKIN fat cockroach in my study.
i hope it dies or get eaten by ants.
you know how i much i hate roaches.
*shudders*
I HATE ROACHES.
im feeling so uncomfortable right now.
due to that stupid roach.
DIE DIE DIE!
*sulks*
Labels: bored, everyday life., HOLIDAYS-winter, school starting, sleepy
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»just a lil bit more.
Thursday, August 02, 2007
"stop that maniac from running wild."
total disrespect!
yawns*
im like so lethargic.
boohoos!
chitty chatter.
noisy people.
irritating as usual.
dun like but dun hate her,
just abhor her till deep down.
ohwell.
i just hope to stop this crap.
cos its irritating that i see her sulking every min.
even thou,i enjoy every min of it.
(im lovin' it!)
buahh.
talk to her?
i guess we better do.
cos its like so boring to see her "frail and poor thing".
boring boring boring
bored the pants off me. :P
anyway,
okok stuff happened.
as usual,
tons of silliness,laughter.
i like neelam! :D
adorable-ness!!
my friend.
Not forgetting my boyfriend, hailmi!
hehe.
our lil 'kid'; eunmi. :D
*sound so konglish. :DD
anyway,
had our last photoshoot.
*damn,gna miss the people in 4D,
even thou some are just pure irritating.
hhaha,but i enjoy being with this obnoxious class.
**gerald:
im so sorry! :D if got offend u in any way, please accept my apology!
but well,u really suit the name 'bear' to a T. ^^"
boohoo,
brought my own bear to school.
a white one.
belongs to me and hailmi.
called eunmi, as stated before.
everyone was quite curious bout him.
haha.
i carried him arnd
afraid that andy,'the kidnapper' may take him somewhere.
he keep saying that the legs of my bear are parted too widely.
:DD
and those perverted thoughts!
naughty sia!
anyway, eunmi's a boy!
not a girl, so dun anyhow! :DD
had chem and physics mock test,
it stunned me when i saw the qns.
thanks to some self assuring thoughts,
i came back down and relaxed,
begin the qns after wasting 10 mins panicking.
both papers were ok.
(ok do not mean will pass.)
but i gt the right ans for chem!
yay!
hope angie's ans correct :D
anyway,
my contacts moved away from my cornea,
to the whites of my eyeballs.
it actually caused me to wince in the uncomfortable-ness.
thank god,
it 'popped' out after a blinked forcefully. :D
i was like almost finished with my papers,
so went to the toilet.
washed the contacts with tap water.
(bad idea)
it made my eyes feel like it was soaked in alcohol,
before i popped it back into my sockets.
boohs!
after that, it was recess,
ate nasi lemak agn.
bleah.
sat with my DING.
ilovethisgirl.
then we talk talk.
after that,
brought milo up for angel.
went back up to the toilet for my messy hair.
played in the toilet with alyssa.
total craziness :DD
then attended F&N for like 5mins before going down
for the photo shoot.
took the formal ones.this time,
im seated!
yay~
no need to stand, hehe.
the shorter ones squat on the floor.
poor thing sia. :P
i can sit,man!
arranged to take pictures with my 'harem of wives'.
*im a lucky man/girl/guy/husband.
filled with beautiful,talented beauties arnd me.
but oh well.
everything was in a blur and a rush.
*oops,
forgot to kiss my darl!
my ling.
and my sam missing,dunno wher. :/
amanda was near me all the time.
didnt know electronics and mantou can be close too.
after the pictures,
back to the classroom.
had F&N.
alicia keep bullying my bear.
after f&n,
it was poa.
saw my recovered shimin.
imissher.
unknowingly.
she's impt to me hor!
hugged her infront of cher.
hehe.
she must think im a sicko. :PP
in poa,
had bank recon test.
i just anyhow anyhow lo.
fill here fill there.
then headed for pe.
the 3 princess never change clothes.
me,amanda and sam.
but oh well,
they went ahead to play while i talked abt the shirts.
oh well,
me,my 2 wives (gladys and alicia), yanhwee and weiling talked abt
the designs.
and mr woo joked with us.
say wna be our model. :P
headed back to class,
and owww.
the boys incl my fren,
chicken head (neelam) say not nice. :(
too girlish alr!
im a girl mar!
teivian gave me his designs.
very boyyish.
lol.
(see first lo.)
see the class polls.
hmms.
we have to get to a decision,QUICK.
or else no more tshirts.
pronto,pronto!!
other class alr wear!
boo!
hmms.
at english,
had oral agn.
and once ang,
watched suju.
i miss them.
and damn!
the com there is sure slow.
and agn!
andy kidnapp my bear.
and now further away. :(
snatched it back and went back.
only to see
angel getting framed.
naughty sam.
put ms lee's pencil case into angel bag.
*grow up la!
nvr ask me play! ><
headed down,
passed the opp of his class.
damn!
cant see him. :(
boo!
saw him today,thou.
*happy and contented.
he saw me carrying Eunmi arnd.
hahah!!
went to eat ban mian with grace and yanzhen.
i idint eat thou.
U SEE!
i can control lo.
waited for someone's mr.right.
that guy friggin slow.
*slap him
still say me dunno what.
kuku! :/
went to take bus with grace beside me.
feel very happy.
cos finally can be close to her.
imissher. :(
R stole her from me.
yeah,
boyfriends are more important than friends.
my bus came,
and dozed off.
alighted at my stop and saw my maid.
came back from helping mummy.
walked back home while sipping kopi-o. :DD
tml,
gt badminton. YAY. :DD
boy, i miss u so bad.
look at me boy,just look at me.
say u dont care,say you dont mind.
just talk to me once..
i wna see the glow in ur eyes.
I wna be the diff girl,just ur own sole proprietorship.
please...
just say "hi.."
god!
imissHIM!! :(
"tell me that my secrets are safe with you."
Labels: everyday life.
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