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Saturday, July 31, 2010
"Boys are idiots"
Ok, not in general.
But, seriously..
-_-
So, i received a text from a friend.
And well, apparently..
the guy she likes was 'giving' her away to his friend, who likes her.
Why so?
My friend hinted the guy that she likes him alot.
Then, that guy seem to have shown the same.
But!!
All of a sudden, a rumor saying that guy's friend likes my friend too.
Dramatic?
Damn dramatic, machiam korean drama.
So, what did my friend's prince charming do?
He got very generous and kind, he gave my friend away to his friend!!
OMG.
That is like; wtffffff.
So, did he just pull the 'bros before hos' saying?
Yes, he OBVIOUSLY did.
So your bro is more important than the girl la.
wtf, please hor.
My friend is NOT a ball.
She dont need you to push her to ur friend.
Because she likes you.
-sigh-
No matter how much your friend likes her,
she still likes you best.
Can't you do the same?
Like, I know your friends are gonna say.
"You betrayed xxx because of a girl?"
Waseh, please lor.
If you did, just proudly say.
"Cos I love her too.
Too bad for xxx."
(no need to be too mean though)
Tsk!
My friend feels so heartbroken.
Cos all that guy do is to mention;
"eh, you see .. xxx looking at u."
" you should like him back too."
asshole, u not charity hor.
No need to DONATE my friend away.
That guy one, he can come and woo my friend.
NO NEED TO ask you to DONATE her to him.
If he still wants, he's a freeloader/ horny bastard.
Sigh, for me to actually know you.
You know, you freaking disappoint me.
My friend is a 'gift' from god.
And, whenever you recieve a gift, you should NEVER give it away.
Cos its rude.
You are horrible.
--- enough of my rants alr--
so, today is a sat.
tml is august, and im bored.
):
ok, bai.
Ok, not in general.
But, seriously..
-_-
So, i received a text from a friend.
And well, apparently..
the guy she likes was 'giving' her away to his friend, who likes her.
Why so?
My friend hinted the guy that she likes him alot.
Then, that guy seem to have shown the same.
But!!
All of a sudden, a rumor saying that guy's friend likes my friend too.
Dramatic?
Damn dramatic, machiam korean drama.
So, what did my friend's prince charming do?
He got very generous and kind, he gave my friend away to his friend!!
OMG.
That is like; wtffffff.
So, did he just pull the 'bros before hos' saying?
Yes, he OBVIOUSLY did.
So your bro is more important than the girl la.
wtf, please hor.
My friend is NOT a ball.
She dont need you to push her to ur friend.
Because she likes you.
-sigh-
No matter how much your friend likes her,
she still likes you best.
Can't you do the same?
Like, I know your friends are gonna say.
"You betrayed xxx because of a girl?"
Waseh, please lor.
If you did, just proudly say.
"Cos I love her too.
Too bad for xxx."
(no need to be too mean though)
Tsk!
My friend feels so heartbroken.
Cos all that guy do is to mention;
"eh, you see .. xxx looking at u."
" you should like him back too."
asshole, u not charity hor.
No need to DONATE my friend away.
That guy one, he can come and woo my friend.
NO NEED TO ask you to DONATE her to him.
If he still wants, he's a freeloader/ horny bastard.
Sigh, for me to actually know you.
You know, you freaking disappoint me.
My friend is a 'gift' from god.
And, whenever you recieve a gift, you should NEVER give it away.
Cos its rude.
You are horrible.
--- enough of my rants alr--
so, today is a sat.
tml is august, and im bored.
):
ok, bai.
Labels: boys
words spilled @ 7/31/2010 10:51:00 PM /
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»hello number 500
Thursday, July 15, 2010
Pretty right? I love blue skies!
It just brightens my mood whenever I see the combination of,
fluffy clouds and blue skies. (took this on the way home)
Goshgosh, I haven't been blogging.
I am so sorry.
Really, my life is dramatic right now.
Fights with friends and friends that aren't really my friends.
But overall, even though it's filled with nonsensical drama.
My life is pretty bland.
Bland is the word.
lol.
Ok, so surprise surprise.
I've found out that I have a wrong impression of a close friend.
Well, he's actually really studios.
that surprised me a lil.
next; 3 ut modules are over.
left with my theory module.
heh.
ok, ut sucks.
i cant study, believe i will do worse. ):
there goes my drastic gpa.
i suck at everything.
congrats, found myself a new name. Loser.
ok, well lets skip to the happy stuff.
so woke up at 9.30; studied a lil for UT.
texted amanda that i would be late and asked her to head to school first.
took my time, walked to the bus stop.
boarded a single deck 161.
i sat opposite this bulky guy from our school.
never seen him before and went into my world.
then, got a call from amanda..
which surprisingly is in the same bus as me.
haha.
dozed off like a log and reached interchange.
when getting down the bus, i saw his name sewn onto his shirt.
and well, his name got printed on my brains.
Only just..
I told myself to recall whats his name, and went to check facebook.
ok, im a stalker!
but cute guys are stalkable. lol!
and ahhh!!
found that we have mutual friends.
and our mutual friends is my close friend!~~
machiam so good. :D
lol, wrong use of machiam.. i guess?
major like!
ok, so round up my day.
fyp meeting
ut
ut over
heartland mall kovan with amanda
accompanied amanda to buy bible for her sis.
went home for dinner
an awesome dinner.
(mum cooked herbal chicken; ehh. shiok ttm!~)
watched wipeout, almost peed.
so damn lol-worthy!
use laptop, send advisor my summary.
stalk ppl on facebook.
haha
gg to sleep soon.
but a few notessss;
1)i just knew amanda's church was beside selegie soyabean!~ :D
we have been so close, yet i dont know her!! omggg.
2) ruth,eileen,yy and i were talking abt our secondary school photos.
lol
had sooo much fun with them!!
3)i have another eyecandy! such a wonderful distraction near home mega like!
4) there are glue sniffers popping near my area. -.-
5) i very tired, and i think my ut all cui
6) need to get a sport to destress!! volleyball? :D
7)i wanna go back dancing!~ i miss miss miss
8)where to get hiphop clothing uh?
9)im gg off to sleep
10) i love my friends. heh
an awesome dinner.
(mum cooked herbal chicken; ehh. shiok ttm!~)
watched wipeout, almost peed.
so damn lol-worthy!
use laptop, send advisor my summary.
stalk ppl on facebook.
haha
gg to sleep soon.
but a few notessss;
1)i just knew amanda's church was beside selegie soyabean!~ :D
we have been so close, yet i dont know her!! omggg.
2) ruth,eileen,yy and i were talking abt our secondary school photos.
lol
had sooo much fun with them!!
3)i have another eyecandy! such a wonderful distraction near home mega like!
4) there are glue sniffers popping near my area. -.-
5) i very tired, and i think my ut all cui
6) need to get a sport to destress!! volleyball? :D
7)i wanna go back dancing!~ i miss miss miss
8)where to get hiphop clothing uh?
9)im gg off to sleep
10) i love my friends. heh
Labels: boys, daily life, day in school, UT
words spilled @ 7/15/2010 12:35:00 AM /
> leave goosebumps here ⋄
»Silence sounds so good now.
Monday, June 28, 2010
I have never been very close with boys.
Unless, we have common friends or common topics.
If not, I wouldnt hang out or talk to them.
I am always the 'awkward turtle' when I am with boys.
Sure, i have guy friends.
But not much.
The guys normally I can talk to, are soft spoken ones.
Or those who are as loud as me.
Or crappish people.
And no offense, but I communicate better with malay guys.
Like it feels that they do not judge,
so it feels very comfortable for me to talk to them.
I usually have the thoughts that I may have the pheromones that attracts girls to me.
Like pretty girls, so I am usually friends with cute and pretty girls.
But mostly to those who are really nice in the inside.
(LOL, i watch too much anime. Hahah..)
But sometimes, I really secretly wished;
That I was those types of girls who can talk to boys without;
Feeling or looking awkward.
I do have ALOT of friends who are like this.
They are really close to boys.
Their best friends are well; boys.
haha.
I have once imagined if I was like that..
Then I would be dead.
Hahah, cos I am a very sensitive person.
Not forgetting, emotional.
I tend to fall for people who are nice to me.
Like, if you helped me or something.
I will like you.
LOL.
(I am totally exposed right here!!)
So, if thats the case..
My friendships wont last.
Wouldn't it?
Thats why sometimes, it really bugs me.
As I remembered what my secondary school english teacher said (Ms Jasmine Lee),
Guys & Girls rarely have PLATONIC friendships.
Its pretty much like rubbish.
Girls and guys come together.
Or maybe guys?
For one reason, just to date.
Hahah. Its true.
Based on my past experience and what I see from the friends around me
; this is pretty much true.
Once they realize they cant date you, they just fly off.
Maybe not ALL boys.
But most cases happens like this.
Isn't it.
-Sigh-
i hope this wasnt counted as an emo post.
Cos I said I want to lessen those posts.
haha.
Been having the tumblr-ing sessions.
Love the pics.
Anyway, Monday is well.. the day where you have the blues.
I am having them. Bleah.
And how I wish; I was more truthful to the people who cares for me.
but sometimes, i just dont want to say.
Because, there is a risk.
Even though good friends we may be, but..
Secrets tends to get slipped out.
So, I will keep this mum..
Among the circle.
Sorry guys. ):
I will tell you guys 1 day.
I would! But not now..
So lessons were boring as usual.
Facci, another new one.
but better than previous week, lol!
I just didnt have the mood.
I just kept tumblring.
I know i am procrastinating.
Cant help it.
(SUCH AN EXCUSE)
Saw him today, but...
What really happened?
I just pretend.
Bullshit la.
Pssh, nonsense only.
Cos I am getting jealous over nothing.
They were just chatting, so?!!!!
wtf, I believe im the 'possesive' type.
lol.
Just now in bus, was showing the pictures from tumblr to amanda.
She likes it too!
There is a quite a few pics we agreed on.
lol,
Like the one I posted in top.
"Friends we may be. But can we dont be friends?"
Cos I think I love you.
P.S even though we had a long talk.
The longest one ever!!
Like compared to our other conversation.
Yesterday night, so far..
Was the longest!
But sadly, sometimes..
my heart just goes to a 'force close'
I dont know, in my eyes..
You are just so almighty.
You are a tree that wont be uprooted,
no matter how strong the winds were.
But we are all humans, arent we?
*sigh*
Even Amanda thinks that because 我得不到你;
that's why i crave so much for you.
I am scared, once I have gotten what I want.
I will just throw you away.
And break you once again.
You look strong, but inside..
Lays a porcelain heart.
Maybe for the benefit of me and you,
I have to make sure I really really will treat with you care.
And not have any issues with how you look, how you talk or how you act.
Its silly of me to think like this.
but i dont want to hurt another person.
Sigh, but for now.
I just know..
I am craving for you really badly.
I like you, you silly doofus.
I like how you care about how I feel.
or how am I feeling.
Even though I know it might just be a lie. (:
Unless, we have common friends or common topics.
If not, I wouldnt hang out or talk to them.
I am always the 'awkward turtle' when I am with boys.
Sure, i have guy friends.
But not much.
The guys normally I can talk to, are soft spoken ones.
Or those who are as loud as me.
Or crappish people.
And no offense, but I communicate better with malay guys.
Like it feels that they do not judge,
so it feels very comfortable for me to talk to them.
I usually have the thoughts that I may have the pheromones that attracts girls to me.
Like pretty girls, so I am usually friends with cute and pretty girls.
But mostly to those who are really nice in the inside.
(LOL, i watch too much anime. Hahah..)
But sometimes, I really secretly wished;
That I was those types of girls who can talk to boys without;
Feeling or looking awkward.
I do have ALOT of friends who are like this.
They are really close to boys.
Their best friends are well; boys.
haha.
I have once imagined if I was like that..
Then I would be dead.
Hahah, cos I am a very sensitive person.
Not forgetting, emotional.
I tend to fall for people who are nice to me.
Like, if you helped me or something.
I will like you.
LOL.
(I am totally exposed right here!!)
So, if thats the case..
My friendships wont last.
Wouldn't it?
Thats why sometimes, it really bugs me.
As I remembered what my secondary school english teacher said (Ms Jasmine Lee),
Guys & Girls rarely have PLATONIC friendships.
Its pretty much like rubbish.
Girls and guys come together.
Or maybe guys?
For one reason, just to date.
Hahah. Its true.
Based on my past experience and what I see from the friends around me
; this is pretty much true.
Once they realize they cant date you, they just fly off.
Maybe not ALL boys.
But most cases happens like this.
Isn't it.
-Sigh-
i hope this wasnt counted as an emo post.
Cos I said I want to lessen those posts.
haha.
Been having the tumblr-ing sessions.
Love the pics.
Anyway, Monday is well.. the day where you have the blues.
I am having them. Bleah.
And how I wish; I was more truthful to the people who cares for me.
but sometimes, i just dont want to say.
Because, there is a risk.
Even though good friends we may be, but..
Secrets tends to get slipped out.
So, I will keep this mum..
Among the circle.
Sorry guys. ):
I will tell you guys 1 day.
I would! But not now..
So lessons were boring as usual.
Facci, another new one.
but better than previous week, lol!
I just didnt have the mood.
I just kept tumblring.
I know i am procrastinating.
Cant help it.
(SUCH AN EXCUSE)
Saw him today, but...
What really happened?
I just pretend.
Bullshit la.
Pssh, nonsense only.
Cos I am getting jealous over nothing.
They were just chatting, so?!!!!
wtf, I believe im the 'possesive' type.
lol.
Just now in bus, was showing the pictures from tumblr to amanda.
She likes it too!
There is a quite a few pics we agreed on.
lol,
Like the one I posted in top.
"Friends we may be. But can we dont be friends?"
Cos I think I love you.
P.S even though we had a long talk.
The longest one ever!!
Like compared to our other conversation.
Yesterday night, so far..
Was the longest!
But sadly, sometimes..
my heart just goes to a 'force close'
I dont know, in my eyes..
You are just so almighty.
You are a tree that wont be uprooted,
no matter how strong the winds were.
But we are all humans, arent we?
*sigh*
Even Amanda thinks that because 我得不到你;
that's why i crave so much for you.
I am scared, once I have gotten what I want.
I will just throw you away.
And break you once again.
You look strong, but inside..
Lays a porcelain heart.
Maybe for the benefit of me and you,
I have to make sure I really really will treat with you care.
And not have any issues with how you look, how you talk or how you act.
Its silly of me to think like this.
but i dont want to hurt another person.
Sigh, but for now.
I just know..
I am craving for you really badly.
I like you, you silly doofus.
I like how you care about how I feel.
or how am I feeling.
Even though I know it might just be a lie. (:
Labels: boys, but i love u.., day in school, everyday life.
words spilled @ 6/28/2010 04:24:00 PM /
> leave goosebumps here ⋄
»Brushing past
Sunday, June 27, 2010
I have realised, I am very unhealthy.
Especially the state of my mind.
After reading through my friend's blogs, I have realised.
How I pale in comparison to them.
Especially with my recent emo postings.
Argh, even reading my post makes me feel horrible.
I will try to cut down on those!
So, here comes the updates.
On Thursday night, I had a nice surprise from a best friend of mine.
(Actually, more of a friday morning.)
Grace called me!
I didnt know she called me though,
till I went to my room to take something.
And I saw, a missed call!
Apparently, I get worried if a best friend calls me late at night.
As, she doesnt do that at all.
Ok, who in the right mind will call someone in wee morning.
Unless something happened, right?
So I immediately called her back; (it was around 1am+)
And; guess what..?
What she did was endearing!
She asked what happened to me,
as her (neglected) twitter was filled with emo-ness from me.
And we talked for around 15minutes plus.
That 15minutes ; was precious..
I thank her, because she called as she was worried about me.
I was really touched.
Thanks gal, thank u!
I love u alotttt! ok?~!
Like what you said, i am just a few missed calls away. :P
But beside her, there are many people who were concerned about me.
Especially with my shaky psychological state.
My friends from my class were heartwarming, as usual.
My friends from other classes too.
Even friends whom I didnt meet; comforted me.
Thank you!!
So, that was friday wee morning.
As for the rest of the day, at 8am.
Singapore once again had lots of rain.
I heard the rain pelting on my windows, so I decided to snooze my alarm.
And go back to sleep.
Weird, I woke up at 10:45 because I needed to pee.
And the sky lightened,but there was still rain.
So, I washed up and changed my clothes.
because eileen texted me. heee.
So i went for school.
reached school at 12 plus.
did some work, had ban mian for lunch.
and ohyea! eileen..
I owe u money!
I realised I was broke when I opened my wallet.
really, I am broke.
not even a coin!
Spendthrift.
Had lunch, and well..
Presentation for 3 teams were pretty fast.
JB helped me to tell facci, that i did work and etc.
Thanks dude!
After 6P,go through UT answers.
Sighh, I hope I dont get another D!
PLEASE! NO!
Then end of lesson..
Talked to friends on MSN.
Suddenly, my hand started itching.
Draw on the board and I thought of an idea.
Play HANGMAN!
My favourite game. hahah!
And the class, I mean (remaining) classmates;
were pretty enthusiastic! haha.
I really had so much fun!
thanks guys. (:
Lol, I kinda remembered the scores.
CK - 2
Yenfi - 2
Wan - 1
Amanda - 1
Eileen - 1
I think thats all? hahah.
Ok, actually..
During the game I screwed up.
gave wrong descript for 'Prodigy'.. LOL
Haaa, had so much fun.
Thanks to amanda too.
she stayed back. (:
So, walked to interchange with the usual gang.
And we were talking; me and amanda were.
I said about nate and etc.
Cos I admitted, I told another person.
because i needed someone who can see whats going on..
And tell me what to do.
*sigh*
Then ziheng and amanda said; it was a wrong move.
because, I will just make it harder for me to forget.
BLEAH!
But so far; the responses I have gotten are pretty wide ranged;
- Dont give up, fight for it.
- Forget him, he maybe playing arounf
- Forget him unless u are really serious abt it.
- Dont give up, unless hes taken.
Sigh, how?!
You tell me how??!!
Now I have to make a decision amoung these choices.
Woah, hugeee man.
I need time. *sigh*
Ok, off with emo stuff.
Let me update u on saturday! Today.
Went to JB with my family.
I love family days.
I am a super family oriented girl, alright?!
Before heading to JB, went to compass point.
Buy toto and world cup matches.
And I saw the water bottle I like gg for $11~~ WAAA.
I like! (Y)
So, today was the first time I went JB.
Went to the causeway link, drive there..
Went to a market place for lunch; super yummeh!
The crayfish there is , like 2 or 3 times bigger than Singapore's.
yet so much cheaper.
Singapore; NO QC!!
After that, headed to a plaza.
Cant remember the name, went shopping!
hahah.
But the prices of the things in JB is almost the same as Singapore.
Sometimes, much more expensive.
not worth.
But bought a lil something.
Gotten myself fake nails, makeup and a hair clip!
Plus, I bought discs! :D
Gossip Girls, ahah!
Well, then had dinner at the Jap restaurant.
HORRIBLE FOOD; I tell you.
Damn gross.
After that, go home..
So now I am here blogging, and I have found out that;
the command of my english language has dropped drastically.
I am not speaking properly english.
Let alone type it.
Urgh, time to cut down on nonsense!
Another few points I want to make!
- Facebook sucks; keep having weird problems.
Such as telling me people commented on my status.
And when I check, all the comments are gone!
(Even previous comments from others!)
-Tumblr is an awesome and cheap therapist!
Love the quotes and pictures.
-I have a USB internet thingy from SIngtel.
Love it to bitssss.
- I thought of you alot, but I covered u with other stuff.
Sigh, I miss you. But its alright. :D
I am ok!
- I am dead tired, nights!
I will still like u! (I DONT KNOW!)
Especially the state of my mind.
After reading through my friend's blogs, I have realised.
How I pale in comparison to them.
Especially with my recent emo postings.
Argh, even reading my post makes me feel horrible.
I will try to cut down on those!
So, here comes the updates.
On Thursday night, I had a nice surprise from a best friend of mine.
(Actually, more of a friday morning.)
Grace called me!
I didnt know she called me though,
till I went to my room to take something.
And I saw, a missed call!
Apparently, I get worried if a best friend calls me late at night.
As, she doesnt do that at all.
Ok, who in the right mind will call someone in wee morning.
Unless something happened, right?
So I immediately called her back; (it was around 1am+)
And; guess what..?
What she did was endearing!
She asked what happened to me,
as her (neglected) twitter was filled with emo-ness from me.
And we talked for around 15minutes plus.
That 15minutes ; was precious..
I thank her, because she called as she was worried about me.
I was really touched.
Thanks gal, thank u!
I love u alotttt! ok?~!
Like what you said, i am just a few missed calls away. :P
But beside her, there are many people who were concerned about me.
Especially with my shaky psychological state.
My friends from my class were heartwarming, as usual.
My friends from other classes too.
Even friends whom I didnt meet; comforted me.
Thank you!!
So, that was friday wee morning.
As for the rest of the day, at 8am.
Singapore once again had lots of rain.
I heard the rain pelting on my windows, so I decided to snooze my alarm.
And go back to sleep.
Weird, I woke up at 10:45 because I needed to pee.
And the sky lightened,but there was still rain.
So, I washed up and changed my clothes.
because eileen texted me. heee.
So i went for school.
reached school at 12 plus.
did some work, had ban mian for lunch.
and ohyea! eileen..
I owe u money!
I realised I was broke when I opened my wallet.
really, I am broke.
not even a coin!
Spendthrift.
Had lunch, and well..
Presentation for 3 teams were pretty fast.
JB helped me to tell facci, that i did work and etc.
Thanks dude!
After 6P,go through UT answers.
Sighh, I hope I dont get another D!
PLEASE! NO!
Then end of lesson..
Talked to friends on MSN.
Suddenly, my hand started itching.
Draw on the board and I thought of an idea.
Play HANGMAN!
My favourite game. hahah!
And the class, I mean (remaining) classmates;
were pretty enthusiastic! haha.
I really had so much fun!
thanks guys. (:
Lol, I kinda remembered the scores.
CK - 2
Yenfi - 2
Wan - 1
Amanda - 1
Eileen - 1
I think thats all? hahah.
Ok, actually..
During the game I screwed up.
gave wrong descript for 'Prodigy'.. LOL
Haaa, had so much fun.
Thanks to amanda too.
she stayed back. (:
So, walked to interchange with the usual gang.
And we were talking; me and amanda were.
I said about nate and etc.
Cos I admitted, I told another person.
because i needed someone who can see whats going on..
And tell me what to do.
*sigh*
Then ziheng and amanda said; it was a wrong move.
because, I will just make it harder for me to forget.
BLEAH!
But so far; the responses I have gotten are pretty wide ranged;
- Dont give up, fight for it.
- Forget him, he maybe playing arounf
- Forget him unless u are really serious abt it.
- Dont give up, unless hes taken.
Sigh, how?!
You tell me how??!!
Now I have to make a decision amoung these choices.
Woah, hugeee man.
I need time. *sigh*
Ok, off with emo stuff.
Let me update u on saturday! Today.
Went to JB with my family.
I love family days.
I am a super family oriented girl, alright?!
Before heading to JB, went to compass point.
Buy toto and world cup matches.
And I saw the water bottle I like gg for $11~~ WAAA.
I like! (Y)
So, today was the first time I went JB.
Went to the causeway link, drive there..
Went to a market place for lunch; super yummeh!
The crayfish there is , like 2 or 3 times bigger than Singapore's.
yet so much cheaper.
Singapore; NO QC!!
After that, headed to a plaza.
Cant remember the name, went shopping!
hahah.
But the prices of the things in JB is almost the same as Singapore.
Sometimes, much more expensive.
not worth.
But bought a lil something.
Gotten myself fake nails, makeup and a hair clip!
Plus, I bought discs! :D
Gossip Girls, ahah!
Well, then had dinner at the Jap restaurant.
HORRIBLE FOOD; I tell you.
Damn gross.
After that, go home..
So now I am here blogging, and I have found out that;
the command of my english language has dropped drastically.
I am not speaking properly english.
Let alone type it.
Urgh, time to cut down on nonsense!
Another few points I want to make!
- Facebook sucks; keep having weird problems.
Such as telling me people commented on my status.
And when I check, all the comments are gone!
(Even previous comments from others!)
-Tumblr is an awesome and cheap therapist!
Love the quotes and pictures.
-I have a USB internet thingy from SIngtel.
Love it to bitssss.
- I thought of you alot, but I covered u with other stuff.
Sigh, I miss you. But its alright. :D
I am ok!
- I am dead tired, nights!
I will still like u! (I DONT KNOW!)
Labels: boys, but i love u.., friends, my day, shopping, tumblr, XOXO
words spilled @ 6/27/2010 02:37:00 AM /
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»Let go.
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
*PALM-SLAP*"It's Wednesday, and Hoooo; SCREW BODYNITS."
I am late for office again. AS USUAL.
Anyway, I need to start being punctual for class now.
My grades sucks badly.
Damn, everything is in chaos.
For Bodynits, VSM to be submitted in a week.
Si liao Si liao.
UT grades sucks too.
2 D+ ; wa! BEST.
How to go Uni?
Private uni also cannot make it.
How? Now already week 8 of Sem 1.
I dont have much time to buck up.
And the bad thing, is that QC is going to be in the hands of some new guy.
How?!
Good teacher = i score badly.
Bad teacher = can jump down.
Siao.
So, I was suggesting to Amanda.
Need to study with her frequently, and i told her about his grades.
So, she was like ; "You go study with him la!"
Wow, funny.
I am always jumpy when he is around,
Its impossible for me to study with him.
I go into a spasm mode when he is near.
I cant be myself, its that bad!
Bleah, I really hope time slow down.
Because i dont know what am I even doing.
I need to sort everything in order and make it right.
Just like in lean process.
Hwaiting, eunice.
Jiayou.
I was pretty messed up yesterday night.
Was procrastinating because I did not know how to do my RJ.
And my internet is even more messed up.
_|_
Shiok, right?!
I was also wanting to talk to him.
but I didnt want to be a nuisance with the signing in and out.
bloody annoying.
So, I decided to appear offline.
sad ttm.
whats even more sad, i know he's talking to other girls.
ok la, im super possesive! I admit!
Oh well, I just 'sian off' when he talks to other girls.
Its not good, so unhealthy for me.
Anyway, I am really glad.
I have talked to siyun today, and well..
The atmosphere was good, it wasnt hostile.
I really like that feeling.
Probably, I have stopped being mean.
- PROBABLY ONLY, OK?! -
I cannot promise my horrible mouth wont say anything.
But I really kinda like her, better than previously.
So, I had a great day today! (:
I have talked to siyun and I managed to get approval
or acknowledgment from michael and serene.
phew..
I am sooo happy when we left the company.
- glows -
So, brought ammy to buy pancakes.
durian pancakes, and dinner.
So, I just finished dinner and bathed.
Now i am chatting online.
But my internet keeps crashing.
it sucks so badly.
bleahh!
Its worse than Bodynits internet!
My house internet really stinks.
And well, daddy changed the plan to Singtel.
Bro said the speed would be slower.
*cries*
Sian, now..
I again dc-ed from the net.
How awesome.
I cant talk to people in peace without interrupting their chats.
With that status thing.
So horrible.
Starhub, can go fuck urself!
Anyway, I am happy when I talk to him.
But I am no longer as ecstatic as I was previously.
Now, my heart leaps a little when he talks to me online.
Its always a nice surprise to see his chat window there.
I likeeee.
Ok, for the next few para..
You can skip, cos it would be a bit gross to handle.
What I want to say is, I keep thinking..
What will happen if we really get together.
I think of the things we could do.
haha.
But sadly, when I think about it.
I dont want it to happen.
but when I get bored, I will want it to happen.
So horrible. T---T
I like you, but I may just kill you once again.
haaaa.
Ok la, I see whether can I log into MSN or not.
if not, I go sleep! :D
byessss. (;
Labels: boys, but i love u.., friends, fyp, nate, work
words spilled @ 6/23/2010 10:23:00 AM /
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»Friendship & Petal of the sakura
Monday, June 14, 2010
"I can see our bonds thinning.."
No, this isnt a story. lol!
But well, I think maybe getting sick has made me got a little bolder.
Also, the fact of the people in this issue do not read my blog.
I guess, well..
from my previous post, i kinda have some problems with siyun.
yesyes, no.
We didnt clarify the problem.
Well, my FYP team mates said that its best not to.
I have already came clean with her on my blog.
So it does not matter anymore, right?
I do not really bother with how she looks at me.
It does not matter.
And if i mentioned in my past previous posts.
You may know, the group consisted of 3.
Siyun, Amanda & Me.
Pretty much, after siyun dated hafiz.
Amanda & I were close.
I thought we were.
Hahah, I always tend to assume my friendship is stable.
But well, and the sad truth is.
We aren't.
I can say that she's a really really good friend of mine.
But not to the extent, where we became bffs.
Naw, bffs do not exist anymore.
It's such a 'superficial' term.
I have awesome best friends.
No, I dont dare to put bffs.
Because, I know forever is kinda unrealistic now.
So, yea.. It sucks.
But nonetheless, I love my friends.
Back to the topic, of me and amanda.
Maybe, we are just making use of each other when we are alone.
Or maybe, me, eunice cheung is going into another phase..
The jealousy phase.. maybe..
will explain why, later..
Why making use of each other..?
Amanda had siyun previously, and well..
Listening to how they talk, they are very close.
And sadly, all my buds are not in RP!
They are out in other schools or having attachment,
So, I sticked with them.
So, after siyun and hafiz got on.
I was always with amanda.
I am happy she;s there, cos I have company.
And well, maybe I was a company to her as well.
When i needed advice, she was there too.
So it was really cool.
But well, recently..
Air cleared between them.
I wont say that I am utterly pleased.
(I am a person who's pretty much territorial of my friends, HAAA.
Bet you didnt know that..)
Cos I get miffed when my friends are 'stolen' from me.
But yeaa, siyun needs her fair share of buddies too.
Since everything is all about hafiz.
And she doesnt have gfs.
lol, im really bitchy at times.
like, when she's with hafiz.
Amanda and I would talk animatedly about them.
I know, I am horrible.
But I cant help it.
I was trying the "want this? then leave hafiz for a moment to join us." tactic.
Didnt work, I guess.
It backfired.
So now, amanda is close with siyun.
And well, I must be a little less selfish.
Cos, afterall she and siyun were pretty much close during year 2.
I shall not be jealous and mean.
Ok, why the title..
It because, I just felt jealous and I find that we were just using each other..
I dont need a full time best friend, but I just want you when I need you.
wtf am i even saying.
and as for nate..
Boy, i like you alot.
and i have kinda suspected whose your ex-girlfriend.
i was wrong for the 1st guess, hope I am wrong for the 2nd too.
but well, she fits ur criteria..
i think.
And ahhh,I read up a quote..
"Dont say I have changed. All I did was to find myself"
Well, everytime I will go..
"Ohh, you changed. and i find that we dont match as friends.."
But now, I cant say that.
Cos, well..
You are once my closest friend.
But now, you are another.
I love you still.
I have to admit, not as much when we were kids.
But sometimes I wonder..
Is it because of me?
Maybe everything started because of me.
I cant handle stuff properly.
I really need someone to guide me.
And I wonder where is that person..
GOSH..
my life is really fucked up by my own hands.
I really want to make everything right now.
Be as hardworking as Amanda..
Be as strong mentally, like you..
I just want to grow up and be more sensible.
Maybe the heavens have already gave up on me.
The fail blog eunice.. ):
OHSHITTT, it sucks..
Labels: boys, FAIL, friends issues, problems, school
words spilled @ 6/14/2010 04:56:00 PM /
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»You are my pretty boy
Monday, June 07, 2010
YOOO!
Ok, so recently..
I have started a fic. LOL!
And its pretty much; yea..
About Nate!
Amanda read it today, so i recieved pretty crazy comments.
She said I was mad.
No, i am not.
I have been like that since secondary school.
Writing fics is my hobby.
And well, since I have been madly thinking about him..
I started a fic.
Cos I kinda know, once I start writing what I want in the fic.
I dont crave for it anymore!
Yes, I am not craving for it sooo badly now.
Actually, its funny to say.
I always have this mindset.
'Once written, it never happens. Because it's fiction.'
And why am i posting now?
Because suddenly, im not shivering with excitement when im talking to him.
Maybe my crush is over.
lol, fast eh..?
I am not a flirt, cos we have never started!~
Maybe i am saying this right now, but i may be another in the next.
haha, maybe?
Alright, time to get back to business.
Really need to pia for fyp alr.
*sigh*JIAYOU! :D
i dont wanna lose nor score badly..
Labels: boys, its over, jiayou
words spilled @ 6/07/2010 11:13:00 PM /
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»OFF AND AWAY
Sunday, May 30, 2010
"Take that, Bitch!"
Holidays are here.
and screw my holidays with FYP.
why in the world am i supposed to be attached to Bodynits?
really, i dont appreciate being in there.
do nothing.
watch people walk around.
sleep in staircase.
hello? what u freaking want me to do?!!
that is so BORING.
cant i just go school fror a few hours.
and pop back home?
why am i asked to go atw to expo.
wtffff.
FML; totally.
never mind, screw u fyp.
fuck u to the deepest pits of hell.
and my advisor; is not helping.
other team advisor damn chiong (ok; he is a fucking chionger)
u just be nice and do nothing. *CLAPS*
urgh.
well.. im in a new semester. (YEAR3SEM1)
meet familiar people, new people.
some people, really damn irritating.
and pain in the ass.
some are nice; actually most are.
my grades are f-up.
want get A; equivalent must chop head.
damn diff.
UT is alright.
friends are alright.
I just dont know are we still as close or what.
but nvm.
and me; yea.
always BOY problems.
but never mind again.
am resisting to see his fb page .
MENTAL RESISTANCE.
and yea, my life.
my hols are gone.
im gonna skip fyp
hellyeah.
Labels: aspects of my life, boys, day in school
words spilled @ 5/30/2010 03:37:00 PM /
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»shake it like that!
Sunday, October 11, 2009
" baby, save me from Superman. "
I am going really mad.
I think i am just purely wasting time.
*sighs*
I don't know, but I just dont feel as happy in this class.
Maybe it's the same for before.
But now, it just makes me so uncomfortable to be in this class.
So many people, I have yet to know.
and horrible ammy is crushing on wonderboy.
tsk!~
(dont worry,i will check whether is he attached or not.)
:D
Also, my tail was stepped by someone I DREAD working with.
gosh, i thought she was NICE!
damnit, seriously.
she just deserve a slap on her face.
I have to face this person for 5 weeks?!
Can u believe it?!
damn damn damn.
(i have to work with her tomorrow.)
-_-
Let me tell you.
I have a sense of foreboding of the facci;
Operations Planning (2).
That @#$%;
zomg.
he nags like nobody BLOODY business sia!
like recorder.
go on and on and on.
WORST facci I have seen ever.
I don't ever wanna see him again!
Even our ECD facci was BETTER than him.
I miss that facci sia, even though he PMSes.
But that was on FRIDAY.
I had better of things on Saturday though.
Met up with my girlfriends!~~
Sam and Grace.
Went to ion, then had lunch at CEDELE.
So first, we went shopping.
Sam got her tights at Topshop.
Grace got her belt at Uniqlo, same for Sam.
After that, we went to Cedele at Wheelock.
But before that, both sam and grace changed into their new stuff.
I waited outside.
(Surprisingly, i bought NOTHING at all!~)
Ordered the same thing; Apple Cinammon pancake with sausages!
Maybe Cedele can get my orders without asking me again.
I am totally ADDICTED to the pancakes!~
Sam and Grace ordered pastas.
The pastas tasted AWESOME!~
:D
My pancakes
Wholegrain chicken pasta
Sam's pasta!~
yummy!~~
After that, we went to mariott Hotel to get Angie's SIM card.
Her friend works as a waitress at Mariott Banquet.
and..
I think I saw a prince there!!~
Lol, ok im exaggerating.
The guy looks cute, he was the realtive of either the bride or bridegroom.
Dress in all white.
Total perfection. (:
He was just lack of a horse and a carriage;
if not, i would have threw him my sneakers at 12am.
and prolly put my number there. xD
let the prince find cinderella.
(Throws up)
haha, sorry about that.
*wipes drool off her mouth*
I am dreaming.
After collecting the card, we walked back to ION.
And I was lamenting on going back to Mariott. D:
Went to the toilet to take some pictures.
After a day's gathering, Sam left for harbourfront to partayyy.
I wish i can go clubbing too!
Whereas I headed for Grace house.
At grace's house, I recieved the best girlfriend session.
had my nails done and eyebrow plucked.
it hurts, but thanks alot girl!~
(:
I really appreciate it as no one ever did it for me.
*hugs grace*
Let alone touch my oily face. haha.
I went home at 10:40pm.
Only to reach at 11plus.
Slept at 4 plus watching
光陰的故事
This show, is AWESOME!~I really just love Sun Yi Mei.
Her character is adorable to the max.
Not forgetting, Xu Yi Yuan.
Yi mei's boyfriend.
SO darn handsome.
This show robbed me of my tears and laughter.
a worth to watch! :D
Tender Huang (Huang Teng Hao)
who is acting as Xu Yi Yuan.
This guy, is a plus in my 'OMG,i want this boy!' list.
haha. xD
cute and he's a hairdresser.
too bad, he's too thin. D:
Ohwell, pretty boy.
(:
Anyway, I have seen clues that 2PM are leaving for hottest.
You want 7,right?
We will fight for it. (:
2PM = 7 =1
Urgh, I woke at 3 on sunday.
didnt go out at all.
watching the show again.
haha.
byebye!~
WAIT, i forget tos say.
I WANT TO GO BANGKOK'S CHATUCHAK!
yay!!!
Labels: 2PM, bangkok, boys, girlfriends, shopping, 光陰的故事
words spilled @ 10/11/2009 09:10:00 PM /
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»350. Nice..
Thursday, April 23, 2009
"Diva,diva, d-d-d-diva!"
im not promoting Diva.
(even though i love their accesories)
its just a song by After School.
Nice song. (:
Aneeeway..
im not asleep because im watching 2PM's army idol.
hahah.
its hilarious.
Im re-watching it again.
rofls.
Let the videos talk for me..
and like me, you will fall for their unique charms.
BUT LEMME WARN YOU.
dont touch all 7 of them.
hahah. xPP
they are MINE.
each and special.
(:
ADORABLE-ness.
Okla,enough of BS.
Idol army!!
Episode 10 & 11.
Links!
Episode 10 part 3/4 (SUBBED)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FhlIoXYatfA
Episode 10 4/4(SUBBED)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uAUPjkvQBd4
Episode 11 1/5 (SUBBED)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W67x_AmB4_E
'Let's sleep here tonight,2PM'
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fDn6mIceB0k
will update abt the vids.
just watch!
haha.
2PM saranghae!
and omg, LOVE TAECYEON!..
he's soooo adorable..
ottukae. -_-
-------------Update on 24th April---------------
Ok, so what are all the vids abt..?
Idol army i hosted by Boom.
And there is this segment (i think),
called "Here She Comes".
Where a certain girl group OR guys group
comes to the show.
And these girls/guys are paired up with 2PM.
Normally, for the girls,like Kara or After School.
Which has 5 girls, will pair with 5 boys.
Then as for the remaining 2 boys will pair up.
The result is HILARIOUS!..
serious, no joke.
So they go through this 'pick ur mate' thing.
Where the boys flaunt their skills to win hearts.
Then after these, they do the selection.
While the remaining 2 guys whine and complain.
haha (this is very funny)
The games will start after the pairing.
With different games each episode.
The games are normally the ones that makes me crack up.
Because the boys reactions are really funny.
Be it shocked or watsoever.
its just plain hilarious.
After the games, there will be elimination rounds.
And those eliminiated, gets the 'privilege' of
wearing a furry angel halo hairband.
And during elimination, u can see the boys protesting.
One of the fav is Jaebum saying..
"This is a plot! This is a conspiracy!"
And once,
Boom tried saying 'conspiracy' in english.
And the results were Hilarious
As for let's sleep here tonight,
I have only seen 2 parts.
the other parts,cannot find.
-___-
Will find it later, during ppl presentation.
hahah.
Well, the show is like..
4 ahjummas go to 2PM house.
raid their house and see around.
And its SOOO cute!
Very funny.
And one point,
i dunno why i feel so weird/embarassed,
when i see them behaving so weirdly in front of 2PM.
haha, i just feel so paiseh.
* -___- *
----End of update---
Rushing to meet Yenxi for lunch, tatas! (:
im not promoting Diva.
(even though i love their accesories)
its just a song by After School.
Nice song. (:
Aneeeway..
im not asleep because im watching 2PM's army idol.
hahah.
its hilarious.
Im re-watching it again.
rofls.
Let the videos talk for me..
and like me, you will fall for their unique charms.
BUT LEMME WARN YOU.
dont touch all 7 of them.
hahah. xPP
they are MINE.
each and special.
(:
ADORABLE-ness.
Okla,enough of BS.
Idol army!!
Episode 10 & 11.
Links!
Episode 10 part 3/4 (SUBBED)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FhlIoXYatfA
Episode 10 4/4(SUBBED)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uAUPjkvQBd4
Episode 11 1/5 (SUBBED)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W67x_AmB4_E
'Let's sleep here tonight,2PM'
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fDn6mIceB0k
will update abt the vids.
just watch!
haha.
2PM saranghae!
and omg, LOVE TAECYEON!..
he's soooo adorable..
ottukae. -_-
-------------Update on 24th April---------------
Ok, so what are all the vids abt..?
Idol army i hosted by Boom.
And there is this segment (i think),
called "Here She Comes".
Where a certain girl group OR guys group
comes to the show.
And these girls/guys are paired up with 2PM.
Normally, for the girls,like Kara or After School.
Which has 5 girls, will pair with 5 boys.
Then as for the remaining 2 boys will pair up.
The result is HILARIOUS!..
serious, no joke.
So they go through this 'pick ur mate' thing.
Where the boys flaunt their skills to win hearts.
Then after these, they do the selection.
While the remaining 2 guys whine and complain.
haha (this is very funny)
The games will start after the pairing.
With different games each episode.
The games are normally the ones that makes me crack up.
Because the boys reactions are really funny.
Be it shocked or watsoever.
its just plain hilarious.
After the games, there will be elimination rounds.
And those eliminiated, gets the 'privilege' of
wearing a furry angel halo hairband.
And during elimination, u can see the boys protesting.
One of the fav is Jaebum saying..
"This is a plot! This is a conspiracy!"
And once,
Boom tried saying 'conspiracy' in english.
And the results were Hilarious
As for let's sleep here tonight,
I have only seen 2 parts.
the other parts,cannot find.
-___-
Will find it later, during ppl presentation.
hahah.
Well, the show is like..
4 ahjummas go to 2PM house.
raid their house and see around.
And its SOOO cute!
Very funny.
And one point,
i dunno why i feel so weird/embarassed,
when i see them behaving so weirdly in front of 2PM.
haha, i just feel so paiseh.
* -___- *
----End of update---
Rushing to meet Yenxi for lunch, tatas! (:
Labels: 2PM, boys, saranghae 2PM oppa
words spilled @ 4/23/2009 11:31:00 PM /
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»cravings for pretty boys. (:
"hoping i can just touch you face,my dear..
but i just cant..."
One of my favourite dance move in 10 out of 10.
MADNESS
thats what i call myself when i see korean boys..!
xD
i almost lost it in class.
2PM is just too desirable.
Seriously!
OMG.
i regret not screaming and booking a taxi to chase them last year!
damnit.
Tuu-peee-amp
Jaebum,Taecyeon,Chansung,Junsu,Wooyoung,Nickhun,Junho.
AWESOME is how u describe these boys.
Credits to Alex who intro-ed me every1 idol.
hhoho.
I thought 2PM wasn't fun.
But!
After watching all these videos just makes me love them.
No joke.
Chansung is extremely playful.
Taecyeon is an American mouse.
Jaebum is from Seattle.
Nickhun is an extremely adorable boy.
Junho (look alike rain) is a superb dancer.
Wooyoung has not kissed once.
Junsu likes Taemin from SHINee.
HAHA, adorable right..?!
im in love with them alr.
Ohnooo.
Where my Big Bang has gone..
For now, im 51% 2PM & 49% Big Bang.
Haha,after all I did see 2PM with my OWN eyes.
Oppa, saranghae!
2PM.
Enough of this fan-girling.
Well,I have spotted this lookalike, Kim Hyung-joon in my class!
Amazing..?
Ok la, im not VERY sure.
But he looks like TO me.
haha.
Ohmygod.
x _ x
COFFEE can keep me awake.
(:
Now presentation.
Very very bored.
Anyway, this is the link on 2PM.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/2PM
Well, im off to watch every1 idol, AGAIN.
haha.
weee!~
Labels: 2PM, blogging, boys, this is my friggin classroom life
words spilled @ 4/23/2009 11:01:00 AM /
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