"Let me run,let me cry.
Don't ask why..
Hug me tight when i need it.."
*SCREAMS

im tired,sad and empty.
emo-ing agn.

these mixed feelings came pouring back to me,
while flashbacks trudged back to me like soldiers;injured.
this few days tired me out.

im tired now,like i was asked to run arnd..
these feelings in me..are weird.
i cant express it,neither can i say it out..

their weary faces passed me,i felt a panged of guilt now.

tell me..
who are those people..
trying to hurt me..?
can someone tell me..?
can someone just hold my hands and tell me that im safe..?
please..
dont make this world so complicated..
tell me those people are true to me..
please..

tauntings..
are enough...
i had enough...
your mask hide the deep animosity towards me.
take it off now,
and leave my world..
go away..

ur cruel words seem so pleasant,
so entertaining..
its draining me..
i cant hold on..
i cant have faith in such a person like you.

GO AWAY,GET OUT OF MY LIFE.

"all you can blame..is you.."
tell me..
why do you have to smile at me..?
please..
stay away from me..
if you want to hurt me..go..
just leave it..

"can i hurt you back..?"
i want to say that to you..
you made me bled..
i think..
u shall pay..
just leave me alone..

i'll drain those memories of you..
you're just a person who hurt me..
i shall forget about those happy moments i had with you.
i shall forget the way you smiled at me..
i shall forget how you taught me to hate a person.
i guess,
im tainted with you..
its too scary..

i will be what i am when i first met you.
i shall grit my teeth and bear my tears..
i have learnt my lessons..
those tears will no longer fall

i'll remember to smile at you..
but i will no longer allow myself to sink in too much.

i'll nt attach too much of you into me.
your corruption shall cease.

Others will teach me..
how to know such a person like you..
i shall recognize you one day.

AHHHHHHHHH!

sorry people..
im baccck! :D
the lil elephant is back!
*smiles brightly.

hmmphs..
this few days has been great.
except for some.
getting back that lousy results.
(dunworry!i'llworkhard&catchupwithuboth!)
being treated like a maid in my hse.
(that didnt sound like a good host,more like a great maid!)
and lastly,my earhole.
(it burned agn! hw nice.. :/)

first;
it was thurs.
(the stupid results day)
went to school,
actually wanted to attend poa,
but didnt.
too depressed.
ohwell,
mistakes.. LOADS mans..
But thank god..
there was someone who cheered me up,
thanks iris..
thank you so much.
*she can be a double faced,
for all i care; but she consoled me..
Always rmb to count my blessings!
i've met a person who stood by me when i cried!

aft emo-ing,
alwee abang kept making me laugh,
then aft much sitting dwn,
i went to play soccer.
lost fats agn!
i did a better kick this time round.. :F
didnt fall!

aft that,
headed to the arcade.
played daytona,
watched the guys play ID.
then..
ant went hme,got tuition.
we hanged arnd,
we decided to head to hougang mall.
me and fish ran like dunno wad.
we kept running till charm's hse.
then we saw a.. a...chicken.
yes,u saw it..
its a CHICKEN in the heartlands!
wow!!
interesting-ness.
when we asked those ppl to come
see the chicken,they went off to another direction.
dumbass. :P
alwee took the bus and went home..
*abang! hw can u!!??
we scared the chicken off while those 2 dumbo
crossed the bridge.
crossed the road and headed to whr hougang stadium is.
when we reached,
the 2 lightning dumbos ran very fast.
me & fish decided to take a shortcut.
we strolled.
*fish;i tot we'll get lost,but we didnt!
we even manage to be faster than them!
then both of us continued to walk,
then they came chasing us back.
And we took our revenge!
we slapped them..!
lols!
then boy gt *angry.
emo-ed off.
went to the Mini Toons,
strolled arnd.
till the library,
me & fish pretended to b pissed.
i wasnt quite the good actor.
so aft the game,i gave up.
aft fooling arnd,fish wanted to go to the playground.
so we headed to the playground.
sat there for quite sometimes. :D
then the details (too long so i wnt say)
he sent me home,i sent him to the bus stop.
ilovedit..
thankyou..
it was the day whr persuasion came in successfully!
yay! mission completa!

Then on friday,
those ppl came my hse.
pple;
sam,amanda,hailmi,alwee,neelam.
watched evan almighty.

met up with him to study an hr before they came.
we studied maths.
we still didnt manage to find the ans for that qns.
sat there, and talked.
found out shocking stuff.
but im nt gna say abt it.

there..
aft some time those ppl trudged to my hse.
those 2 ahsorhs very bigshot.
walk infront..
headed hme and prepared the vid.
but too bad..
aft 15min of fiddling the thing worked.
finally..
watched to movie,and laughed.
so funny.
ohyes,
SAM,CAN LEND ME THE DISC?..
aft that,
played burnout cos alwee kept whining.
played a few rnd of race.
won alwee! :PP
then gt into co.op crashbreaker.
i love this game.
first it was fish and me
agnst alwee and boy.
we lost thou.
then it was me and ant agnst them.
we won!
then switched to
me,ant and fish..
vs the boys.
we won..
did we..?
those guy kept getting heartbreaker.
divideneds.. LOL.
then me & uncle.
won those 2 guys la!
then my mum came home..
*my mum was nt feeling well that day.
greeted her,
and continued.
then abang went home with him.
wanted to.. but cant.
fish is a disruption!

we cntd to play.
we played Halo.
sam kept double-sixed me and amanda.
so friggin pissed sia..
then played arnd.
ohyes!
Fish was Yodler
Boy was Wiggly
Ant was Default
while i was Pirate
so funnie... :DDDDD
Aft yodler gt the 'ghost',she kept owning la.
Wiggly too..
me and amanda were like soo poor thing.
we were trying to figure out how to use the
car thingy..
lol,need cooperation sia!
but still kena owned
So we decided to change maps..
whr..
a rocket launcher is at arm reach..
kept owning them back!
amanda sticked to me! :D
lol
great!
we shall do it agn!!
WE SHALL! :DD

Had fun..
except being treated like a maid.
Hey! thanks for helping me out..
You are always there when i need you!
Ur my SuperMan!

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"Yaya! im treasuring you like no one is..
And i love you so.."

AHAHAH!
im being retarted agn.
*sighs; he didnt reply my 4 msgs?
i wonder whats wrong..

Possibilities
1.his mom either confiscated his phone
2.OR he was too tired and fell aslepp.
3.he hates me. D;
(i know im being stupid..)

just talked to mingyan,sam and farhan.
farhan sent me songs!
ohjeez,local talents existing in spore isnt that bad!
and the mingyan..
i shall name her the 'Tempter..'
she tempted me to buy the earrings.. D:
darn!
itchy fingers of mine.. :(
my wallet is gna burn,burn,burn..
Sam talked to me..
*sighs,i just love this fish and the antennae. :D

ohwell!
i shall begin my journey of the 3rd and 4th Sept (today).

3rd Sept 07
Met him up in sengkang..
Got him chocs.. :D
he looks really hawwt in jeans,i must say..!
went to heartland to look for alwee and sam..
the 2nd retard left to join his mum
fishy is lonely man,damn!
lol.
Gamed Intial D with sam.
I won..
as in thrashed her.
lols.. :PP

went to hougang mann with these peep.
took the bus there.. :D
went to eat Long John's Silver.
After getting pranked on,we headed up to the library.
Borrowed some books.
Sam got me some good books!
thanks gal!
after buying rubberbands from Helen.
we went home.

He sent me home..
took the bus home..
sent him home,by walking to the LRT.
*he held my hand tight.

reached home,
then bathed,
did my work and slept.
not exactly..
i finished my book..
the one i borrowed in 2 hrs.. :D
YAY!


The next day..
4th Sept 07
Woke up after my special morning call.
haha.
washed up,
ran arnd the hse,
packed up,left for the bus stop.
met him there.
*he's real sweet. :D

took bus to school,
went to lvl 2,
wanted to use the comp,
yet the comp didnt wna cooperate.. :(

went to find those peeps,
played soccer..
i kept being bullied,
as in they kept scoring on me..
i was sweating like a steaming pau..
after that,
headed to heartland to have lunch.
ate yoshi with angie and friends.
NPCC captain came..
(i dunno how to spell her name,so i skip)
we went off to find the guys..

then took bus to the playground agn!!
played arnd.
then we took the same ride,
this time i almost went sick.. :(

after fooling arnd,
they wanted to play basketball,
so i looked on.
alweee sat down and accompanied me.
talked abt stuff and listened to music.
thanks auel for ur company! :)

he and auel then fetched me home..
lol.
i was so happy.. :D
oh well,
now he repay me by nt replying my sms.. :F

ok then..
i shall stop,but..
a lil something for u ppl.

--------------------------------------------
Chap 2..
"Hey!! have u studied??" she patted playfully on his head.
He smiled and pulled her closer to him.
"Aissh..let go of me.." she said shyly.
He grinned and held her hands into his.
' i love you ' he mouthed the words causing her to blush.
"Go away! anyhow!!" she giggled and walked off,tugging her best friend along.

"Ahhh! why did she have to do that..?
why cant she walk alone and leave my girl alone..?" his friend commented frustratedly.
"haha.i dunno..?.." he grinned and suddenly his heart weighed heavy.

His mother words returned to him.
It hit him hard that he must tell her..
He must not let her suffer..

"heyhey!! u hor..anyhow leh!"
she whacked her friend playfully on the arms.
"you oso ma.. so mushy all that.." her friend teased her back.
"ahhh. no lo.. :P" she retaliated by pinching her friend's tummy.
"Oww! how can you!?" her friend chased her down the stairs.
"okok..stop,stop.. ..... Has he held your hands yet?" she eyed at her friend.
Trying to look for any clue of reaction.
"Ummm" her friend stammered..

'darn! why did she have to ask...' her friend thought as she felt her face burned.

"You did!? right?!" she exclaimed happily and hugged her friend tightly.
"im so happy for you!" she said after catching her breath from squealing.
"haha.thank you.. you too ma,you 2 progress until vry far.." her friend teased her.
"yea... but.." immeadiatly, her smile turned into a frown.
"Why?..what's wrong..?" her friend asked caringly.
"You see,i feel that he's hiding something from me.." she sulked as she thought.
"Oh..why not qns him.. as in lure him to tell u the ans.." her friend suggested slyly.
"Oh.. ok..." she thought it was a great idea.

'i must tell her..she must know..' he thought sadly.
'i must know! i'll find it out!' she thought energetically.


END.. : D
how was the chapter 2..?

Labels: SMILING for the 1stmonth.

its a lil small.
im sorry thou..
Got f-cked by my dad.
he scolded me,
which lead to malfunction of my little brains.

forfucksake,whycantheleavemealone?!
darnhim.

iloveyou,yeticanhateyoulikeSHIT!

darn!
the picture cant be uploaded.SHIT. D:
ohwell,
will post it next time.
shit this picture.

*sorry..
seriously,im really mad and hot headed now.
ahhh!!

"shit,i forgot!"

Ahhh..
On saturday,
went to the gym with fishy.
(i wonder how do fishes work out?)
ran the threadmill for 20mins.
shiokenism
*im losing fats,yo!

And..
i forgot one thing..
i made sam wait for me for 30 mins.
sorry. D:
ms.late queen apologise to fishy.

anyway,after running,
went to do some training on my arms and legs.. :D
tone myself up!

both elephants and fish walked to Hougang Mall.
Met the antennae.
*sighs,sometimes i really feel guilty for doing these to her.

Ate at Han's with them
Fats loss + Han's = Extra calo. D:
shyt. D:

after breakfast,headed to Challenger to see the thumbdrive,
amanda wants one. :D
after that,we walked arnd the mall.
Me and amanda bought shoelaces. :D
purple and black while amanda's is red and purple. :DD

went to ntuc to buy thing,
then we all walked to the bus stop.
amanda took the mrt,
while i took 62 home..

smsed them both and talked.
seriously,im beginning to feel clinged to them now.
they're special to me..

went home and rest..
i fell asleep thou..
went out in the noon,
went to Suntec;COMEX.
super squeezy la..
saw matthew there.. :D
Hi,Kor! :DD
he from selling cameras to selling laptops. lol!

went hime and rested.
was damn tired.
while he was out partying. :D
lol,partaye animal! :DD

currently listening to SNSD'S into the New World..
Seriously,i love Hyoyeon! she's hawwt ,man!
I wna do the dance move she did! :D
cmon,O's get over with it.
and back comes hiphop into my life agn!..

MY STORY BELOW.. : DDD
Enjoy!!

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"hey..i really love you.." she held his hand while walking to the bus stop.
"...." there were no replies.
"Chey..Cmon,just reply me..?" she lamented while shaking his hands.
"What's wrong..?" She stopped and asked when she saw the expression on his face.
"Nothing.." He grimaced,his grip tightened as they crossed the road.
"Are you sure..?" she quizzed while blinking her eyes.
"Yea.." he reached out to her hair and fuzzed it..
"hmmph! my hair's messy enough alr!" she giggled and threw his hand off her head.
"Its ok.. I just love the way you are.Silly and really chatty.." he smiled and held her hand into his.
"Seriously..ur acting really weird,you know..?" she looked at him while shuffling his hair.

'I just love how his hair manages to stay the same even how many times i mess it up!'
she thought happily to herself.

"Anyway..what are you planning to do after you go home..?" she flashed her smile, which made her eyes squint.
"I dunno..? probably,i'll bathe,go online and do my work..?" his reply was not in the usual way.
"HEY! you are hiding something from me!!" She stood up and stated her mind.
"I can feel it!! Girls have strong 6th sense!!" she blabbered before he opened his mouth.
"Relax..it's really nothing.." He lied and reassured her.

'Sigh,Should i say..?..sighs..' he thought gloomily.

"Really...??" she stressed and moved his face towards her.
"Look into MY EYES! i wna seek the truth...!" she stared into his eyes sternly.
"Hahah.." he looked away as he was afraid that she would see that he was lying..
"Why did you turn away!" she barked and slapped his hands.
"You look very..cute when you do that.." he forced a laugh.
"You're lying..! I know.. :( I..wna.." before she completed her sentence,he stood up.
"There's my bus..Bye.. :) " he smiled sadly and walked off to board the bus.
"Off you go now! Go home.." he waved at her to go home and smiled.

After her shadow left,his bus started moving.
There he was.. thinking what his mother said previously..

"I' VE TOLD YOU! NOT TO GET INTO RELATIONSHIP!"
his mother barked at him angrily,while he remained silent.
"YOUR SUPPOSED TO FOCUS ON YOUR STUDIES NOT ON GIRLS!"
his mother cried angrily as she paced around.
"Relax..relax..he's still a young man.. Young man makes mistakes.."

'Ah..there he goes again..Sighs..Why did ma know bout this..?'
he thought and sighed tiredly.

"I CAN'T BELIEVE HE IS DOING THIS TO ME!?"
his mother cried hoarsely while sitting in the living room.
"IF I HAVE NOT STEPPED OUT OF THE HOUSE, I WOULD HAVE BEEN KEPT IN THE DARK..HOW LONG YOU WANT TO KEEP THIS FROM ME?!"
his mother screamed depressingly.
"Ma..please dont get too angry.. Its not good for your health..."
his elder sister cooed while trying to calm her down.

After getting scolded and left without dinner to eat,
he went to his room.
Saw his handphone flashing..
'Its her agn,the silly girl..' he sighed and unknowingly, his tears fell.
His tears did not fall when his mother punished him..
But yet, a cheery msg from her made him breakdown.

Those flashback came back..
He looked out and thought of the days he spent with her.
He thought of her laughter and smile..
Then he thought..
'why did this happen...?'
he let out a deep breath and burrowed his face into his hands..

'How am i going to break this news to her..?
Neither do i want to hear her cry or hurt her in any other ways...'
He thought and shook his head sadly.

Why God..? Why did you make this happen..? Why is she gonna suffer along with me..?

To be continued...

-----s a r a n g h a e ; i l u------

hahah!
This story is just a lil sneak peek!
Im so back into writing stories.. :D
After the O's time to scribble!!
SMILE & ENJOY.
jeez,its gna be 4am soon.
If you ever see this,
you wont believe im gna have my O's this Oct.. :/

Dance Floor Anthem;
baby,that's MUSIC!

Labels: Chapt 1

"nothing beats love and friendship"

ohhwell..
another day..
work work..
*lol. WoW. ^^"

hmms..
i have nothing to talk abt..
ok then,
shall talk bout our plans..
No,my plans..

On Monday:
Study at home..

On Tuesday:
Go school, finish my F&N.
Come my hse or Go sam hse to watch movie.
Par torh.. :DD

On Wednesday:
Get class tshirt fixed..

On Thursday:
Study at home..
Then ask zhenling out?

Friday:
Study at home..
Meet him..

Saturday:
Tuition..

Sunday:
The BIG 4 meeting.
:D
ladies time out!
guys;u may start gossiping too. :)

ohwell.
thats all.

im so into Sean Kingston's Beautiful Girls.. :D

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