miffy euniced

HELLO?!
like what the banana milk is going on?!!!
its mean to make use of banana milk to replace a bad bad word.

i know its a bad habit to rant where your unhappy.
Esp on the blogs my friends read..
but!!
i really need to spill these bad things out.

I cant believe im turning 19 soon on the 25th!~
yay!!
ok, im slight happier right now.
haha.

my brother kinda comforted me a lil.

but waiiiit!
its time for u to watch what u do, missy/mister.
*does KARA's 'Mister' dance*

Oops.
hehehe.
anyway, nothing defers me from getting snappy.
i've been snapped at once for pissin people off.
but ohwell.
Apparently, we didnt have any fate to be friends.
whatever.
tsssssk.

So,I am it again!
But let me say clearly.
I dont care what are you going to portray me as to your friends.
Because apparently, you have no longer treated me like one.
I admit, I feel sad and its a waste.
But to hell with it.

I always try to be nice.
Ok, I am not very nice all the time.
I am not your pretentious BFF.
But I do have BBF.
big bitch fit.

- what the hell am i talking?! -
tsk.
loco me.
-_-

Anyway, I love Da Endorphine's 'Dai Yin Mai'
Hell, i love this song.
Ohya, its not korean.
It's thai.
lol!

but hey, its hella nice.
im in love with the singer's voice

Ok, lemme intro a phone im tempted to get.
even though its specs doesnt meet my requirements. ):



but hell,cute right?
its previous sibling LOLLIPOP.
Yes, the one BB and 2Ne1 endorsed in 2009.
it is OUT in Singapore.
as expected, the specs is disappointing. ):

Sigh, i guess I require Sony Ericsson better.
haha.
Camera function and etc.
Love yeahhh.

And I think I cant remeber about my rants.
tatas!~ :D

(that dont mean i am NOT angry!)

"I really need a heartwarming hug and some soothing words.."

I am feeling terrible.
Emotional repercussions, I mean..

My presence is getting dimmed each time I appear.
Soon, I will become invisible in people's eyes.
I am thankful to my family for being able to 'see' me.

Sometimes, I dont feel I am there at all.
I just want to find a space alone and sit there.
If I dont need to talk.
I wont..

So, it wont be so uncomfortable.
Not for you or me.

I am being judged.
Everyone apparently has their score book ready in their hands.
Ready to strike off marks when I make a fool of myself.

I dont care what outside think of me.
But I just feel so scared and timid that I am judged over and over again.
I am going to disappear.

Another obstacle..
Another fearful time..

"Oh, oh, oh, 오빠를 사랑해 Ah, ah, ah, ah, 많이 많이 해!~ ♥"

♥JJANG, isn't it.
Definitely loving SNSD's new hit; Oh!
TAEBUUUU!~

Taeyeon looks amazing!~
keke, our Jelly.
Just went to register for a Soshified account.
I love them, awesome!

And SHINee, haah.
Dont talk about it.
Spent $30 for a maxi cab ride..
Nothing seen.
Sad,isn't it?
Also, I hurt my knees.
I have a horrible bruise on my kneecaps now.
Pssh!

Bleah, compared to others.
They dont ecven spend a cent.
They got to see Minho, TaeMin & Key.
Minho ever waved, shit right?
Injustice or just NO fate.
lol.

I hope I can send them off at the airport.
*Prays*
Hope my FYP thing dont clash!
Pleaseeee!!

Well, if SHINee is coming..
I am going to buy the tix.
Whatever, i wanna see them! (:

Love these boys to miss out on them.
Next time, really book maxi with loads of people!!
Cheaper. keke.

Ohwell, gotta sleep.
Anyway, today was the last lesson for Facilities Planning
*tears*
So sad!

Tomorrow, Manufacturing's last lesson too.
So on and so forth..
Ok, I am sleepy and am awaiting for Hello Baby S2. Ep3!~ :D
Also, MBLAQ Idol Army subbed!~

lol, but exams. T_T
nevermind, after exams!!

PS; i heard Yoogeun came here with SHINee to Singapore.
To film Hello baby!~
I wonder is this true??

:D

OHKAY!
GOODNIGHTS, lovelies!~!
And, today was the start of SHINee's perf!~
Wonder what did they sing.. ♥

DYNAMITE; explode

ohshit, seriously.
Like even though I may have a horrible temper at times.
Yes, I admit.
I can be a big bitch and screw people around.

But I would always try to hold my tongue on my friends.
Like I wont flare up with my friend unless im pissed.
Pissed definition : fucking angry.

I will also try to avoid using sensitive words.
But sometime they just piss me off.
Like with stupid stuff..
So, I still can get a lil snappy and mean.
lol.

So..
after beating around the bush..
I shall reveal.
I am here; because i want to RANT!

Ok, so...
What ticks me off..
You ask me to choose the thing I deem fit.

SPASMS

i know i know i know..
FT Island came today,rights??
and shit, i didnt go..

But; to my surprise..
Van's friend went.
But apparently FT went by the backdoor.
Boohoo.

That stinks. ):

But fret not!
Tomorrow is..
SHINee!~

RING DING DONG YO!

Honestly, I am just so HAPPY to see korean stars in Singapore.
Previously, when I was in Sec 2..
I always lament why Singapore is so deprived of KPOP.

Well, at that time..
I was going crazy for Super Junior.
Yes, to those girls who like them AFTER the hit SORRY SORRY.
MUAHAHAH!
u lose! xD

Because I was crazy over them when 'U' came out.
Then I loved them.
Bought EVERYTHING about them.
(which is DAMN limited and expensive)

But now, you see.
Comic connection is EXPLODING with cheap korean stuff.
laminated cards and etc.
-_-

Not that I complain,
but when I was still in Sec school.
That was a gift from heaven
haha!~

I still think back..
People like Mingyan,Samantha,Amanda;
we were the hardcore korean lovers.
Mingyan = DONG BANG
Sam, Amanda, Me = Super Junior.

I guess,we were also the people among us to appreciate korean pop.
I got introduced to FT through Amanda.
When they sang LoveSick..
haha.

-seriously, if i keep going on..
This will go wayyy over-

But to summarize everything;
I miss the old times.
haha!~

Ok, so!!
Let me continue..
I am going to get
Ring Ding Dingy...
tomorrow..

Yes, I am going.
With Vaneh and Chelsea!
Woooo!!

OK!
READY SET GO!

Goodnight!~ :D

Never Tired Of Waiting

Ohmygod.
It's 2010 and hell!
This blog was pretty unkempt till now.
lol.

Shandy kinda notified me that this blog was dead.
So I ought to give some updates.
Nahh, im just tad too lazy to do this.
^^;

Ohwell, many things happened..
As in the transit from 2009 to 2010.
This is just.. 미쳤어 (crazy)..

Will update soon enough.
Met up with my GFs today.
Yes, you got it right if you said;
Samantha the fishy head
&
Grace the Carrot.

lol. Oops.
I cant think of anything.
And im going haywired.

Yesyes. SHINee is coming to Singapore.
And im in a dilemma of whether to stalk them or not.
keke.

LOVE & RESPECT,y'all!~ ♥

- u can never have enough friends.
but u will never have a lot of best friends.
because they're are rare like gems. -

"Someone needed.."

I have school tomorrow, and I am here blogging. :/
Ohwell, just wanna encourage myself lol. :D

5 - 6 days to holidays mania!~

And shandy, good luck to your PP presentation.
Not forgetting Vanessa teo, GOOD LUCK! :D

Ok Taecyeon; I likey this boy!
(no link, I know..)
Ok, I am so anticipating the trip to Thailand!
RAWWWR!

And I am kinda sad that some friends are really distancing away.
why does it always have to be the number 3 for me?
TT--TT

"All I need is a short friend with a megawatt smile to make my day."

Girls,will always be girls.
Girlfriends, will always be girlfriends.

Met my bestie; Shandy to walk to the interchange.
We haven't met in a while since like the previous, previous holiday.

So, before meeting her.
Class on monday + OPII = horrible
Ok, if you ever include slackers and weird facci.
I do not know which adjective will suit my Monday.

So, my day started pretty well.
wasnt really VERY late.
9plus. :D

Class looks a lil bit teeny weeny difficult.
But went for break anyway.
kinda pissed siyun off at break. :/
sorry siyun!

Went back class, do worksheet.
No one cares, but I do lo.
So I did it..

Next was PPT.
Didnt know how to do.
Went to disturb Vanessa teo. :D
She taught me todays problem!
v.teo, wo ai si ni le!

------------------------

Also, chit chat a lil with yimei and sam.
lol
havent talk to sam for a long time.

Ohya; sam ah.
Study Hard!~~

Yi mei, HAPPY BIRTHDAY! :DD

-----------------------------------

And now, they still.. bo chup..
But thank god, one member tried helping.
^^

So, after rushing PPT.
assigned slides.
yet!!
I kept recieving the sighs and pitiful look.

I out in hard work, so dont give me that attitude when u did not lift a finger!

Class ended for me, but I have to wait for shan.
So, went walk walk with siyun to collect her laptop.
her laptop is gorgeous. T--T
(dont get jealous, eunice! u got a new laptop!!)

So went back class and packed my bag.
Headed down to W1 with amanda, siyun and hafiz.
Waited for shan, then walked to the interchange.

So while walking, we talked about class and stuff.
So many things were stored up during those time we didnt meet.
T--T

So we headed to CWP, and now..
I told her whats going on with my life and stuff.
After she transferred her funds, we went to snack at Mac.

Thank goodness there got Mac cafe.
So I bought a caramel frappe, while she got a fudge brownie.
We shared the drink and brownie while talking.

Told her some stuffs. (lol, inside story..)
Then she told be about New Moon.
Spoilers lor!
she went to watch it TWICE!
hmphs!

Then we both spazzed about Taylor lautner,
and shandy ahh.
You look damn cute sia, when u squeal.
Like a kid!

We just kept squealing and crapping about Edward.
Edward, looks HORRID.
WHITE body and hairy..
Taylor = chocolate (keke...)

She told me she wanted to watch Avatar.
The movie looks really cool.
Blue and stuff.
I like!~

Also, she told me prawn kept stealing her veggies.
Not real veggies.
But veggie from a FB application.
She said she wanted to steal his tonight, but!!

---BUSTED--

Shandy's veggie got stolen again.
LOL,but she got coffee beans?
(she say very valuable..)

I am just super greatful for shandy to be here!
I am not licking ur boots, but I am very honoured to find u!~

Such a small person who actually has such a fiesty character.
Yet,she understand and feels for me.
Also, we seem to be on the same frequency.
So its pretty cool. :D

Thanks shan for today.
And yes, ur still a perv in my eyes!

"Turn back and look at me, cos u aren't the same anymore."

Was reminded by Siyun that my blog was well;
unkempt and forgotten.

forgive me, my life has been busy for the previous month.
and Twitter kinda became my best friend. :D
I didnt even have time to hang out on Facebook.
Sometimes, I am too busy to even think of FB-ing.

So, why was I so busy?
First, my personal profiling report..
That was tough, I had to keep focusing. T--T

Next, my personal profiling poster.
Had to make a poster and print it out.
Apparently, my poster isn't really pretty.
Plain and white.
*roll eyes*

Third, poster printing.
Hunted the streets of Bencoolen,
and we found Sunshine Plaza.
Quite cheap.. :D
2 A1 = $20.

Fourth, my UTs!
Crap, sometimes...
Studying for test arent as easy as you think.
So, I had to cram super hard.

Fifth, Poster presentation.
I had to prepare the notes and well.
It was judgement day on the Saturday (21st Nov)
I was super freaked out.
Kept stuttering, but yay..
I passed!~

Mingyan wished for my success too.
Am grateful to her. (:

-- That is why, I was so super busy... --
November was a busy month for me.
T--T

Anyway, many good things happened and bad things too.
But as usual, my brain capacity tends to leave me blank of my information.
So, I will try as hard as I can to fill you guys up!~ (:

So, new class ain't so bad now.
Especially with siyun around and new awesome team mates.
(:

I esp, love Thursday class.
There's yongsoon, haopeng,ruth and xixi.
Great bunch to work with.
What's even better?
A facilitator who gives good grades. (:

Ruth and Haopeng are always squibbling.
That's why it never gets boring.
We always talk alot, mostly about Haopeng.
(hahah...)

We always tease him but thankfully he's quite a carefree person,
so he doesn't take it to heart.
I wish all SNSD lover's are like that.
Yes, Haopeng is a YoonA fan from Girls Generation.

Likewise, my brother has fell for the charms of long-legged beauties, of SNSD.
hehe, who says kpop is stupid now?
nehh!~

Monday's class, well..
designing, I like that.
I think I like beautifying my surroundings.
That's why I like to do designs. :D
But, I only like to do it with AutoCAD.
Simplest, yet the best program!

Tuesday class; JAD's class.
JAD is my previous sem facci.
So nothing much to talk about..

Friday... is the WORST class
That facci, is long-winded as an old recorder can be.
Always talks about Russian Theories. -_-
(his lessons are shifted to Mondays, CRAP!)
But his grades aren't that bad.
Thats what I am relieved of..

So, these were about the faccilitators.
My classmates; are so-so..
Quite an ok bunch of people.
Except those, who DO NOT do their work and think they know everything.

Ohya, to angmoh lovers.
There's a russian guy in class.
Not very hot, but still worth looking.
Afterall, he's the only blonde in class.
(dont like his attitude though.)

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Special happenings;

1.
Met a HORRIBLE bus driver;very rude.. D:
I think it was a month ago.
He yelled at a malaysian girl, who couldnt pay her fares.
No need to yell, idiot!

2.
Had dinner with a complete stranger.
But she became my company for that evening.
Was having dinner at MOS, after getting notified that mum wasnt cooking.
Had problems fending for a seat and ordering my food,
without getting worried that my bag and laptop get stolen.

So I asked a lady to help me look after my stuff.
Well, some people wanted my table.
So the lady offered to share tables with me.
Had a good conversation with her.
Really nice lady, to share her experiences to me.
She was once in SP, studying IT.

thanks to her, i didnt have a lonely dinner. (:

3.
Went to watch 2012 with siyun.
My friend of 12 years. (:
Both of us kept crying in the cinema.
lol.
A great movie, well deserved to watch!

4.
Went to SITEX with Siyun and Amanda.
And guess what, I was EARLY..!~
ehehe!!
SITEX wasnt as bad as yesterday.
(I went there with my parents to find my brother..)
Bought 2 8GB memory stick pro duo. :D
For my trip to Thailand, so I wont miss 2PM so much.

5.
Yes, I am going Thailand!~
On the afternoon of Christmas; hehehe!~~
Will be back, I think on the 30th. (:

6.
No, I am not yet over 2PM.
2PM released their new album.
Stated 01:59pm. (i believe u know what is it..)
Awesome songs in the album.
Love 'Tired of Waiting' & 'Heartbeat'.
Currently, learning the dance steps of 'Heartbeat'.
And polishing the dance for AAA. :D

7.
I went for the FLASHMOB!~
Time stop flashmob in Orchard.
Met many good HOTTEST!~
Esp, the dongsaengs!!
Ika, Farah, & Dayang..
Also, not forgetting the unnies!~
(i seriously, feel like MYSELF when I am with them.)
I dont need to be worried when I speak korean.
haah!~

8.
MY HDTV is awesome!~!
I kept plugging in my Hard disk to play GOMTV ver. of MVs.
my brother really enjoys the SNSD ones.
lol.
for me, to look at my boys in HD.
is like giving a thirsty guy ice water.
LOL!

9.
I can't find my XBOX cable.
T---T
Thats means I cant play my xbox!
T x T

10.
I find that people around me are changing into different people,
that I no longer recognize and understand.
I thought it wouldn't be that bad.
But now, its horrible.

Its like I no longer knew you,
and it terrifies me to call you a friend.
When I no longer understand you, also when you no longer needed me.

It hurts to know that, you no longer have things to tell me.
Only to call me when you need me.
After these years, I came to realise this.
When others had moved on..

Gosh, also..
Why are you trying to be not urself..
Only to try to fit in with people you dont know?
Crap, you act like you know them.
and now you're changing ur religion over it?
I just dont understand you.

No, I dont want to be friends with you anymore.
It just worries me whether will I explode on you one day,
and cause fatality..
Yet, friends were bonded for a reason.
I am now, currently searching for that.

For every friend I bonded with, how did I managed that?

emo, i know...

"Hold no strings to steer the horse"

Ok,this is something that i came up with.
When your cooped up in a team full of different types of people.
Which I can split for you.
1)Lazy people
2)The nose in the air ; C

Lazy, well.
The usual 'group' of people.
All they know is bull-shit.

Nose in the air.
Well, they are ALWAYS right.

No wonder this spells trouble.
I have a terrible time today.
Facing man-whores and bitches.

One kept sighing when he didnt do any nuts.
whatthefuck.
im allowed to sigh because i put in effort.
and i screwed myself with a headache now.

Man-whore!

The other helped, not much of a help.
Well, at least when I was half-dead.
Came along and pulled me up.
-i gotta admit ; not much of a help-

Well, the lazy ones.
SCREW them to the depths of hell.
I had enough of that bitch.
Since week1.

I thought she was nice!!!
But she was not.
ohgod.

Well, today.
like any other days.
she left the job hanging.

you have a responsibility!
not me!
Dont keep pushing any shit towards me.
I really hate you to the bloody core.

Well, male partner wasn't any better.
All he do is bull-shit.
Thank you so so much.

I appreciate it when u co-0perate.
but please dont treat this as a game.
u may have skimmed through year 1.
but this time, do ur fucking job.

I will allow a minute to understand.
I gladly take e44m anyday!

But i appreciate the people here.
CERTAIN people.
Like my Thursday group.
Awesome bunch!~~ :D

I love it when HP is around.
*sighs*
Please let me in the same group!
I will work super hard!~ :D

Naww, i dont need to hang out with people who mess up my mood.

I really miss Grace, Samantha, Jayne so much.
Jazreel too.
I miss talking 1 to 1 with her.

Maybe Buddha is putting me through another test.
I will go through the test.

anyway, should I lock this blog up?

" baby, save me from Superman. "


I am going really mad.
I think i am just purely wasting time.
*sighs*

I don't know, but I just dont feel as happy in this class.
Maybe it's the same for before.
But now, it just makes me so uncomfortable to be in this class.

So many people, I have yet to know.
and horrible ammy is crushing on wonderboy.
tsk!~
(dont worry,i will check whether is he attached or not.)
:D

Also, my tail was stepped by someone I DREAD working with.
gosh, i thought she was NICE!
damnit, seriously.
she just deserve a slap on her face.

I have to face this person for 5 weeks?!
Can u believe it?!
damn damn damn.
(i have to work with her tomorrow.)
-_-

Let me tell you.
I have a sense of foreboding of the facci;
Operations Planning (2).
That @#$%;
zomg.

he nags like nobody BLOODY business sia!
like recorder.
go on and on and on.

WORST facci I have seen ever.
I don't ever wanna see him again!
Even our ECD facci was BETTER than him.
I miss that facci sia, even though he PMSes.

But that was on FRIDAY.
I had better of things on Saturday though.

Met up with my girlfriends!~~
Sam and Grace.
Went to ion, then had lunch at CEDELE.

So first, we went shopping.
Sam got her tights at Topshop.
Grace got her belt at Uniqlo, same for Sam.

After that, we went to Cedele at Wheelock.
But before that, both sam and grace changed into their new stuff.
I waited outside.
(Surprisingly, i bought NOTHING at all!~)

Ordered the same thing; Apple Cinammon pancake with sausages!
Maybe Cedele can get my orders without asking me again.
I am totally ADDICTED to the pancakes!~

Sam and Grace ordered pastas.
The pastas tasted AWESOME!~
:D

My pancakes

Wholegrain chicken pasta


Sam's pasta!~
yummy!~~

After that, we went to mariott Hotel to get Angie's SIM card.
Her friend works as a waitress at Mariott Banquet.
and..
I think I saw a prince there!!~

Lol, ok im exaggerating.
The guy looks cute, he was the realtive of either the bride or bridegroom.
Dress in all white.

Total perfection. (:
He was just lack of a horse and a carriage;
if not, i would have threw him my sneakers at 12am.
and prolly put my number there. xD
let the prince find cinderella.
(Throws up)

haha, sorry about that.
*wipes drool off her mouth*
I am dreaming.

After collecting the card, we walked back to ION.
And I was lamenting on going back to Mariott. D:
Went to the toilet to take some pictures.

After a day's gathering, Sam left for harbourfront to partayyy.
I wish i can go clubbing too!
Whereas I headed for Grace house.

At grace's house, I recieved the best girlfriend session.
had my nails done and eyebrow plucked.
it hurts, but thanks alot girl!~
(:

I really appreciate it as no one ever did it for me.
*hugs grace*
Let alone touch my oily face. haha.

I went home at 10:40pm.
Only to reach at 11plus.
Slept at 4 plus watching

光陰的故事

This show, is AWESOME!~
I really just love Sun Yi Mei.
Her character is adorable to the max.
Not forgetting, Xu Yi Yuan.
Yi mei's boyfriend.
SO darn handsome.

This show robbed me of my tears and laughter.
a worth to watch! :D

Tender Huang (Huang Teng Hao)
who is acting as Xu Yi Yuan.
This guy, is a plus in my 'OMG,i want this boy!' list.
haha. xD
cute and he's a hairdresser.
too bad, he's too thin. D:

Ohwell, pretty boy.
(:

Anyway, I have seen clues that 2PM are leaving for hottest.
You want 7,right?
We will fight for it. (:

2PM = 7 =1

Urgh, I woke at 3 on sunday.
didnt go out at all.
watching the show again.
haha.

byebye!~

WAIT, i forget tos say.
I WANT TO GO BANGKOK'S CHATUCHAK!
yay!!!

" have you seen the short Seattle leader? "

I haven't update for a while.
hurhur.
its because I have been rushing my PP!

and congrats to me.
I had PP accepted within a day;
only with a 3% plagiarism status.
So,im pretty much in glee.

Also, school started for me.
Like any other new days.
Meeting new people really isnt my cup of tea.

I need time to adjust.
But thankfully, I have siyun with me.
A classmate whom I know for almost 12 years.
-so freaking long!-

She's like my elder sister.
yea,she is.
She's 6 days older.
So she's considered as one.

the things she does are what I kinda adore.
-she nags.
- she squabble
- she talks alot. (i talk alot too!~)

Anyhoo, so first day in school was not as bad.
i had someone I know.
And well, my friends were the same level and block as me!

- i even had lunch with them! -

So, this is about my school work.
As for my personal life.

I am certainly feeling much better.
Except, for some coughing.
Am thinking of cutting my hair; bangs!

Tried new facial wash, hopefully it works.
Tried new shampoo.
Bought new clothes and shoes.
I bought heels!~ yay!!

I have been chasing 2ONEDAY through twitter.
Am upgraded/leveled up.
I feel really happy to be leveled up!
thanks to 2OD mods! :D

I feel kinda pissed off at JYP.
Seriously, prove our loyalty towards jay?
And making Junsu and Junho record another version of the song?!
Omg, wtf are u thinking?!

Money is all you can think of.
Where are your ethnics?
Seriously,I hate the adult world.
And that is one of the reason.
Realistic + Materialistic = World!

We all are like that.
Where can we find true people?
Who are not trying to benefit from everything else?
Urgh!?

JYP, u stupid KING KONG GORILLA!
You even said that Jay was your brother!
u clearly arent showing it.

Such contradictions.
TSK!
really hate it when I see this.

I really miss 2PM as a whole.
I kept watching Wild Bunny.. Idol Show..
MuBank.. MuCore..
ARGGH!

But in this industry, there bound to be friends and supporters.
After School unnies did AAA dance.
(Gahee unnie, thank you so much. saranghae!~)

People supported Jay.
And yes, another major contradiction.
Netizens caused the downfall.
Now they are begging him to come back.
Thanks to ur malicious words..
We lost the Leadaja in 2PM..

Urgh,i have so much to say but I cant,
Too damn tired.
All I wanna say to jay oppa.

Msg to Jaebeom Oppa :

Oppa, We will wait and fight for you.
If you see something that you dislike through our support.
Please do come out.
If not, we will still continue to fight for you.
To prove our loyalty

01:59pm; the 6 oppas..
I am terribly sorry.
It is due to the statement JYPE released.
We have to carry on with the boycott.

But remember 2PM = 7 = 1.
If anyone of you would be in this situation.
Hottest will protect you.
Because to us; all of you make up 2PM.
No more, No less. (:

No matter how long, we will wait.
Because of you, hottest have joined hands.
all around the globe.

We will be there.
And dont forget your dongsaengs back there.
in jyp.
waiting for you.

2PM = 7 = 1.

Alrighty, its confirmed.
Im going for the Flash Mob!
And goodnight!
it's 2AM.
(:

" so, I can fly with my ears? " the elephant asked.


'I teared up when I imagined Jay crying..'


aww man, I really miss Jay.
I even had a dream about him.
lol.

(i dreamt that we were couples.)
but sad, cos its not real.
and well, he's still not back in 2PM yet.
(he was in 2PM when I dreamnt. :D)

today was as usual.
woke up at 2 plus.
headed out with my mum to see the eastern doc.
Traditional Chinese Medicine.
(i actually trust TCM much more.)

western medicines to me are just something,
to make me hurt less.
(like pain killers.)

they don't exactly cure.
and well, TCM taste bad..
But you know what they say.
'Bitter Medicine = Good Treatment'

So had lunch before our visit to the doc.
went over to the Shop n Save.
mummy and aunty went to buy something,
so I looked at the new Tae Kwan Do centre opened there.
-had thoughts of joining, but I cant fight for nuts sake.-

So went to see doc, took medicine.
And bloody hell, the printer guy..
Who had a shop beside the doctor..
Dusted his printer stuff in our direction.
Even though we walked away, he still continued.
Only grinning when he was in his shop again.
PHUCK right?!

Went home, use comp.
And tadaaa, I am so going for the
SGHOTTEST flashmob! :D
Its around Oct 9 or Oct 16/23.

Dad had to leave for a party at his friend's house.
So we had dinner at compass point.
Subway!~~

After dinner, bro and I headed to Popular.
Bought my BTT 300 qns and ans booklet.

Mummy said 91' are the last batch to get license at 18yo.
hohoho. :D
so must fast fast.

Headed home after shopping at Cold Storage.
Washed up and watch CSI Miami. :D
Duper shiok.

It's CSI Miami + CSI Miami.
Mac Taylor + Horatio.

- im still feeling quite sore, cos I didnt manage to go clubbing on friday.
cos im down with cough.
I know i wouldn't enjoy myself,when I am wheezing.-

So now, I am online.
And am supposed to do my PP.
So I am going to it.
JIAYOU! :D

- Sam, I hope your laptop is alright. :D -

" I like bad boys, soldier type!.."

haha,
correction : BAD, HOT BOYS!

some of my girlfriends doesnt go for looks.
sadly, I do.
D:

i know its a bad thing, but at least.
you are more comfortable with someone..
worth and comfortable looking at.
-shit,im being such a bitch.-

ohwell,enough of that.
i guess, i have been PMSing way too much.
like totally.

i hanged up on people.
yes, i do that when im pissed.
well, overly-pissed.

blame it on the month.

i treat people like asses.
i know, what a bitch.
but i do it for a reason.

Not because i just do that for fun.
its because I am so irritated by that person.
or you can say 'accumulated irritation'.

forgive and forget sounds so damn easy.
but in fact, its difficult.
i tried so many times.
constantly brainwashing myself.
saying that its ok, but nawww.

it just bounces back into ur mind.
when you see that person doing the same thing.
over and over again.

I may look like some bitch that has 2 faces,
but im trying so bloody hard to hold on.
Hold on to the thread of the friendship.

All i can do is to grit my teeth and go..
Try to be nice, and hope it will work.
its kinda like hypnotizing myself.
sometimes it works,
when it doesnt, i use other methods.
DISTRACTION.

Also,
I want to clarify something.
I have been getting this response.

'I am always avoiding to talk on the phone'

Well, thats kinda true.
I dont favour talking on the phone.
Cos I realize I cant express myself clearly.

So please. dont be mad at me.
I am not avoiding anyone's call.
Nor is it I do not want to talk to you.
I just dont really like talking on the phone.

Or well, you can say I am lazy to talk on the phone.
i know,im horrible..

so please dont be angry,okay..?
to those people whom i love ever so so much.
remember. even if i dont talk to you.
or i didnt contact you.

Dont ever think I forgotten about you.
Cos best friends are always remembered in the heart.
You guys know who you are.

the G & the doubleS.
i love you guys ever so so much.
i cant say that surely for others.
but i am 100% sure i love u guys with my heart.

-----------------

AND I BLOODY HATE PP!

" dot dot dot. :D "


ANNOUNCEMENT for HOTTEST
(or people supporting JAY of 2PM.)

PROJECT J(AY)

Next Saturday ;
- 26th of September
- At 2PM
- Outside Orchard MRT
- Wearing either BLACK or WHITE
- Posters and Support Placards are welcomed!

We as, sgHOTTEST will show our support towards JAY.
So, we are gonna meet up and take some pictures.
Anybody ON? :D
Please tell me u can make it!!
TT__TT

---------------------------------------------------

HOTTEST devotion and support towards Jay & 2PM.

This announcement is AMAZING..!
JJANG!~

------------------------------------------------------

seriously,my body clock is malfunctioning.
i sleep late at night.
wake up in the noon.
and get sleepy in the evening.

wrong man, school is starting in a week ++.
and my damn PP.
urgh, i see my friends halfway through.
now im worried.
shit.

Had pepper lunch for dinner.
I still ate the usual ; beef cheese pepper rice.
hurhur.
next time gonna try sukiyaki, beef! :D

heading for gym tml!
with besties. :D
hope i can wake up.
TT__TT

s a m + g r a c e = e u n i c e
(random again)

urgh, im so bloody pissed right now.
i dont care whether is JYP right or not.
he is so SUPER DUPER +
(word i wanna say, but may get me a lawsuit if seen) STUBBORN.

URGHHHH!
6 MEMBER 2PM?!
damnit.
the hurt our ONEDAY is feeling.

i cant describe it.
seriously, we HOTTEST are hurting so badly now.
damnit.

i dont want jay as a solo artist.
not another RAIN if JYP is planning so.
i seriously wanna smack JYP hard on the head.

u lost Rain, but u cannot use jay.
ok, put him back into 2PM.
urgghhhhH!

i need him back!~

" One & Only; 박재범 "

I will learn the..
"Cant Hear, Cant See & Cant Speak" method.

Because, I find it useful in times like this.
I feel so hurt to see things that bring back old and bad memories.

But it just keeps appearing near you.
Ohyes, it always does.

Right now,
currently in a procrastination mood.
Don't feel like doing anything.
I just want to sit here and do nothing.

Well, I shall just update my life in this pretty blog.

So on a monday, which was on the 14th..
Played badminton with Grace, Sam and Jayne. :D
play until my hand no strength.

after that,went over to grace house.
Jayne played a piece by Yiruma.
'River Flows In You'...
(didnt know Yiruma was a KOREAN!)
JJANG!~

Its amazing cos Jayne plays it by ear.
She doesnt read the notes.
So cool!~

After that, Grace played the same one.
Its amazing too.
im so green with envy.
I wanna learn how to play piano too.
Too bad old people learn things SLOW.

After hearing a piece,
we went upstairs to try a new gadget Grace brought home.
Actually, her dad bought it as a mistake.
Thinking it was some sit-up machine.
P.S : its actually an Inverter Table.

Tried it and got off it after screaming.
haha.
jayne and sam tried it too.
much braver than me.

Headed into grace's & jiapei's room.
went to watch jiapei's performance. :D
awesome sia!

Then after taking a picture.


We decided to go for Pepper Lunch at Hougang mall.

Took the shadow pics (ABOVE!) outside grace's house.
The ah pek walking by thought we were 'SIAO' + 'SOT'.
Standing in the hot sun and posing with weird signs.

Met Grace boyfriend near hougang mall.
First time meeting, very nice guy!
(thumbs up for Grace!!)

After Lunch, we suddenly had an idea of gg for ARCADE!
BUT!!
Arcade at hougang mall is complete FAIL!

So we head to Ang Mo Kio Hub to play. :DD
Took bus there, and chit chat.
Talked about naming our pets in different names.
And what will we name our kids as.
lol.

Reached AMK and went into PLC.
Jayne said she love the rabbit there.
Which lead to her 'died-ed' bubble tea.

P.S : we went to KOI cafe at AMK there.
the bubble tea just spells AWESOME. :D
Had fun at the arcade.
Played loads of games.

Spent 3 hours there and had lots of FUN!
:D
chit chat then headed back for grace's house.
collect our bags. :D

On the way, we were going a little bit crazy,
we started talking about Mr Bean and Ms Swan.
My all time favourites!
Jiapei and Sam mimicked Ms Swan.
so funny.

Then jayne said about the Miss Singapore.
Whose english is completely EPIC!
Ok la, my english also not anywhere.
But seriously, this shows that beautiful people..
Sometime REALLY lack of brains.

Not all though. :D
Except that one who said to wear something which 'BOOMs'.
Yes,you heard it right.
Miss Singapore said that.
Tsk.
Standard dropping.

SIA girls are the chio-est one.
But now...
Standard + Quality has certainly dropped.
TSK!!

(ohya, i was completely bag-less that day, only had wallet,camera and phone.)
hoho, first time experience.

Took our bags and say bye bye.
and that grace went to show us some flattened dead rat.
damn disgusting.
*shudders*

Walked to the bus stop with Jayne and Raymond. (yeap,Grace BF!)
then chit chat lo.
they boarded the bus and after 5 minutes 62 arrived.
Kept dozing off in the bus.
was so tired.

Got home, bathed, use internet then sleep.

19.09.09



Went out with joce and yenxi to PLUCK.
(yes, sam.. i wanna bring u there!!~)

Took pictures and headed to Haji Lane.
Experimented with the Polaroid me and my bro bought.
3 pretty pictures. :D
loved it.

Went into ;the blogshop.
saw the camera i wanted.
TT__TT

but it costs $88.
Superlicious tempting.

Went back to Bugis Junction.
walk walk around, bought earrings and a rose ring.
:D

joce bought 2 pairs of shoes.
hoho.

anyway,thats it.
im so sorry, im like super tired now!
TATAS! :D

- mistake happens.
and well, i mistook actions and reacted weirdly.
i dunno, thinking too much perhaps?! -

Break a heart, Break a leg.
(Well, 'break a leg' actually means good luck.)
I hope all goes well for jae to come back.

Went forum and twitter stalking,
and found some very good articles about Jaebeom.

Koreans do not understand what is it for Jae to be in Korea.
Lack Of Understanding


Also, the JYPE boycott.
Well, to those who still thinks that JYP isnt wrong.
This may open your eyes to see what's really going on.
This article made sense to me,finally.

(But i too feel that this boycott will hurt our 6 other boys.)

BOYCOTT JYPE project and REASONS why!


Netizens are like murderes without weapons.
Ohno, they do have weapons.
Their fingers and their malicious words.

EunHyuk from Super Junior;
posted something on his cyworld.

"Celebrities live on stage, but dies on the internet.."

I totally agree.
And I empathise with them.
Being entertainers, you always have to be so careful.

It's as if you are in a trap house.
Everywhere you go, there's a trap laid ahead.
Any action you make = consequences you will face.
There are also 'helpers' that shoves you into the traps,
whenever your not careful or when they are unhappy.

I feel so upset for these boys.

(I am thinking of making a video to support Jaebum and 2PM,
whose in?!)

Regarding the boycott, I have to say I agree to it.
BUT!!
I have something to say..

@theincomplete2PM oppas;

It must be very sad for oppas to see that HOTTEST are doing these to you.
We know that all of you are suffering.
Wooyoung oppa, you have grown thinner, you know?

But HOTTEST actions are not directed to you.
Not to the 6 of you.
We,HOTTEST will never want to see you get hurt.
But we must show your manager,Jin Young Park;
that he didn't do his best to protect our Leadaja.

All he gave was shabby responses or blaming our Leader.
We know that Leadaja has done wrong.
(but people, please understand him!!)
And we forgive him, but..
Was it due to pressure from Media and
fear of ticking off the people who were filling his pockets,
that Leadaja had to bear ALL consequences.
With no one standing behind him during these 4 days..

We thought as a Boss, he should do something.
But, we are upset with the results.

So, incomplete2PM oppas..
We all love you guys.
But we need our Leader back,
and well the happy 2PM days back.

사랑해,박재범
사랑해,2PM.
당신은 돌아올 것이다
am I right?
(you will come back..)

HOTTEST needs you!
2PM needs you!

7 - 1 = 0

- did it at wee morning. 3am.. :D -
with what i can find, pencil,paper,eraser and red marker. :D

"A sheep needs it shepherd.
And just like a group of sheep, we have lost our Shepherd.
Please, bring him back to us."

-so exhausting and heartbreaking-

@jae;ourLEADAJA.

You have been going to church every morning,right?
Like you, all of us are praying hard.
No matter what religion we are, we pray.
Pray that you would be back.

We don't know when you will be back,
but all we need to know, is..
Will you be back?
For us? For 2PM? For HOTTEST?

The whole world is praying for you.
Be it in Korea, in the States, in Asia, in Singapore, in SEA.
We all pray and await your return.

And thank you to your friend, Yoon.
We know you're doing well (healthy).
And Jae, we will wait for you. :D

-------- Nothing Matters, when you're by my side. -----

So many things I wanna do.
Make a t-shirt that says..

2PM
7-1 = 0
Park Jaebum, Kim Junsu,Nickhun,Ok Taecyeon,
Jang Wooyoung,Lee Junho,Hwang Chansung.

wonder how much would it be. :/
(if best put the words in Hangul..)

Make a Youtube Video to support all.
And remind wooyoung + 2PM to eat (inclu. Jae)

- Need More People. -
:D

Hwaiting! :DDD

"To know,is your choice.."

I did in whatever means I can do for Jae.
Now I only can wait and pray.

Met zul,shida,hayati at Starbuck today.
Did our jae petition form and such.
(i just want you back..)

Feeling so sad over the things I hear.
The update on Wikipedia of 2PM.
The dream concert 2009 poster being edited.
The uncertain future of 2PM.
Boycotting of 2PM in thailand.
(yes,its at thailand now.)

It continues.
I just cant bear to go Soompi now.
So heartbreaking to see the siggies with Jae all over it.

Jaebum & 2PM, we will support you as always.
I just hope that Singapore HOTTEST wont turn on you (2PM).
Even if they do, I wont.

Cos if there is still 2PM.
there is hope that jaebum will come back.

----------------------------

I wanna cut bangs again.
but my pimples seriously loves me too much.
damnit.

Lemme go try a week of bangs.
lol. :D

Did the best today.
Wrote what i could in the petition.
Recieved much comments on the petitions.

I know JYP shouldnt be handling the blame.
But personally, I think JYP should do more than just that.
(no,i am not killing with my fingers.)

ohgosh, im losing focus.
so sad now.

and gosh, sometimes BGR relationship stinks.
Cant we just keep the line OBVIOUS.
Between being friends and being couples?

Some people just dont get it.
Yes, I rather over assume than taking chances.
I dont want to blame a failed relationship on a friend.
No point.

I also have myself to blame.
Trying to seperate this 2 issues is proving to be difficult for me.
First, I have been on the single status for a year plus?
Second, I seriously am too confused of what I am doing.
Third, I have tons of girlfriends. Only a minimal amnt of guy friends.
(some are not even friends. -_-)

Damnit.
What can I do?
To ignore or to carry on?
Cos I dont want a relationship to happen.
I need space.

Naww, if I were to date him..
I rather not be friends with him.
No, is I rather forgo the chances of having guy friends,
if I have to date him.

I dont want things to happen over again.
It scares me.
I dont want love to become something so.. crappish.

ok,blame me.
im in a midst of PMS-ing again.
I dont want this BGR thing to happen.
Not now, only till I found the perfect one.

Heard about this from sam.
Mind Your Language ; Kill or Cure part 3.



funny old classic.
can improve sense of humour.

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I will think of what I wanna say when I think of it. PEACE OUTTTTTTTTT.