»take the pain away as you go
Saturday, January 17, 2009
- "boy, you are the sunlight in the dark room i am in.."
but where are you now, when i need you the most..? -
its saturday.
and im not that emo.
still emo, but not still..
im feeling better.
cos i know the pain wont come biting till the weekdays.
this is something that i dont wanna say,
cos..
it will only hurt.
dont listen, ignore my pleas for help.
im just crying for the sake of it.
- "Oh, I should have realised..
You were gone the moment when I started needing you.." -
Reality is just as harsh as it seems.
you thought it would be pretty sweet.
but when it falls back to square one,
it doesnt taste the same anymore.
- " reality sunk in the moment when i saw you again.." -
Im so tired, regretful of things I did.
stupid,foolish mistakes.
'Paying for what you did..'
I can hear myself repeating this in my head.
Ahhh..
This is what I deserve for being so stupid and foolish.
Paying for what I have did when I had fun.
Playing with fire, will somehow burn you..
Now, am I tasting the aftermath.
The feeling of being burnt.
The pain..
Im so tired, so afraid what is about to come to me.
I feel like stopping this bullshit.
Turning back time and pressing the 'Restart' button.
Like..
When you die, just press ' restart' and you will be back at where you last been.
I just want to do that.
But yes,
Reality..
that is impossible...
So now...
I have to start being realistic..
I have to start,right..?
i have to...
Face the punishment for the sins I have done..
- "Finally, she realized..
He did not even belong to her from the start.." -
sucha fool,i am...
but where are you now, when i need you the most..? -
its saturday.
and im not that emo.
still emo, but not still..
im feeling better.
cos i know the pain wont come biting till the weekdays.
this is something that i dont wanna say,
cos..
it will only hurt.
dont listen, ignore my pleas for help.
im just crying for the sake of it.
- "Oh, I should have realised..
You were gone the moment when I started needing you.." -
Reality is just as harsh as it seems.
you thought it would be pretty sweet.
but when it falls back to square one,
it doesnt taste the same anymore.
- " reality sunk in the moment when i saw you again.." -
Im so tired, regretful of things I did.
stupid,foolish mistakes.
'Paying for what you did..'
I can hear myself repeating this in my head.
Ahhh..
This is what I deserve for being so stupid and foolish.
Paying for what I have did when I had fun.
Playing with fire, will somehow burn you..
Now, am I tasting the aftermath.
The feeling of being burnt.
The pain..
Im so tired, so afraid what is about to come to me.
I feel like stopping this bullshit.
Turning back time and pressing the 'Restart' button.
Like..
When you die, just press ' restart' and you will be back at where you last been.
I just want to do that.
But yes,
Reality..
that is impossible...
So now...
I have to start being realistic..
I have to start,right..?
i have to...
Face the punishment for the sins I have done..
- "Finally, she realized..
He did not even belong to her from the start.." -
sucha fool,i am...
Labels: regret, resentful..., sad, tired and drained., upset
words spilled @ 1/17/2009 09:34:00 PM /
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»The night has just begun
Monday, November 17, 2008
" you put the BIG into the BANG and
you will get BIG BANG.."
Randomness,again.
So much of random stuff.
lol.
I know,im supposed to be tuck safely in my bed resting.
OR
studying for tomorrow's UT ; cognitive.
gosh.
But I am not..
Why..?
Because I have been BIGBANG-ified again.
But my heart goes out to them. ):
Daesung looked damn tired in the video.
Link : http://www.freeegg.com/flash/player/channelPlayer.swf?id=313668&skinNum=1&channelID=holic125
Gosh, heartache.
And yea..
I need to save more thingy for my BIGBANG pictures!
gosh!
there are so many from MKMF.
esp fancams of the boys. xD
yes,u guessed it.. i forgiven TOP.
Cos soompi kinda clarified something.
kekeke.
And thanks to Shandy, my little counsellor.
xD
anyway, GOOD NEWS & BAD NEWS for ZUL
BONG IS GOING SOLO FOR HIS MINI ALBUM IN
THE STATES
Ok..
So note to self;
1.Bring my hardisk for some hardcore pictures saving from Soompi
2.Drink more water, im sick,remember..?
3.Update yourself on BIG BANG's REMEMBER album. (I WANT ONE!)
4.STUDY FOR UR FRIGGIN UT.
5.Go bugis get leggings,tights,whatever is a must for my style.
I need to get checkered shirts,leather jackets and boots.
(jking)
no money.
lol!
I need rest!
tatas!
arghs, forget to put BB 2nd forum inside here..
BB 2nd Soompi Forum
Link : http://www.soompi.com/forums/index.php?showtopic=259114
you will get BIG BANG.."
Randomness,again.
So much of random stuff.
lol.
I know,im supposed to be tuck safely in my bed resting.
OR
studying for tomorrow's UT ; cognitive.
gosh.
But I am not..
Why..?
Because I have been BIGBANG-ified again.
But my heart goes out to them. ):
Daesung looked damn tired in the video.
Link : http://www.freeegg.com/flash/player/channelPlayer.swf?id=313668&skinNum=1&channelID=holic125
Gosh, heartache.
And yea..
I need to save more thingy for my BIGBANG pictures!
gosh!
there are so many from MKMF.
esp fancams of the boys. xD
yes,u guessed it.. i forgiven TOP.
Cos soompi kinda clarified something.
kekeke.
And thanks to Shandy, my little counsellor.
xD
anyway, GOOD NEWS & BAD NEWS for ZUL
BONG IS GOING SOLO FOR HIS MINI ALBUM IN
THE STATES
Ok..
So note to self;
1.Bring my hardisk for some hardcore pictures saving from Soompi
2.Drink more water, im sick,remember..?
3.Update yourself on BIG BANG's REMEMBER album. (I WANT ONE!)
4.STUDY FOR UR FRIGGIN UT.
5.Go bugis get leggings,tights,whatever is a must for my style.
I need to get checkered shirts,leather jackets and boots.
(jking)
no money.
lol!
I need rest!
tatas!
arghs, forget to put BB 2nd forum inside here..
BB 2nd Soompi Forum
Link : http://www.soompi.com/forums/index.php?showtopic=259114
Labels: big bang, exhausted, SICK SICK SICK., tired and drained.
words spilled @ 11/17/2008 11:55:00 PM /
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»loss-`edd
Thursday, March 22, 2007
oh GREAT..
ilostmythunbdrive.
it must be due to bad karma.. :(
shldnt have said abt her..
ishouldnothave!
(imsuchameanass..)
your rosebud lips said,smiled,bled,lied..
ahh..noo..
i gotta REDO my F&N.
since she didnt even bother to care abt her student,
oh never mind..
iguessshesjustWEIRD and bochap.
cant u just help me ask another teacher??
ur really BOCHAP! pissedoff*
i know its my fault for leaving my thumbdrive there..
but CANT YOU JUST HELP!? *hysterical
your words like daggers pierced my heart..it bled.
furthermore that 'painthearse' pissed me off..
oh yes.. i admit.. my english isnt that good..
and i SWEAR im gonna improve in it..
im gonna broaden my vocab..
imsogonnadoit.
that arsed.. bla bla bla bla..
your lies were once exposed by me...again..
oh yes..
why cant u just STOP asking?
im not pissed..
im just irritated..
cos..sometimes u get onto my nerves.
but oh well..
either u ignorant of what ur doing ( which i think i can understand..)
OR.
ur just being a pain.. (no offense)
i guess i cant be truthful to u..
im scared i will hurt u too much..
so im shutting up..
i guess i really wanna tell u that..
iknowurhappygolucky,butijustcantdoit.
i m s o r r y.
you said sorry and cried.
oh well..
i guess my ship is kinda sinking..
F R I E N D S H I P is falling apart..
like the titanic or poseidon.. :P
will some band aid do any help?
ihope.. :X
ur footsteps echoed down the hallway with tears falling like raindrops.
currently enjoying the fan in sam's room..
its nice being with her..
she was with me all along..
THANKSGAL! :DD
needed that shoulder and ear when no one was there.
*hugs..
ur the BEST..
ur bullets sounded throu the hall,painting the wall red.
aww shucks..what am i suppose to do now??!!
redo my coursework AGAIN..
must send ms irda the list by today..!
AHHHH! im so dead..
i forgaved,i cried, i bled.. all came to nought.
Labels: tired and drained.
words spilled @ 3/22/2007 05:49:00 PM /
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