ยปtake the pain away as you go
Saturday, January 17, 2009
- "boy, you are the sunlight in the dark room i am in.."
but where are you now, when i need you the most..? -
its saturday.
and im not that emo.
still emo, but not still..
im feeling better.
cos i know the pain wont come biting till the weekdays.
this is something that i dont wanna say,
cos..
it will only hurt.
dont listen, ignore my pleas for help.
im just crying for the sake of it.
- "Oh, I should have realised..
You were gone the moment when I started needing you.." -
Reality is just as harsh as it seems.
you thought it would be pretty sweet.
but when it falls back to square one,
it doesnt taste the same anymore.
- " reality sunk in the moment when i saw you again.." -
Im so tired, regretful of things I did.
stupid,foolish mistakes.
'Paying for what you did..'
I can hear myself repeating this in my head.
Ahhh..
This is what I deserve for being so stupid and foolish.
Paying for what I have did when I had fun.
Playing with fire, will somehow burn you..
Now, am I tasting the aftermath.
The feeling of being burnt.
The pain..
Im so tired, so afraid what is about to come to me.
I feel like stopping this bullshit.
Turning back time and pressing the 'Restart' button.
Like..
When you die, just press ' restart' and you will be back at where you last been.
I just want to do that.
But yes,
Reality..
that is impossible...
So now...
I have to start being realistic..
I have to start,right..?
i have to...
Face the punishment for the sins I have done..
- "Finally, she realized..
He did not even belong to her from the start.." -
sucha fool,i am...
but where are you now, when i need you the most..? -
its saturday.
and im not that emo.
still emo, but not still..
im feeling better.
cos i know the pain wont come biting till the weekdays.
this is something that i dont wanna say,
cos..
it will only hurt.
dont listen, ignore my pleas for help.
im just crying for the sake of it.
- "Oh, I should have realised..
You were gone the moment when I started needing you.." -
Reality is just as harsh as it seems.
you thought it would be pretty sweet.
but when it falls back to square one,
it doesnt taste the same anymore.
- " reality sunk in the moment when i saw you again.." -
Im so tired, regretful of things I did.
stupid,foolish mistakes.
'Paying for what you did..'
I can hear myself repeating this in my head.
Ahhh..
This is what I deserve for being so stupid and foolish.
Paying for what I have did when I had fun.
Playing with fire, will somehow burn you..
Now, am I tasting the aftermath.
The feeling of being burnt.
The pain..
Im so tired, so afraid what is about to come to me.
I feel like stopping this bullshit.
Turning back time and pressing the 'Restart' button.
Like..
When you die, just press ' restart' and you will be back at where you last been.
I just want to do that.
But yes,
Reality..
that is impossible...
So now...
I have to start being realistic..
I have to start,right..?
i have to...
Face the punishment for the sins I have done..
- "Finally, she realized..
He did not even belong to her from the start.." -
sucha fool,i am...
Labels: regret, resentful..., sad, tired and drained., upset
words spilled @ 1/17/2009 09:34:00 PM /
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