»Sorrow
Thursday, July 29, 2010
"Oh, the dismay.."
I am just upset, and all I need is a listening ear.
I need a person who doesnt know the situation just yet.
Neither does that person know who is involved.
Because I really need to get everything out.
Everything means everything.
Like, how i feel about whats happening.
But the sad problem is, I havent found the exact person yet.
Really, I was really stupid enough to
rant my nonsense towards someone that 'know' what's going on.
All I need is for you to hear, not say anything about it.
Because it actually made EVERYTHING worse.
I almost felt insulted and ready to cry when you said that.
- but as usual, i wont fucking cry unless i burst-
Besides, it would give you the 'kick' out of it, right?
To see me crying.
Yeayea, bitch. i wont!
Ok, so the reason why I need that type of person..
is because they wont freaking judge!!
I need you to stop judging me, cos I get really upset when you do.
And when I am upset + MORE upset = I lose and u die.
I need you to ;
1) Listen
2) Dont Judge
3) Let me finish what i am saying.
4) Allow me to bawl.
5) Allow me to preserve my dignity.
6) Let me bitch about anything and everything.
So, the above list is the difficult one.
Where the hell can i find this person, you tell me?!
Ok, I am being a spoilt bitch.
Since young, i dont get what I want.
I will get really upset and I will whine, moan, cry about it.
Thats how I feel about the Melbourne trip.
I know its my own careless mistake, but I am just 不爽.
(Accommodate me for this paragraph or so)
Because my friends are going for it.
Worse, the ones who said they are not going are going.
(another excuse for me to get angry)
Well, and seeing the happy faces on my friends..
Just get me really jealous and sour.
(I know, you must think I am really horrible)
Yes, I am horrible.
But I have already admitted it that I am 'spoilt' and unhappy.
- If you are horrified of me, u can leave my blog immediately -
So, I am jealous.
yes, but I am not going to 泼冷水 on my friends.
because they are really very excited about it.
And, i cannot be even more horrible.
But I am just upset, because of the fact that I missed such a chance.
Because of my own fault.
Stupid right?
Ok, now i have to suck it up.
or someone should scold me.
cos wo de pi hen yang.
anyway, im beginning to get irritated with someone again!
hello, leader.
you girlfriend doesnt mean she recieve priority emails only.
PLEASE BCC US ALSO.
Thank u, and you guys can find a room to make out.
Anyway, I wonder..
To what extent would i go to get my boyfriend's attention.
Cos I am a real attention seeker.
I really like attention alot.
haha, horrible bad habit.
So, maybe...
I would be like the same as her?
i think?
Cos she was doing that infront of the WHOLE 2 team.
sit 1 corner emo, let her bf see.
ok lo.
I think i will also like that.
As in im nt being sarcastic.
just being honest about it, maybe i will act that way too.
):
Ok, enough la.
And really, crying helps.
haha~
I am just upset, and all I need is a listening ear.
I need a person who doesnt know the situation just yet.
Neither does that person know who is involved.
Because I really need to get everything out.
Everything means everything.
Like, how i feel about whats happening.
But the sad problem is, I havent found the exact person yet.
Really, I was really stupid enough to
rant my nonsense towards someone that 'know' what's going on.
All I need is for you to hear, not say anything about it.
Because it actually made EVERYTHING worse.
I almost felt insulted and ready to cry when you said that.
- but as usual, i wont fucking cry unless i burst-
Besides, it would give you the 'kick' out of it, right?
To see me crying.
Yeayea, bitch. i wont!
Ok, so the reason why I need that type of person..
is because they wont freaking judge!!
I need you to stop judging me, cos I get really upset when you do.
And when I am upset + MORE upset = I lose and u die.
I need you to ;
1) Listen
2) Dont Judge
3) Let me finish what i am saying.
4) Allow me to bawl.
5) Allow me to preserve my dignity.
6) Let me bitch about anything and everything.
So, the above list is the difficult one.
Where the hell can i find this person, you tell me?!
Ok, I am being a spoilt bitch.
Since young, i dont get what I want.
I will get really upset and I will whine, moan, cry about it.
Thats how I feel about the Melbourne trip.
I know its my own careless mistake, but I am just 不爽.
(Accommodate me for this paragraph or so)
Because my friends are going for it.
Worse, the ones who said they are not going are going.
(another excuse for me to get angry)
Well, and seeing the happy faces on my friends..
Just get me really jealous and sour.
(I know, you must think I am really horrible)
Yes, I am horrible.
But I have already admitted it that I am 'spoilt' and unhappy.
- If you are horrified of me, u can leave my blog immediately -
So, I am jealous.
yes, but I am not going to 泼冷水 on my friends.
because they are really very excited about it.
And, i cannot be even more horrible.
But I am just upset, because of the fact that I missed such a chance.
Because of my own fault.
Stupid right?
Ok, now i have to suck it up.
or someone should scold me.
cos wo de pi hen yang.
anyway, im beginning to get irritated with someone again!
hello, leader.
you girlfriend doesnt mean she recieve priority emails only.
PLEASE BCC US ALSO.
Thank u, and you guys can find a room to make out.
Anyway, I wonder..
To what extent would i go to get my boyfriend's attention.
Cos I am a real attention seeker.
I really like attention alot.
haha, horrible bad habit.
So, maybe...
I would be like the same as her?
i think?
Cos she was doing that infront of the WHOLE 2 team.
sit 1 corner emo, let her bf see.
ok lo.
I think i will also like that.
As in im nt being sarcastic.
just being honest about it, maybe i will act that way too.
):
Ok, enough la.
And really, crying helps.
haha~
words spilled @ 7/29/2010 11:03:00 PM /
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