"Pale in comparison"

Sometimes, I dont really know what lies under your words.
You come on as sarcastic at times, but I am ok with it.
After all, how long.. have I been through it..

Sometimes, I am really proud of myself.
Because, I can stand there without tearing or feeling sad.
As your remarks are no longer much of a threat to me.

I read from somewhere..
Pisces tend to be very specific in small details,
and when you hurt them they will remember it.

Well, that fits me.
Because nothing escapes my ears, the underlying sarcasms in your words.
Or the praises/love you have for him.

When I was a kid, this really hurt.
And I regret.. why am I not a boy too?
So you would love me more.
I do not know why..
Am I always trying to please you.
Going out with you..
Making myself look like a clown..
That now, it no longer feels embarrassing whenever I make a fool of myself.

I dont know.
I really dont know anymore.
But i really hope one day, you would know..
I love you so much, that I wished I can do something to make u happy for me.
Because, you never seem to be soft to me.
I wonder...
where has my childhood gone to..

I am so fucking deprived of your love.
But i do not dare to say.
Maybe I am just scared you would hate me if I do.

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I will think of what I wanna say when I think of it. PEACE OUTTTTTTTTT.