ยปemptiness;its in me agn.
Sunday, September 09, 2007
"Let me run,let me cry.
Don't ask why..
Hug me tight when i need it.."
*SCREAMS
im tired,sad and empty.
emo-ing agn.
these mixed feelings came pouring back to me,
while flashbacks trudged back to me like soldiers;injured.
this few days tired me out.
im tired now,like i was asked to run arnd..
these feelings in me..are weird.
i cant express it,neither can i say it out..
their weary faces passed me,i felt a panged of guilt now.
tell me..
who are those people..
trying to hurt me..?
can someone tell me..?
can someone just hold my hands and tell me that im safe..?
please..
dont make this world so complicated..
tell me those people are true to me..
please..
tauntings..
are enough...
i had enough...
your mask hide the deep animosity towards me.
take it off now,
and leave my world..
go away..
ur cruel words seem so pleasant,
so entertaining..
its draining me..
i cant hold on..
i cant have faith in such a person like you.
GO AWAY,GET OUT OF MY LIFE.
"all you can blame..is you.."
tell me..
why do you have to smile at me..?
please..
stay away from me..
if you want to hurt me..go..
just leave it..
"can i hurt you back..?"
i want to say that to you..
you made me bled..
i think..
u shall pay..
just leave me alone..
i'll drain those memories of you..
you're just a person who hurt me..
i shall forget about those happy moments i had with you.
i shall forget the way you smiled at me..
i shall forget how you taught me to hate a person.
i guess,
im tainted with you..
its too scary..
i will be what i am when i first met you.
i shall grit my teeth and bear my tears..
i have learnt my lessons..
those tears will no longer fall
i'll remember to smile at you..
but i will no longer allow myself to sink in too much.
i'll nt attach too much of you into me.
your corruption shall cease.
Others will teach me..
how to know such a person like you..
i shall recognize you one day.
AHHHHHHHHH!
sorry people..
im baccck! :D
the lil elephant is back!
*smiles brightly.
hmmphs..
this few days has been great.
except for some.
getting back that lousy results.
(dunworry!i'llworkhard&catchupwithuboth!)
being treated like a maid in my hse.
(that didnt sound like a good host,more like a great maid!)
and lastly,my earhole.
(it burned agn! hw nice.. :/)
first;
it was thurs.
(the stupid results day)
went to school,
actually wanted to attend poa,
but didnt.
too depressed.
ohwell,
mistakes.. LOADS mans..
But thank god..
there was someone who cheered me up,
thanks iris..
thank you so much.
*she can be a double faced,
for all i care; but she consoled me..
Always rmb to count my blessings!
i've met a person who stood by me when i cried!
aft emo-ing,
alwee abang kept making me laugh,
then aft much sitting dwn,
i went to play soccer.
lost fats agn!
i did a better kick this time round.. :F
aft that,
headed to the arcade.
played daytona,
watched the guys play ID.
then..
ant went hme,got tuition.
we hanged arnd,
we decided to head to hougang mall.
me and fish ran like dunno wad.
we kept running till charm's hse.
then we saw a.. a...chicken.
yes,u saw it..
its a CHICKEN in the heartlands!
wow!!
interesting-ness.
when we asked those ppl to come
see the chicken,they went off to another direction.
dumbass. :P
alwee took the bus and went home..
*abang! hw can u!!??
we scared the chicken off while those 2 dumbo
crossed the bridge.
crossed the road and headed to whr hougang stadium is.
when we reached,
the 2 lightning dumbos ran very fast.
me & fish decided to take a shortcut.
we strolled.
*fish;i tot we'll get lost,but we didnt!
we even manage to be faster than them!
then both of us continued to walk,
then they came chasing us back.
And we took our revenge!
we slapped them..!
lols!
then boy gt *angry.
emo-ed off.
went to the Mini Toons,
strolled arnd.
till the library,
me & fish pretended to b pissed.
i wasnt quite the good actor.
so aft the game,i gave up.
aft fooling arnd,fish wanted to go to the playground.
so we headed to the playground.
sat there for quite sometimes. :D
then the details (too long so i wnt say)
he sent me home,i sent him to the bus stop.
ilovedit..
thankyou..
it was the day whr persuasion came in successfully!
yay! mission completa!
Then on friday,
those ppl came my hse.
pple;
sam,amanda,hailmi,alwee,neelam.
watched evan almighty.
met up with him to study an hr before they came.
we studied maths.
we still didnt manage to find the ans for that qns.
sat there, and talked.
found out shocking stuff.
but im nt gna say abt it.
there..
aft some time those ppl trudged to my hse.
those 2 ahsorhs very bigshot.
walk infront..
headed hme and prepared the vid.
but too bad..
aft 15min of fiddling the thing worked.
finally..
watched to movie,and laughed.
so funny.
ohyes,
SAM,CAN LEND ME THE DISC?..
aft that,
played burnout cos alwee kept whining.
played a few rnd of race.
won alwee! :PP
then gt into co.op crashbreaker.
i love this game.
first it was fish and me
agnst alwee and boy.
we lost thou.
then it was me and ant agnst them.
we won!
then switched to
me,ant and fish..
vs the boys.
we won..
did we..?
those guy kept getting heartbreaker.
divideneds.. LOL.
then me & uncle.
won those 2 guys la!
then my mum came home..
*my mum was nt feeling well that day.
greeted her,
and continued.
then abang went home with him.
wanted to.. but cant.
fish is a disruption!
we cntd to play.
we played Halo.
sam kept double-sixed me and amanda.
so friggin pissed sia..
then played arnd.
ohyes!
Fish was Yodler
Boy was Wiggly
Ant was Default
while i was Pirate
so funnie... :DDDDD
Aft yodler gt the 'ghost',she kept owning la.
Wiggly too..
me and amanda were like soo poor thing.
we were trying to figure out how to use the
car thingy..
lol,need cooperation sia!
but still kena owned
So we decided to change maps..
whr..
a rocket launcher is at arm reach..
kept owning them back!
amanda sticked to me! :D
lol
great!
we shall do it agn!!
WE SHALL! :DD
Had fun..
except being treated like a maid.
Hey! thanks for helping me out..
You are always there when i need you!
Ur my SuperMan!
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