ยปit came back yet it is losing its way
Friday, August 24, 2007
"my heart came back,but i dont feel its beating"
Alas,Things are better left unsaid..
im tired,beaten today..
these prelims are giving me puffy eyes.
i sleep at 12. wake up at 6.
ohman,i feel like a panda. D:
ohwell,finished a couple of subjects alr..
go go go!
fighting fighting!!
he was there..yet so invisible
damn,
my head hurts and my heart feels empty.
jealousy bring me down.
im like so so lack of sleep,these few days.
either i think too much or memorise too hard.
Damn!
i aint wna lose sia!
time plan for these few days.
0530-0545 : wakes up and wash up.
0545-0600 : change clothes and pack bag,proceed for breakfast.
0600-0615 : my breakfast,a small cup of caffeine filled nescafe,chicken essence.
0615-0640 : eating,wear shoes,get into car,off to school.
0640-0710 : sent bro to school,my turn. either memorising notes or sleeping in car.
0710-0725 : reaches school,head to parade square,read notes.
0725- some destinated time : have exams.
some destinated time to another time : break. chit chat,chiong notes. look at him.
another destinated time to another time : exams again;different subjects.
15min intervals : either sleeping,doodling or writing SJ story.
end : collect papers, get out of hall,shivering. play with him and frens.
after lunch : head out and chit chat, waste time. go home. take mrt with him.
arnd 0500 to 6pm : snoozing at home.
0630-0700pm : bathing,watch a lil tv,eat dinner.
0700-1000pm : study,chiong notes,sms him. sit still on chair.
1000-1130pm : gets restless, sms him, lie arnd. talk crap. tie hair.
1130-1230pm : study..sms him. write diary. sleep.
sometimes,
1230-0100am: doodle then sleep.or sms him..then sleep. :DD
this is my life when its the exams period.
it sucks.
and im gaining weight. D:
and..
im happy with my life,
he's there for me. :D
but oh well,
when suspicion arise,
i get all grumpy and all sort.
i will ask..
"will it be better if im single..?"
"BUT what happens when i am..booring.."
i wish im single now,and sometimes i wished im not.
DARN!
hormones are killing me inside.
the exams are sucking me dry too. D:
ohwell,
"treasure what u have now,in case u lose it.."
god,i hoped i can.
i have to stop taking things for granted.
relationships are not bustops,they dont do stop-and-go..
ohgosh..
are attached guys that ATTRACTIVE?!
GOSH.
im PMS-ing now..!! D:
im jealous,shit,i admit,
IM JEALOUS.
and pls dont tell me that phrase.
it gives me the itch to smack u hard.
(but i know,i cant..i have to CONTROL!)
helphelphelphelp!
in a dilemma now. ))))):
pls la!
hes mine!!
*SHOO!
either all these crap are my bitchy sense,
or im just paranoid..
but seriously..
now this!!
to her..
is Bu Neng Shuo De Mimi!
i cant bear to tell her..
should i tell him?
but seriously,
hes a block of wood.
BOO!
tml going out for a while with them.
and HE's not coming along.
ohwell,
my thoughts not appreciated. ))):
*wna let him see me in my own flesh. :P
i look f-ing ugly in school u.
i still left with maths 2,chinese2,chemistry,physics 1 and practical.
GODD!!
HELP LA!...
"im tired. help.."
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words spilled @ 8/24/2007 05:58:00 PM /
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