ยปSO LONG,SUCKAs...!
Wednesday, May 14, 2008
"It was since long I heard rain drops pelting on the windows.."
I am under stress;mentally and pyschologically.
Not because of the school work but something else.
sighs.
"Posion spreads to the heart like how fire spread.."
man..
it never felt so nice to listen the raindrops pelting on the windows.
I feel peaceful and happy.
I would like to spend time alone rather than
get surrounded in a place where insecurities are realised..
sighs,
STOP BEING RIDICULOUS!
seriously,you are stepping on my nerves.
Yesterday,I thought u changed.
Oh please,
am I lying to myself?..
YES YES YES.
*nodds frantically.
by the way,
I noticed that it's all turning into a nightmare.
it is so sad.
sad sad story.
I spotted certain stuff are not turning what I thought it was supposed to be.
Is it going to be all the same?
It feels so constrained sometimes.
Constricted into what they want.
They build their own dreams and own regulations.
Thinking others will comply to them.
I wish to rebel,like some.
Yet,I was forced back into complying with their nonsense,bitching and stuff.
The poison is so alluring,yet it kills once you are attracted to it.
I thought of the consequences if I did not comply..
It was disastrous without me even saying it,the thoughts haunt me like my shadow.
But more surprisingly,I realised some people just comply,listen and follow.
They are just following or they found the meaning of complying with these rules?
My tongue forked as I spoked of them.
I became angry,yet concerned of certain parties.
I wished I was never turned into this scary cycle.
Am I supposed to hold on what I was trying to spit?
Should I bother and severe ties with them?
It bites as the thought lingers..
I am so afraid of speaking the truth..
Yet,I do not want the beautiful dream to shatter..
I will,once I see their true colours under those cracked mask.
I am so disappointed with what you are doing,I thought you were as nice as I thought you were..
I wish your faceless lies will reveal their true colours.
"Life is a STAGE,therefore I am going to unfold the drama. As I am the DRAMA QUEEN."
you have no right to instill your meaningless rules into their minds.
ok,well.
enough of me complaining.
:]]
I seriously am making use of the blog to vent my emotions.
D:
my bad.
I hope I have not attached myself with ASS.
NOT the guy in my class.
BUT Attention Seeking Syndrome.
I dislike it when people have it.
But well,attention seekers will always be like that.
:/
sighs.
-LOVES TO ALL WHO REALLY CARE-
character clash are so commonly seen.
Hoped that there are solutions to resolve this.
Cos these cannot be avoided.
Anyway,the drama is unfolding itself.
Needless to say,I aint toucching;doing anything.
I realised,
human nature will have people who have ASS,
go for th rich & famous,materialistic,
they can be the exact opposite of what you thought of them,
or maybe they potray themselves as flawless human that in the end,
you realized that they are all the same.
Greed & Lies runs in their lives like how blood runs in them.
'Would you stil be mine if I told you that all I said was lies?'
Labels: how ugly can ur heart be
words spilled @ 5/14/2008 11:34:00 AM /
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